Im a nervous wreck I am getting better but today the therapist is bringing Demi into my session to see if she can help me start fixing all the damage I caused Demi and I am nervous I havent seen her in weeks and I miss her like crazy and people assuming her and Wilmer are back together just cause they were holding hands at Knotts Berry Halloween Park is frustrating he's her best friend and thats all he is and he just came with her to the park to help her get her mind off all the issues revolving around me and my drug addiction and I am greatful for him being such a good friend he asked my permission and cheered up my girl and I am so glad he did she needed some fun and she got it. I sat in the room and waited for Demi to get here and when I heard her sweet voice my heart raced today will be emotional for both of us and there will be tears and yelling but its needed if her and I want to get on with our lives together. When she walked in my breath caught in my throat she looked gorgeous and her blue hair was sexy as hell my baby was gorgeous and I couldnt stop looking at her.
"Joey I missed you," she squealed and through herself in my arms as I held her tight kissing her red lips god I missed her and she looked beautiful. "I missed you to Dems and can I say the blue hair is really sexy on you." I whispered huskily in her ear and she blushed bright red as she smacked me on the chest playfully before settling in the couch next to me and looking at Dr. Marx she had a smile on her face as she saw the way Dem and I were with each other. "Welcome Demi Im Dr. Marx and I am helping Joe in his recovery, I asked you to come to this session becasue from what he has told me he needs to make things right with you so we are just here to talk about how your reltionship was with Joe from the beginning and everything is confidential and we are here to help so lets get started shall we." She asked and both Demi and I shook our head yes as she started the session. "So Demi how old were you when you met Joe and what was your reaction towards him?" She asked and Demi smiled as did I while holding hands tightly.
"I was 15 when I met Joe I had been casted as Mitchie for Camp Rock our disney movie and I was a shy little thing but when I met Joe something about him made me open up and at first I thought he was cocky and a flirt but he was also funny and he made me laugh all the time while we were on the set of the movie. The more we spent together the closer we got and by the end of Camp Rock we became best friends who were inseperable." Demi said as she smiled fondly at the memories flowing through her mind and I smiled along with her she was the best thing that ever happened to me and I loved her from the start. "Did you spend time together after the movie was over?" Demi looked at her and smiled, "yea they invited me to go on their Burning Up tour and helped produce my first two albums they discovered me and Joe and became even closer so close we would sleep over each others houses all the time and his family became my second family. Joe was there for me when I got my first heartbreak and when he realized I was sick starving myself and cutting he was the rock I needed to overcome my issues and he would force me to eat if he knew I hadnt so I was really greatful to him for that and when my grandma died he was there holding me as I cried myself to sleep he was always there when I needed him the most." Demi answered and the doctor wrote a few things down before thinking before asking the tough questions I knew were about to be asked.
"Demi did you always think of Joe as family or did other feelings arise as your friendship progressed?" Demi looked thoughtful for a minute and after locking eyes with me she sighed, "I guess I always loved Joe since the beginning but I never told him anything becasue I didnt want our friendship to be ruined so in my mind I would rather have him as my friend than as nothing at all. True it would hurt me whenever he would talk about his new girlfriend and when he started dating Camilla our friendship was strained and it hurt a lot." She said sighing and I held her hand I agree with her when I was with Camilla I forgot about my best friend and let Camilla's influence crowd my judgement. "How was your friendship strained?" Demi sighed, "he wouldnt hang out with me as much and he would say hurtful things at times he let Camilla run his life and he started being more of a jerk picking fights with me and leaving me out in the cold not calling me and snapping at me in anger when I said something negative about her. The biggest fight we had was when I warned him that Camilla was using him and that someone had caught her with another guy he lashed out and said really hurtful things." She said as we both thought back to that horrible night it was the worse fight Dem and I have ever gotten in and she didnt speak to me for months we were backstage at a concert and we got into the argument in my dressing room Camilla was supposed to come to the concert but she said she couldnt becasue she didnt feel well which was a lie because that night she was going out with Robert.
