I'm pretty pleased with myself, I've decided to post a chapter a day until I'm satisfied with it :3
I don't own the characters, I just wanna play matchmaker (Who doesn't love fictional lesbians.)
It took a little while and ended in a few close calls, but Cosima and Scott managed to sort out the cure. For some reason, it was a shock, the first time I saw her without her oxygen tank in two, her face free of the cannulas and I couldn't help the few tears that slipped down my cheeks, which she wiped away with a soft chuckle.
"Do you know how awesome it is not to have to tow that damned tank around with me all the time?" She grinned, pulling me into a hug.
"I imagine it's pretty awesome." I smiled, squeezing her gently. Her skin no longer held that pale, yellowish tint to it, dark circles no longer hung under her eyes and her voice sounded much more clear.
"It is, oh my gosh, I just want to run up a flight of stairs, or give Kira a piggy back ride or..something!" She exclaimed, almost bouncing in front of me. "Just because I can now, I mean, I refused to take the elevator on the way down, but that little flight of stairs was nothing, gosh I got to the bottom and my chest didn't hurt and I could breathe and I just.." I cut her off, grabbing her flailing hands gently, before pressing a kiss to her lips.
"Cos, you're talking way too much, way too fast, why don't we go home so you can see Kira, yeah?" I asked, pulling her toward the car slowly. I had recently started renting an apartment, not too far from Felix's. I hadn't told her yet and wanted it to be a surprise.
"Sorry, sorry, I'm just excited, of course we should go home, I miss her so much." She smiled at me, allowing me to open the passenger side door for her, closing it once she was settled.
I shook my head, running a hand through my hair as I got in, starting up the car with deft movements. "She was pretty bummed when I told her she couldn't come with me, but she's helping Felix with dinner, we wanted everything to be ready when you came home, so I'm sure she's going to try and climb you when you come in the door." I chuckled, speeding down the road.
"Dinner? That's totally sweet!" She grinned, reaching over to squeeze my thigh. "She can climb me if she wants to, she's not going to pulled anything out, so no worries." She leaned back in her seat, leaving her hand on my thigh.
I smiled softly, popping in a CD Felix had burned for me, it was a playlist of songs that reminded me of Cosima. I flipped to the fifth song and turned the radio up a bit, listening as the music came on, making me smile.
As the lyrics started up and I sang along, blushing a bit. I never thought I was very good at singing, but I figured she might like it. "You're a diamond, how I found you I still don't know, but now I've got you and I'll never let you go, if your heart's a pocket looking for some change, well my heart makes lots of sense, just stay quiet, breathe deep, breathe out, breathe slow."
I paused, chancing a glance over at her, seeing her smile, I continued on with the chorus, crinkling my nose as I missed the line before it. "I'm a fool with dreams, and not a lot of things, I swear that I can be, all you need, don't give up on me, give me one more day, don't give this all away, we'll be you'll see, just don't give up on me." I stopped, figuring my voice was going to ruin the song and just settled for taking her hand off my thigh, holding it tightly.
She leaned over and kissed my cheek, murmuring in my ear "That was beautiful." I smiled, shaking my head as I pulled into my parking space, looking over at her.
"You're gonna have to put this on." I said, pulling the scarf from my neck, handing it over. "Over your eyes, I want this to be a surprise." I smiled, as she let me tie it behind her head.
"Oh, alright, but don't make me fall." She pouted as I rolled my eyes, shutting the car off, before going around to help her out. "Wait, we aren't at Felix's, so where are we?"
"Would you shush and find out?" I asked, as I locked the car, taking her hand in mine. "Unfortunately for you, we're taking the elevator, because my knees hurt." I teased, poking her side gently as I slowly lead her into the apartment complex.
"Meanie." She huffed as we shuffled into the elevator. I punched the button marked three and linked our arms, a smile on my face. "You know, I can't help but think you're doing something incredibly adorable." She murmured, nudging my side gently.
