Part 3 - Final
After they were all fed and showered they went to visit Justin in the hospital. Justin was happy to see his granddaughter and Will couldn't be more sure that coming home was right thing to do. They stayed with Justin for an hour before Sonny went to work while Will and Arianna paid a visit to other family members. Everyone was surprised to see them and wanted to know how long they would be in town. He still wanted to write screen plays and tell stories but he would just have to find a way to do that from Salem.
It wasn't easy to dodge their questions about his returns and the raised eye brows when he declared that he just missed his family too much. They were his family, they him better than he knew himself. But, for now they are pacified and that gives him time to focus on his marriage and not loosing something that means the world to him. He wonders where that attitude was a month ago. Why did it have to take being a screw up to recognize that something had to give?
With family visits over and done, Will and Arianna head to club TBD to meet up with Sonny; even though Sonny isn't aware that they are coming. He thought about giving Sonny some space but Will doesn't want to give Sonny space; they had enough of that over the last eighteen months.
The place is almost packed when they get there but Will easily moves through the patrons and grabs the open table right next to the counter. He doesn't see Sonny but T nods in his direction then walk over to greet them.
"Hey Will." There is a hint of discomfort in his voice. They guy is probably wondering how much trouble he caused the happy couple. If only he knew the truth.
"Hey T. Arianna you wanna say hi?" She waves and gives T a shy smile before returning her attention to her two stuffed friends.
"Can I get you two anything?" Will is starving and he knows Arianna should be hungry as well.
"Yeah, ahh let me check the menu can get back to you."
"Sure thing, I'll give you a few minutes."
"T" Will calls the name before the guy can turn to walk away. "Look man, I'm sorry I put you in an awkward position the other day." Will is still unsure why T felt awkward. Sonny said there was nothing going on with this Paul guy. Maybe T thought differently? "Could you sit down for a few minutes?" They use to be best friends once, maybe once is enough to get T to talk to him.
T looks around at the customers then back at Will. "Yeah, for just a few minutes."
"Thanks man."
They talk about the changes to the menu and T makes his recommendations to an excited Ari who is happy to finally be having her lunch. Will avoids the topic and Sonny or Paul, but he is desperate to ask T more about it. Sonny said that Paul meant nothing, but T's reaction is still in his mind. Maybe there is a part of him that wants it to be true. If there is something going on then Will wouldn't be the only one that made a mistake. Maybe he would feel less like an idiot. But the thought of there being something between Sonny and someone else crushes him and prevents him from asking anything about it.
T takes there orders and leaves the table to ensure that their meal gets prepared. Will plays with T party with his daughter while they wait for their food and a glimpse of the man he loves more than himself. They are almost through with their meal when Sonny finally emerges from the backroom. He stops in his tracks for a second before making a beeline for their table.
"Hey sweetheart." Sonny is referring to Arianna. She practically jumps into his arms and hey share whispered words and laughter before brown eyes finally settle on Will. "Hi."
"Hey." Will hates that they are like this; reduced to one syllable words and barely able to meet each other's eyes. "Everyone was excited to see our little girl."
"I bet they were. We all missed you." It is all directed at Arianna. Will feels cold and alone sitting in a crowded room.
"We came here to get something to eat." Will wants to be bold and make his feelings known. "I thought maybe we could just go home together."
Sonny doesn't respond right away. Instead he buys time by listening to Arianna's animated description of her day. "Daddy can we go home now?" She asks before resting her head on Sonny's shoulder.
"Yeah baby, let's go home."
Will hides his hurt as they make their way home.
How do you make things right when the other person does not want to hear what you have to say? With Arianna tucked in their bed the apartment is eerily quiet. Will goes through the motions of pretending to be interested in what's happening on television but all he can register is the silent man standing at the door way to their bedroom. He feels every step that Sonny makes as he moves across the floor to their little kitchen. Will's breath catches in his throat every time he thinks Sonny is moving closer but the guy stays far away.
Cuddling on the couch and watching stupid television shows had been one of their favorite past time. It would be a night like tonight, Sonny would be home early and Arianna would be down for the night. They would make popcorn, pour two glasses of wine, grab a blanket and wrap themselves in each other. Sometimes it would turn into a make out session that went beyond third base for home run. Other times they just held each other and laughed. Will can't even remember the last time they shared a good laugh. He wants all of that back. He wants his Sonny back.
"Will?" It's so soft that Will thinks he imagined it, but he is hopeful so he turns around to find his husband leaning against the counter and looking right at him. Will is so grateful that Sonny is standing there. He didn't run away or go stay at his parents.
Will gets up from the couch and slowly walks over to Sonny. He is terrified of saying the wrong thing or doing something that will spook him away. So he approaches with caution; hands buried deep into his pockets and eyes never leaving Sonny's.
"Can we talk?"
Thank God, yes, please talk to me; Will finally breathes."Yes."
Sonny looks down at his feet and there is a slight shake to his head. "I don't know what to do. I know you want me to tell you it's okay and for us to move on, but, Jesus Will." Their eyes meet again.
"I know." I messed up. I took a bad situation and made it worse. "I wish I could undo it."
"I have my part to play in this. We were drifting apart and I did nothing about it. I could have tried harder; I know I should have tried harder. You and Arianna mean the world to me, yet… I was so careless."
Baby please don't blame yourself. This is my fault, my wrong that pushed us over the edge. "Sonny, don't. Just don't. I know you love me. There wasn't a second that I didn't believe that."
"Then what was it? Was he better looking? Could he give you things I couldn't? What? What made us not enough? I know things weren't the best but did…"
"Stop, please." Will cringes at the thought of what this was doing to Sonny. "Baby, I just want you. No one else. It was a stupid lapse in judgment." One that Will prayed would not cost him everything.
"I don't know what to do Will. I don't." Sonny pushes away from the counter and walks around Will to take a seat on the couch. Sonny's shoulders slump in exhaustion as he releases a hard breath.
Will is slow to move but eventually he takes a seat beside Sonny. "Just stay with me. That's all I'm asking. I know it's going to take time for you to forgive me and I'm willing to do whatever it takes. Just promise you won't leave. Because…I couldn't bare it if you did."
Will doesn't take his eyes off Sonny's for a second. He feels so desperate and vulnerable as he waits for Sonny's answer. "I don't want to leave. I'm hurt and I'm angry; but I'm not going anywhere."
"Okay." Will holds back the sob that tightens his throat.
"Right now, where we are isn't the best. But we promised for better… or for worst."
"I love you." The relief leaves him speechless and his arms ache to grab a hold of Sonny but he knows it's going to be baby steps.
"I love you too. We just have to figure out how to work through this, where to start."
"Maybe, we could start with popcorn and a glass of wine."
The End