Flashback 2008
I was in a foul mood Camilla was supposed to come to my concert but she said she wasnt feeling well and yes I felt bad she was sick but I needed her here with me I missed her. Demi was here which was great for me her and I have been distant lately and I miss my best friend so I was glad she was here. We were giving our all in the concert and as it ended I was filled with excitement and adrenaline so after it was finished I couldnt stop smiling. I went into my dressing room to take a shower before we went to dinner and when I walked in there was Demi curled up on the couch looking at her phone, "hey Dem what you doing did you enjoy the concert Im really happy you came I missed you." I told her giving her a hug and she smiled hugging me back but the smile didnt reach her eyes was she still sad about Trace breaking her heart on twitter I warned her about him but she didnt listen and ended up getting her heart broken by the asshole god I hate him.
"The concert was great Joe Im glad I came too but where is Camilla wasnt she supposed to be here I didnt see her." She asked curiously and I sighed angrily, "she wasnt feeling well so she stayed home I understand she was sick but I wished she would have come I missed her she's been distant lately and I dont understand why." I said pacing around the dressing room as Dem sighed and looked at me, "Joe I dont mean to pry but someone told me they saw her with another guy kissing and holding hands with today during your concert are you sure shes at home sick Joe something about her worries me Joe and I dont want her to hurt you maybe you should talk to her yourself to make sure she isnt lying to you." When Demi told me those things I saw red and before I knew it I blew up at her, "WHO TOLD YOU THESE LIES DEMETRIA I KNOW CAMI SHE LOVES ME AND WOULD NEVER CHEAT ON ME LIKE THAT WHOEVER TOLD YOU WAS MISTAKEN AND FOR YOU TO BELIEVE THAT SHIT IS MESSED UP." I shouted at her and she jumped as tears fell down her face and for a split second I felt bad but the tears turned into anger, "I AM NOT A LIAR JOSEPH THE PERSON SENT ME PICS OF HER AND SOME GUY TOGETHER AND I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU BEFORE YOU FOUND OUT ON YOUR OWN AND GOTTEN HURT EVEN MORE AND IF YOU DONT BELEIVE ME THAN HERE SEE FOR YOUR FUCKING SELF." She yelled and I looked down and saw her cozying up with some man at a club but I didnt want to believe it so I threw the phone at Demi and snapped even more saying things I wish I hadnt, "THAT PIC COULD BE FUCKING PHOTOSHOPPED AND I DONT BELEIVE YOU BUT I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN YOU WOULD DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS DEMETRIA DEVONNE EVER SINCE I GOT WITH CAMI YOUVE BEEN A RAGING BITCH TO HER AND ME ALL BECAUSE OF YOUR FUCKING JEALOUSY GET OVER IT DEMI JUST BECAUSE I DONT FEEL THE SAME WAY ABOUT YOU THAT YOU DO ME DOESNT GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO SLANDER MY GIRLFRIEND'S REPUTATION I DONT LOVE YOU IM IN LOVE WITH CAMILLA GET THAT THROUGH YOUR FUCKING HEAD YORE SO PATHETIC." I shouted and gasped at what I just said to my best friend what the hell is wrong with me I didnt mean it. "Dem I," she cut me off picking up her things. "I never thought you would scream at me likie that Joe but who am I kidding I dont recognize you anymore my best friend is gone and even your family sees how that woman is changing you for the worse but youre too blind to see it so do whatever the hell you want Joe I am done with you and dont bother calling me or looking for me becasue I want nothing to do with you until you find my best friend again goodbye Joe and I hope I am wrong about Camilla cause I never want to see you get hurt." She said and with that she walked out of my room and out of my life leaving a gaping hole in my heart as it ached for her smile and her bear hugs and she was out of my life for months and it hurt like hell and when I found out what Camilla was really like my world fell apart at the seams and I had no one to lift me up and as I tried calling Dem and apologizing profusely she never contacted me and that just made me more miserable so bad that I ended up crying on stage quite a few times I should have listened to Demi she warned me and I ignored her and right now I just neeeded my best friend especially since my grandma died as well I was a wreck.