"You'll see." I sighed, leading out of the elevator and down the hall to a door marked C6. I unlocked the door and pushed it open, leading her in slowly, before shutting the door. I undid the scarf and let it fall to her shoulders. "Welcome home, Cos." I murmured as she looked around, her eyes wide.
"No way..no friggin' way, you got an apartment?" She asked, turning to me, a grin on her face. I shook my head as Kira came running out of the kitchen, hugging Cosima around the waist.
"Correction, we got an apartment, it's yours too." I said, as she picked up Kira, hugging her tight. She gave me a look that had my heart melting, but opted to talk to the little one in her arms, instead of me.
"Hey there cutie." She cooed, kissing Kira's cheeks, before tickling her sides.
"No, don't tickle me!" Kira cried, giggling loudly as she squirmed. Cosima set her down, grinning at her as she knelt down so she was eye level with the little one.
"I missed you, I hope you've been taking care of your mommy while I was away." She smiled as I rolled my eyes, moving around them to go check on dinner.
"I miss you too, Cosima." I could hear the smile in my daughters voice as she told Cosima about waking me up this morning. "Mommy slept in and I had to wake her up so she could pick you up, I'm so glad you're back."
"I'm glad to be back, and I'm all better, so I can take you to the park after school tomorrow and we can play, how does that sound?" She asked as I stirred the sauce in the pan, making sure it wasn't going to boil over.
"Kira seems to be taking your relationship with Cosima pretty well." Felix commented as he opened a bottle of Cosima's favorite red wine.
I smiled a bit and nodded to myself, reaching up to gather the plates from the cupboard. "Yeah, she didn't even seem surprised, she just shrugged her shoulders and went about her business." I chuckled, laying the plates on the table.
He followed me, putting out silverware, just as Mrs. S had taught us how to all those years ago. I smiled at him and let him finished setting the table, as I brought out the food. Kira begged To have Cosima sit at the head of the table, so she could be one one side and I on the other.
"Alright, alright." She chuckled, allowing the eight year old to pull her chair out for her. I smiled at the two, before I served everyone. "This looks amazing, thank you guys." She said, smiling at us all.
"Don't thank me, I just got the stuff, Felix cooked, I can't cook worth a damn." I shook my head, seating myself on the left side of my girlfriend, flashing my brother a fond smile before laying my napkin in my lap. I may not always use them, but I had manners.
"It's true, she some how manages to burn water." Felix teased as he started eating. I rolled my eyes, putting a little bit of pepper over my pasta, before digging in myself.
"That's a scientific impossibility, how in the world, did you burn water?" She asked, as I shot Felix a look. I swallowed what was in my mouth, before I answered her.
"I didn't literally burn the water, it just all evaporated and so the pan got really hot and it smelled like something burning." I shrugged my shoulders, glancing over at Kira, making sure she didn't need help cutting anything up.
"What's this called again?" Kira asked, before taking a bite, a contented smile on her face.
"It's Fettuccine Alfredo, Monkey." Felix answered for me, as I had stuffed a rather large bite of chicken in my mouth. "Your mum, used to try and get Mrs. S to make this every week, and after a while I had had enough of it, but I must say, I did a pretty good job on this, what do you think, Sarah?" He asked, after I had swallowed.
"It's not bad, but then again, I don't think I've had it since that one time, I think it was my thirteenth birthday, she made a big pot of it and you caught one whiff and tossed your cookies, she swore she would never make it again." I chuckled, shaking my head as I took sip of my wine, a small smile on my face.
"Oh god, don't even remind me, you should be glad I got over that, otherwise I would have made you get stuff for Chicken Parmigiana." He retorted, popping a forkful of pasta into his mouth.
I rolled my eyes, before glancing over at Cosima, who was watching us with a smile, hopefully enjoying her meal. "What do you think of it?" I asked, tilting my head to the side.
