Chapter 5

BPOV

I turned on TV and everyone thought Izzy Starr was gone. That didn't surprise me. James and Victoria probably told the press I ran away or was kidnapped.

"We are on Starr watch and no one has seen the pop star in hours. Has the star hit rock bottom?" I wish. They would let me free if I hit rock bottom. I heard banging from upstairs.

"Bella, I'm Rosalie, your sister-in-law. Can you calm your brother down?" Calm him down, why? I walked upstairs with her and saw the others holding Emmett back.

"She's a little girl and you kissed Her!" he was going to kill Edward. Little girl. He has no right to rule my life, he left.

"Emmett, I'm seventeen and I kissed him. I'm not a little girl anymore." He wouldn't listen. I went back into the room with the piano. I started writing.

"What are you writing?" Edward asked.

" He didn't kill you!" I said. I was thrilled.

"No, but what are you writing."

"Lyrics/poems."

"Can I hear?"

I started singing.

I used to think
I had the answers to everything,
But now I know
Life doesn't always go my way, yeah...
Feels like I'm caught in the middle
That's when I realize...
I'm not a girl,
Not yet a woman.
All I need is time,
A moment that is mine,
While I'm in between.
I'm not a girl,
There is no need to protect me.
It's time that I
Learn to face up to this on my own.
I've seen so much more than you know now,
So don't tell me to shut my eyes.

I'm not a girl,
Not yet a woman.
All I need is time,
A moment that is mine,
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl,
But if you look at me closely,
You will see it in my eyes.
This girl will always find
Her way.
I'm not a girl
(I'm not a girl don't tell me what to believe).
Not Yet a woman
(I'm just trying to find the woman in me, yeah).
All I need is time (All I need),
A moment that is mine (That is mine),
While I'm in between.
I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman (not now)
All I need is time (All I need),
A moment that is mine,
While I'm in between.
I'm not a girl,
Not yet a woman.

"That is really good. Thanks for talking to your brother. I have to go Emmett's coming." He said. He left. I looked over my song. This song was perfect for the situation I was in.

"I'm sorry. I just worry too much. And now that I got you back, I don't want to lose you, which is why you will be staying with Charlie. Look, I trust you, its just I don't know if I can trust you with Edward." That is strange. "Your song helped my decision. You're not a little girl anymore."

"Thanks. I see you have your guitar."

"I always play our song. Wanna sing it together."

"You know it." I said. He started playing the opening chords.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free
Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night
Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise,
You were only waiting for this moment to arise,
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.

We haven't sang that song since the day of my twelfth birthday.

"I missed that." I said.

"Me too. Carlisle would like you to stay here for observation. You were in pretty bad shape when we found you." I nodded. "Whose idea was the school girl outfit." I rolled my eyes and laughed. My brother was seriously asking about my sex symbol status.

"Mine. It was the only decision I made. Plus, I didn't want to be recognized. It was an outfit I would never normally wear. That's why I wore the wig."

"Well, you weren't recognized. I only recognized you by the locket and ring." He said staring at the locket. I opened it out and showed him the picture I put inside. It was a picture of him and me when I was four. He smiled.

"I never took them off." I hugged Emmett. I finally had a normal life again.