I was in my hotel room crying while staring at the ceiling what did I do wrong for Camilla to do such a thing if she just wanted to be with me for publicity she should have told me from the beginning before I fell in love with her and got my heart broken into a thousand pieces and seeing her with Robert Pattison was another crack to my already broken heart. I felt someone come in and I turned away from the person who was most likely my mother but as I felt her arms around me and her vanilla and roses scent fill my nose I tightened my grip on her knowing very well that my Demi had come back to me, "Dems I am so sorry for the things I said I didnt mean them I was just in denial but I should have listened to you and maybe I wouldnt be so sad. You mean the world to me Dem youre my best friend and I need you and I am so sorry for what I said I didnt mean it please forgive me I need you more than ever now Dee I cant do this without you." I begged as I cried in her arms and turned my head burying it in her neck as sobs wracked my body and she held me tight like a mother would hold her son, "shhh its ok Joey I forgive you Im here for you now and forever ok its me and you agaisnt the world JJ I swear." She told me as she kissed my head and I held her tight crying in the arms of my best friend the one who is always there for me and as I locked my eyes with her as she wiped my tears away something snapped inside me and before I knew what the hell I was doing I crashed my lips against hers and kissed her hungrily on the mouth devouring her lips in a desperate kiss as she gasped in shock and held me tight as I intensified the kiss thrusting my tongue in her mouth as after a second she kissed me back just as desperate and I flipped us over so I was on top of her as our kiss intensified to a maximum and I couldnt get enough of her she tasted so damn sweet and as my hands went under her shirt and caressed her sides she unconciously grinded against me and I was gone trailing kisses to her neck and sucking on her sweet spot as she clung to me and let out a loud moan. As soon as I heard her sexy moan I froze and pulled away looking at her flushed face and bruised lips in shock and I scrambled off her like I have been burned as I looked at her and the desire swirling in her eyes that soon was fading and she looked down with bright red cheeks, "I am so sorry Demi I dont know what came over me please dont hate me Im sorry." I said nervously as the desire in me finally started calming down as she bit her lip and looked at me with shining eyes, "its ok Joey you were vulnerable and looking for an escape from the pain lets just forget about it ok lets pass it off as a moment of insanity ok it doesnt have to hurt us in any way ok lets just forget about it." She said and the look in her eyes was begging me to agree so I did and we stored that moment of craziness into the depths of our minds forgetting what had occurred but neither of us knew that moment of temporary insanity will come back to us and that memory would start a new adventure full of love and happiness.
flashback ends
Demi's POV
That day was a day I would never forget no one had ever kissed me with so much abandon and passion and it was a kiss that always stays on my mind till this day. "Was that the moment you fell in love with Joe Demi or was it another time?" The doctor asked me and I sighed before speaking, "yea that was the day I fell in love with Joe I just buried my feelings becasue he was vulnerable his long time girlfriend had just broken up with him so I buried my feelings and continued to pla the best friend he needed me and we had gotten so much closer to each other at the time I didnt want to screw it up." I told her as Joe aqueezed my hand and smiled gently at me and I smiled back loving having him so close I really did love him and I knew the next questions were going to be hard but in order for Joe and I to move on and be happy our issues need to be resolved and if this will help with his recovery than Im all for it. "When did the both of you realize the feelings had chnged between the two of you?"
I sighed happily as I thought back to Camp Rock 2 where Joe and I realized we were falling for each other. "I guess it was when we were shooting Camp Rock 2 I started seeing Dem as more than a friend and it scared me becasue her and I had been friends for so long to move up to a different level was scary but I knew I couldnt keep denying my feelings and when we had that on screen kiss I thought back to the kiss we had when Camilla had broken up with me and my felings kept growing." Joe said and I smiled knowing he was feeling the same way I was, "yea that was when it changed for me too so I went to his cabin and told him whats wrong with us we're perfect for each other and he just stared at me in shock before running away adn I was left sad and confused." I said and Joe blushed he had run out not knowing what to take from my sentence but the next day he surprised me and thats when out whirlwind romance begin. "Why did you run out on Demi after she tod you that Joe?" The doctor asked and Joe blushed even more before looking down I have never seen him blush so much it was adorable.