"Oh, it's wonderful, my mom used to make this for me, she never understood why I loved Italian food so much, but she didn't complain, most of the girls my age were all concerned about weight loss and stuff and I was stuffing my face with pasta every week." She smiled, taking a sip of her wine, letting out a soft sigh. "This tastes so good, do you know how long it's been since I've had a good glass of wine?"
"I'm glad you like it, I bought the one that you like, the one I had to all but drag you away from half way through your treatment." I stuck my tongue out, making Kira giggle.
"Mm, and I appreciate it, everything is so perfect, you guys are so amazing." She smiled warmly at us, her knee bumping mine gently, making me smile more.
"Well, we had to have an amazing night, for such an amazing woman." I murmured, sighing when Felix threw his napkin at my head, tell me to stop being a sap. "Kira, close your eyes." I told her, waiting until she had, before flipping him the bird. "Alright, you can open them." I leaned back in my chair, pushing my almost empty plate away.
Cosima shook her head, chuckling softly at us, finishing off her food, before pushing her plate away as well. Kira only finished about half of it, before she mumbled she was full and shuffled off to her room.
The rest of the night was pretty low key, we all talked over wine, Cosima and I on the couch, her legs draped over my lap, out fingers tangled together, Felix in the armchair, his legs hanging over one of the arms. He all but avoided the topic of her being in the hospital, but centered around recent events.
Felix had recently started up a relationship with the newest addition to the clone club, Tony, which was both odd and adorable all at the same time. Tony, we found, was a lot like me, he grew up taking care of himself and had to deal with a lot of shit, but he was sweet and I could tell he had a soft spot for Felix. The conversation only really stopped Cosima and I went to tuck Kira in for the night. When we came back out, Felix was out of the chair, stretching his arms over his head.
"I should head out." Felix yawned, looking at the wall clock. It was a little after ten, but I knew how he felt, he got up at around seven, to have breakfast with Tony and then spent the whole day getting the place ready for me.
"Alright, thanks again, for everything, Fee." I said, as he pulled me into a hug, ruffling my hair as he pulled away. I huffed as he moved around me to hug my girlfriend, enveloping her in his arms.
"I'll see you lot later, sleep well." He said to us both, before exiting. I smiled, shaking my head before I went to lock the door, letting out a soft yawn as I slipped the chain in place before turning around.
It was an amazing sight, seeing her standing in the livingroom. It wasn't the best apartment in the world, but it was ours and now that she was there, I never wanted her to leave. "Just let me put the dishes in the dishwasher and I can show you around." I smiled, pecking her cheek, before busying myself with the clean up.
I waved her off when she tried to help, insisting that it was her night, she should just relax. When she tried to argue, I shot her a look that had her rolling her eyes, but sitting down on the counter, watching me as I started the dishwasher.
I dried my hands on my jeans, before turning around, leaning my hands on either side of her on the counter, smiling at her. "So, I know it's not much, but I wanted a place for us to call home and Felix's flat was becoming a bit crowded." I said, as she moved her legs so I could stand between them, moving my hands to her waist.
"It's perfect, Sarah, it'll be nice to be able to sleep and cuddle and not have to worry about Felix popping in on us." She chuckled, moving her arms around my neck. I smiled softly, pressing a kiss to her lips softly.
She returned the kiss, pulling me closer as our lips moved together. My belt was starting to dig into my stomach, but I found that I couldn't care less, as long as she was kissing me the way she was, someone could be dragging a heated blade across my skin and I wouldn't mind.
"I think I want see the bedroom." She murmured against my lips, tangling her fingers through my hair. A smirk crossed my lips as I gripped her thighs, pulling her off the counter. She wrapped her legs around my waist, a soft squeak escaped her lips as I carried her down the small hallway, shouldering the door open.
The room was bare, except for the bed and the wardrobe, which contained all of my clothes and what Cosima had her RA ship from her dorm. I laid her back on the bed, smiling down at her.