"Well I was caught off guard with her statement and my fight or flight reaction jumped in and I ran afraid of the feelings I had for her surfacing so I avoided her until the next day when I went to her cabin bringing her lilies and ksising her senseless asking her to be my girl." Joe said and I smiled blushing like mad, "he just came into my cabin kissed me and asked me to be his and I happily agreed but we made a promise that if it didnt work out we wouldnt let it ruin our friendship and thats how our relationship started." I said and she smiled before giving us a break for lunch, "are you ok to continue Dem the next questions will be an emotional rollercoaster for us and I dont want to hurt you all over again." He said and I sighed before kissing him softly on the lips, "it will be ok Joey we need this and if it will help you get better than so be it Ill be ok I forewarn you I may yell and cry to you and I might hit you a few times but it doesnt mean I hate you ok becasue I dont I love you Joeybear and want to help you anyway I can ok." I told him and he smiled kissing me as we ate our lunch before making our way to Dr. Marx's office where a huge emotional time in my life will be revealed. "So I am going to ask you a few things about your relationship before I get to the break up ok. How was your relationship in the beginning before everything fell apart between the two of you?" We both sighed before starting to talk, "it was a fairytale I was with a man I loved unconditonally who treated me like a princess and showered me with love and affection we kept it a secret for a couple of months becasue we didnt want the press to find out and even though it was frustrating at times I loved him so it helped a lot. We had dates and he took me to the most amazing places and we even flew off to Paris one time to celebrate our 3 month anniversary and it was heaven no one saw us or knew where we went and even though we got in trouble when we came back home our parents let it go cause we were so freaking happy." I said as I smiled thinking back to our first Valentine's Day together Joe had taken us in his private jet to Paris so we could celebrate Valentine's Day and our 3 month anniversary that week in Paris was magical and it was the best damn thing he ever did for me we even made love for the first time while we were over there it was amazing.
Flashback February 14 2010
I cannot beleive Joe whisked me away to Pairis for the weekend it was amazing Joe wanted to spend our first Valentine doing something special and he had the private jet take us to Paris on Thursday night where Joe rented out an amazing suite and Donald Trump's hotel in Paris and we enjoyed the sights Paris had to offer it was amazing and I loved him for it we were at the eiffle tower and enjoying the view it was amazing and I loved every minute of it, "I cannot beleive we're in Paris Joey our parents are going to kill us Im only 17 my mom and dad are going to murder you but it was so worth it Joey and I love the days we've been here its been magical I love you Joey." I told him and he smiled wrapping his arms around me as he kissed my lips with love and passion god I loved him. "I love you too Dem and the trip isnt over yet wait until you see what I have planned for Valentine's Day tommorow its going to blow your mind babygirl." He said as I kissed him and we continued our day sight seeing in Paris. The next day I was woken up by heart shaped pancakes and orange juice as well as strawberries with a gift box Joe had for me, "awe Joey you shouldnt have I love these pancakes theyre delicious." He smiled and kissed me as I fed him a strawberry and he gave me the red velvet box it was beautiful I loved it, "happy Valentine's Day baby open it I hope you like it Dani helped me pick it out for you its a promise ring where I promise to love you and only you for the rest of my life and when the time is right Ill replace it with an engagement ring I love you Dem with all my heart." He said and I gasped at the beautiful ring staring at me as tears fell down my face and Joe placed it on my finger.
"I love it Joey thank you its beautiful absolutely beautiful." I said as I kissed him lovingly and passionately on the lips before we took our seperate showers before going out to Paris where Joe had rented a boat to take me sailing around the river in Paris it was amazing and I loved it he was just amazing. After our boat ride we went to the restaurant in the eiffle tower and had dinner as the paris lights surrounded us encasing us in a romantic atmosphere and I loved it Joe truly was my prince. We walked around some more and than we went to a dance club where all they played was salsa music it was the best night of my life and I didnt know just how more amazing it would get but I would soon find out. We got back to the hotel room around 2 am and I was in a happy stated of mind and I couldnt wait to see what Joe had in store for the rest of the night. We got into the room and as soon as the door closed Joe had me up agaisnt the wall as he kissed me hungrily on the lips as my legs wrapped around his waist tightly as he deepened the kiss I took off his jacket and I kicked off my shoes before he picked me up and held me under my ass as we made our way to the bedroom.
He set me down and I took off his white shirt as he kissed me hungrily on the mouth I knew what was about to happen and I couldnt wait Joe and I had been talking about making love with each other and breaking our promises becasue we knew we would nbe together forever and we wanted to express it to each other so as he unzipped my dress and I stepped out of it leaving me in nothing but my bra and underwear there was no going back I was ready to give my all to Joe and I wasnt going to regret it. He laid me down on the bed and hovered over me as I unbuttoned his pants and pulled them down leaving him in nothing but his black boxer briefs as we kissed intensely as his hands caressed my sides. He looked at me and kissed me before trailing his fingers on my back playing with my bra clasp, "are you sure about this Dem if youtr not ready Ill understand I dont want to pressure you." He asked worried and I pulled him down kissing him, "Im ready Joey make love to me I need you." I begged and Joe took off my bra letting it fall on the floor before taking me all in, "youre so so beautiful Dem baby." He said before he took my nipple into his mouth and sucked on it making my senses go into hypodrive his mouth felt so good wrapped around my breast and I was in heaven.
Joe kissed down my body before pulling my underwear down gently and spreading my legs open before taking my clit into his mouth and sucking on it harshly as he thrusted two fingers in and out of me making my walls clench around his fingers as he fingered me faster and faster and before I knew it a burning heat went throughout my entire body and I came hard seeing stars as Joe swallowed my juices greedily, "mmmmmm fuck Dem u taste so damn good mmmmmmm." He moaned out as he licked me clean and kissed up my body crashing his lips against mine in a devouring kiss before he nestled himself in between my legs teasing my entrance before kissing me and putting a condom on before he locked eyes with me and gently pushed the head of his cock inside me as he tried to get adjusted before pushing inside me gently and breaking through my barrier which caused me to wince in pain and whimper as tears fell down my face. "Shh its ok baby the pain will go away soon I promise shh babygirl shhh," mhe cooed as he kissed awya my tears and my lips as I took a breath and urged him to keep going and after a few seconds the pain dissapeared and all I felt was utter pleasure as Joe thrusted in and out of me at a slow deep pace.
"Mmmmm Joey fasterrrrrrrrrrr." I moaned out and he went in and out faster as my body heat skyrocketed and all I felt was red hot need for Joe as he went in and out faster and he wrapped my legs tightly around his waist as we made love and kissed me on the lips and anywhere he could reach. After a few hard thrusts I clenched around his shaft tight and he plunged inside me taking me to heaven and before I knew it I tensed and came hard in an orgasmic explosion, "ahhh ahhhhh AHHHHHHH FUCK JOEYYYYYYYYYYYYY." I screamed out as my juices flowed out of me and onto the bed and Joe's dick as he thrusted faster and faster before he locked eyes with me and came hard shooting his entire seed into my womb as we both climaxed at the same time, "ahhh uhhhhh AHHHHHH OHHHHHH GOD DEMIIIIIIIIIIIIIII." He screamed out and collapsed against me as we tried to catch our breath and as soon as he calmed down he kissed me with so much love he left me breathless. "I love you Dem with everything I am now and forever." He whispered and placed his purity ring on my finger before kissing it and nuzzling my neck as I placed mine on his, "I love you too Joey with all I am."