"Mm, we'll have to decorate it, but I have a feeling this is going to be my favorite room." She grinned, pulling me down on top of her.
I rolled my eyes, kissing her once more, letting my hand run down her side. I almost couldn't believe it, here she was, so beautifully whole and she was mine. I pulled away just enough to look at her, a soft smile on my lips.
"What?" She whispered, her dreads splayed under her. I shook my head, placing a soft kiss to her forehead, her nose, both her cheeks and then onto her lips.
"You're just so beautiful and amazing and I just can not believe you're mine." I said softly, bringing my hand up to cup her cheek, stroking my thumb across her skin slowly.
She smiled warmly up at me, her hands on my face, warm and soft. "Well, I am yours and I'm not going anywhere." She said softly, bringing me down for a soft kiss. As much as we had kissed in the last few months, this was unlike the rest.
It ignited a spark inside of me, that had laid dormant through the worry of losing Cosima, that the spark slowly grew into a roaring heat, engulfing me in it's flames. She pulled me closer as her hands slid up the back of my shirt, her nails scraping at my skin as she unhooked my bra.
A slight blush crept up my neck as she switched our positions, helping me out of my bra. "Pretty sure, Fee was right.." I mumbled, trying to cover my chest. "Your chest is certainly larger than mine." I cleared my throat, looking away, before she cupped my chin, bringing my attention back to her.
"Sarah, I wear a push up bra, for one and two, you were pregnant, which, if you allowed Kira to breastfeed, would explain any difference in size that may or may not be between us, so stop being self conscious, you should know by now that I think you're absolutely gorgeous and if you don't believe me, I guess I'll just have to make you." She rattled off, a wicked smirk on her face as she coaxed me out of my shirt.
I was sure my blush reached my chest as she leaned forward, planting kisses from my neck down my chest and back again, until she reached my lips once more. I shivered slightly as she ran her hands up my bare sides, moving to cup my breasts gently.
"I think they're perfect." She murmured, before capturing one in her mouth. I gripped the bedding, a soft sound passing my lips.
"Shite."I hissed as she paid my chest a viable amount of attention, before she started to kiss down my stomach, making goosebumps erupt along my skin. Her soft hands traced every contour of my abdomen, before resting on my hips, smirking up at me, her chin on my pelvic bone.
"Mm, what to do now." She purred, her thumbs rubbing gentle circles against my hips. "What do you think, Sarah?" She grinned up at me, a mischievous look in her eyes.
I could feel my face heat up again as I brought my hands up to cover it, mumbling "Whatever you want to do, I'm yours." I said, just loud enough for her to hear. This was a whole new thing to me, it was easy, with guys, I knew what they expected of me, but the woman who was inching my hands away from my face, was so much more than any fling I had ever had, she was something special and I was worried about messing it up.
"Sweetheart, you don't have to be nervous." She murmured, holding my hands in hers, my bare chest pressed against her still clothed one. "We can take it slow, we've got all the time in the world." She pressed a kiss to my fingers and then a short one to my lips, before sitting up.
I watched as she pulled her shirt off, swallowing hard as she removed her bra as well. "Fuck, Cos..you are so beautiful" I managed to spit out, trying not to bite my tongue as my eyes swept along her upper body, enjoying the subtle curve of her hips, so unlike my almost non existent curves.
I heard her scoff as I brought my hands up to her hips, squeezing them gently. "You'll just have to be patient with me..this is all new to me, so I apologize in advance if I suck." I shrugged my shoulders a bit, biting my lip.
"You aren't going to suck and like I said, I've got all the time in the world, you don't have to feel rushed, we can take our times and I promise, it's not near as scary as you think it is." She said softly, leaning down once more, our chests brushing together again, making me gasp softly.
"Alright." I murmured, bringing her close. Even with the butterflies crowding around in my stomach, the heat between us was enough to drive my nervousness to the back of my mind. As long as it was with her, it was going to be an amazing night.
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