Flasgback ends
Joe's POV
I shook my head at the memory it was the first time Dem and I slept together and it was the best night of my life. "So thats where you and Demi made love for the first time am I correct." She asked me and I smiled remembering, "yea it was we had been talking about it for a while and we just let nature take its course and we made love for the first time. I never regretted that night it was by far the best of my life and I knew at that moment that I loved Demi irrevocably." She wrote some things down and aslked the dreaded question I was not ready to answer but I knew I had too. "If you loved each other so much than what happened to end such a beautiful relationship?" She asked and I sighed before looking at her and Demi, "I was in love with Dem and I had so many plans for the both of us but my management and dad started telling me about their concerns they said Demi and I were going too fast and that we were neglecting our duties as celebrities. They said we didnt know what love was that we were too young and that if it doesnt work out the tour would be awekward and uncomfortable I didnt want to listen to them but doubts started filling my head what if she hurts me like Camilla did or if I hurt her what if we break up and lose the beautiful friendship we had it all was filling my head like a poison and Dem and I were constantly arguing she was jealous of Chelsea Kane my co star for JONAS. I noticed she was losing weight and had scars on her body and that scared me shitless she was back to her old ways and I was blaming myself for it so I started distancing myself and on a trip to New York to promote Camp Rock 2 I broke it off casue I was afraid of losing her and like always I ran leaving her when she needed me the most. It is my biggest regret and if I could go back in time I would and change things." I said as tears fell down my face as Demi held my hand tight, "I was having issues at that point in time the fame was getting to me Disney was getting to me as well as all the hate mail so I fell back into my old ways starving myself and cutting myself and I hid it from Joe but he found out anyway."
"Also my bipolar disorder was acting up and I had no idea I had it so I took the break up hard and made my way to South America for my tour before the Camp Rock tour started and when I got back and saw him with Ashley my heart broke even more." Demi cried out and I tried to comfort her but she pushed me away and I sighed knowing she would act like this but it still hurt. "Joe why did you bring Ashley on tour knowing your ex was going to be there did you not take her into consideration." She asked and I sighed not wanting to answer this question but I knew I had to if there was any hope for a future with Demi and I, "I met Ashley in London and she was nice someone I could talk to we started hanging out and I liked her and when Nick found out about her he was pissed he yelled at me teling me it was too soon to date someone new and that she was just a rebound and was bound to get hurt in the end but I didnt listen I wanted the pain I had of breaking up with Demi to go away so I used Ashley as an outlet for that I grew to care for her but I was never in love with her she was something different and was helping me forget about the pain I had after letting Demi go. I admit taking her on tour with us was wrong but I was young and stupid not thinking of the consequences of my actions and I let Ashely influence me in a bad and unhealthy way I partied all the time with her and drank myself into a stupor but at night I would cry myself to sleep blaming myself for what happened to Demi and hating myself for not being there for her when she needed me the most."
"I was miserable and everyone noticed it and they were worried about me Ashley was shooting Breaking Dawn and cheating on me with all her co workers but I still stayed with her trying to fill in the void in my heart Demi left ignoring the pain that was consuming me by drinking and partying and drinking things to spice up our sex life even though after sleeping with her I felt dirty and an all consuming guit eat at me cause all I saw when I slept with Ashley was Demi. Ashley was just conveniant and I was using her for publicity for my solo album and she was using me for the promotion of Breaking Dawn adn in all this I would call Demi's cell just to hear her voice and I would ask Nick about her praying to God she will get better. My time with Ashley was a dark moment in my life where I lost the one person who I loved unconditonally and was settling for someone I didnt love who spend all her time cheating on me as I was in misery thinking I couldve done something to help Demi if I hadnt let fear and doubts cloud my6 judgement so I wrote music and Sorry a song for Demi that meant the world to me and it still does." I said as fresh tears fell down my face and I felt Dem hold me tight as her own tears fell down as well. "Demi how did you feel about Joe and Ashley at that time in your life and what would you like to tell Joe?" She asked Dem and I braced myself for an onslaught of rage and pain coming from her but I wasnt going to interupt she needs to talk just as much as I do.
"I felt useless and taken advantage of I had given Joe everything and he promised he would never hurt me and he did when I needed him the most I may have been too far gone but all I wanted was someone to rescue me. When he broke up with me my heart was shattered and I was so angry at him I wanted to lash out and hurt him just as much as he hurt me but he was in Africa and I was in South America so I couldnt. I changed my hair started dressing sexier to show him what hes missing and when I found out about Ashley my heart finished breaking and I was so angry I lashed out picking fights with him every chance I got and cutting him with hurtful words like Camilla was right youre nothing but a pathetic little boy who runs away when something good is in his life and who isnt worthy of my time that was one of the most hurtful things I said. I called Ashley Trashley and hated her with a passion and I drowned myself in alcohol and drugs so angry and hurt at what he did I hated you so damn much Joe you broke me and all I wanted was for you to love me and than when I saw yu with Ashley I thought it was becasue she was prettier than me and skinnier than me so got even more deep into my own personal hell cutting everywhere I could and throwing up my food every chance I got wearing skimpy outfits to try and get your attention and when I got it I milked it for everything it was worth ending up becoming the mistress as we cheated on Ashley I was so far gone I became your personal whore and I didnt care thats how bad it got. I loved you AND YOU BROKE ME JOE YOU BROKE ME HOW COULD YOU DO SUCH A THING I8 GAVE YOU EVERYTHING AND YOU THREW IT BACK IN MY FACE WHY WHY WHY." Demi screamed as she punched me and cried her eyes out breaking my heart how could I do such a thing to the love of my life I am nothing but scum and I deserve to die for all the hurt I caused her what the hell was wrong with me god.
"Im so sorry baby Im sorry Im sorry please forgive me please I screwed up Dem and if it takes me all my life I will make it up to you I promise. Shhh Im sorry babygirl Im sorry." I pleaded as I cried and clung to her for dear life she was my love and I was going to make up for it if it was the last thing I did. I held her in my arms and she clung to me holding so tight she could break a rib but I didnt care my Demi needed me and I was going to make it up to her showing her just how much I love her she was mine and I was never letting her go again. She calmed down and sighed as she nuzzled her face in my neck as I sat her on my lap holding her and running my fingers up and down her spine soothing her frazzled nerves as I kissed her lips softly and wiped away her tears as we turned to look at the doctor. "Well I do think we made a breakthrough Joe your fear of commitment caused the rift between you and Demi and casued you to fall into depression where you drowned yourself in drugs and alcohol to forget about the mess of your life."
"You also blame yourself for Demi's breakdown and youve been holding onto that for 3 years already which explains the escalation of your drug and alcohol abuse which caused you to end up in treatment. Demi the heartache Joe casued still lives within you and causes you to build up walls that cannot be penetrated by no one but slowly those walls are tumbling down and in order for you to truly heal dont close yourself off to love Joe learned his lesson he will not hurt you again but you need to reassure him that you going to rehab was not his fault because he still blames himself and he needs to let go of that blame it wasnt his fault." Demi turned to me and kissed me, "Joey it wasnt your fault stop blaming yourself I had issues long before I ever met you Ive had them since I was 7 years old and now I am fianlly healing from them but I need your help to continue this road of recovery so stop balming yourself I dont and I forgive you for what happened 3 years ago we were both to blame for our break up and now we have the opportunity to do it right this time so please baby stop with the blame game it wasnt your fault and I love you with all my heart Joey ok." She told me with so much emotion my breath caught she really did forgive me and I see the love in her eyes so in this moment I know we will be alright it will take a lot of work but our love will prevail.
"Ok Demi I wont blame myself anymore and I love you too with all my heart and we will last forever this time I promise." I told her and kissed her lips lovingly as I held her in my arms and saw the doctor smiling before she dismissed us and gave us some exercises to do to build that trust and love we lost. "Im going to miss you baby but Ill be out of here soon I promise I am getting better and for Christmas Ill only drink water and soda no alcohol I love you baby and I am so glad we got everything out of our system we needed that talk." I told her and she smiled as we walked around the gardens enjoying the moonlight and the stars, "I love you too Joey and its good we talked we needed it and I know youll be out soon I can feel it. I cant wait until Christmas its going to be magical I just know it Im helping your mom decorate the Christmas tree and bake cookies and Nick is helping me decorate my apartment with Christmas lights and decorations I already bought Winston a santa hat so I can take pics of him and show you." She said excitedly and I smiled happy she was happy and praying to God I can spend Christmas with my family and Demi.
"I have to go Joey but Ill visit soon ok I love you Joe and get better so we can spend Christmas with each other ok. We're going to be ok Joe I know it and once youre out of here a new beginning awaits us as we spend our lives together I love you Joe and remember I forgive you ok baby bye see you soon." She said before crashing her lips agianst mine in a passionate needy kiss and I savored it memorising her taste so I can work harder to get better knowing she's waiting for me outside where our lives together can finally begin.