Chapter 3

A/N- Hey everyone sorry it took so long to update the story I didn't have a place to write, but enough excuses here's chapter 3 I made it extra long to make up for it. So I know a lot of you wanted me to skip ahead to Tris' choosing ceremony but I want to give Tris and Tobias a chance to say goodbye to each other before they don't see each other for 2 years. I also want to let you all know now that I plan on switching a few things up and I hope you like it. I have a new beta, so thanks to April for being there to bounce ideas and proof reading. Thank you everyone for reading, reviewing, following and adding the story to your favorites.

P.S.- a shout out to anyone who can tell me the meaning of Tobias' middle name

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Disclaimer- I do not own Divergent it all belongs to the amazing Veronica Roth.

Tobias POV

Todays the day that my whole life changes, whether or not it's for the better, the jury is still out. I lay in bed thinking about last night; my father decided to whipped me with his belt until I told him the results of my aptitude test.

-FlashBack-

As I walk in the front door of my father's house I can already tell that he's home from work. After years of beatings I have a sixth sense of knowing when one is coming.

"TOBIAS AARON EATON!" I knew it

"Yes father?" I say in my abnegation voice

"Where have you been? You were supposed to be home hours ago!" at this point I think his head might explode

Luckily Tris helped me come up with a lie and hopefully it's believable enough to make it so I can walk tomorrow "I was helping Beatrice Prior hand out food to the faction-less on our way home. I'm sorry I didn't tell you it was unexpected I was wal…"

"Enough! Do you take me for a fool" I probably shouldn't answer that "you're too selfish to help people; you good for nothing waste of space." After that he smacks me to the ground

"Yes, father" I say obediently

"Tell me your aptitude test results right now" he says

"I can't tell you, remember we're not allowed to talk about the results with anyone" as soon as I say the words I know they're a mistake

"I am not an idiot like you Tobias, tell me right now" as soon as the words leave his lips he slides his belt off and prepares to whip me with it

"I can't tell you" that's when the belt comes down and strikes my back

"TELL" another lashing

"ME" and another

"NOW!" one more lashing and then he pauses to see if I answer him

"Fine, I received abnegation… are you happy?" I say defeated, I hate that he has power over me.

"No Tobias, I'm not happy I haven't been since you were born. Listen to me you waste of air tomorrow when you're handed that knife you will join abnegation where after initiation you will get a government job and then get married to someone of my choosing. Do you understand me?" for good measure he whips me three more times before I can respond to him

The only thing that will satisfy him is the answer I don't want to give. I want to be brave and stand up to him but I can't because I don't have the courage too, yet so I say "Thank you father"

-End Flashback-

After I told him thank you he sent me upstairs and locked me in my room until he went to bed, at least it's not the closet anymore. After waking up earlier than normal it's time to get up to meet Tris one more time before the ceremony.

Tris POV

I didn't sleep at all last night, all I could do was stare at the ceiling and think about what I'm going to do without Tobias here with me. I have an idea but I don't know how to do it quite yet. Right now I need to focus on Tobias because it'll be my last chance for a while. I get up and get dressed while putting my shirt on, I figure out the best way to hide my pearl. I decide to hide it under my jacket. I walk down stairs and the only one awake is my mother who is preparing breakfast for the family

"Good morning Beatrice"

"Good morning mother, did you sleep well?" I ask

"Yes I did, thank you. Did you sleep well?" She asks, my mother and I have a strange relationship for abnegation we are very open with each other when other people aren't around.

"No not very well thank you for asking, I'm going to meet with Tobias before the ceremony would it be alright if I went to see the ceremony?" I ask her hoping she says yes

"I'm sorry you didn't sleep well but I understand why. Yes, I think that would be a great idea for you to go and see him off but I think I will go with you if that's alright?" when she's done I'm shocked that she wants to go with me.

"Thank you mom I would love for you to come with me. I'll be back after lunch we can walk there since the bus will most likely be filled with families whose children participate in the ceremony." She nods at me and hands me two sandwiches and two waters, she knew I would be going to see Tobias. I smile at her and leave to meet Tobias at our spot.

Tobias POV

I get to our spot first and decide to sit and wait for Tris to show up, while I'm sitting there waiting I think about yesterday and her reaction to the pearl just thinking about her brings a smile to my face and makes my stomach do flips. As I'm thinking about her she comes walking up to me with the sun shining brightly behind her it makes her blonde hair sparkle a beautiful gold, she looks like an angel.

"Hello Beautiful" I say with a smile on my face

"Hello to you too handsome" she says as she sits down and takes my hand and entwines our fingers together.

"Tobias, how was your night?" she asks with a knowing look on her face

"How did you know?" I ask somewhat confused

"When I got home my father was already home which means that Marcus had to be too, and since you're supposed to be home before him chances are he beat you. I take it you told him the lie we came up with and he didn't believe you." she tells me with a look that says "I know everything" the look on her face makes me chuckle even though the situation is serious.

"Tobias what did he do?"

"He yelled at me at first and then asked me the results of my test, when I refused to tell him he used the belt a few times tell I gave in. Tris as much as I want to stay with you I can't wait to see his face when my blood drops onto the hot coals. I hate him and the way he makes me feel."

"If it makes you feel better I hate him to and I can't wait to see his face either" she smiles and then gives me a chaste kiss on the lips "However I'm going to miss you immensely. I love you Tobias" she looks me in the eyes and I can tell she wants to cry but she's holding it together for me.

"I love you too Tris, always and I want you to know that I feel the same way but two years isn't really that far away and then we'll be reunited… wait did you say you were coming to the ceremony?"

She chuckles at me "Of course I'm coming Tobias, you honestly didn't expect me to not be there to support you and to rub it in his face once you're gone"

"I was hoping you would come but I didn't know how to ask you."

"Well I figured you probably wouldn't ask because you would be afraid of my response. Now that we have that figured out you're going to be gone an awfully long time and the kiss last night was no where long enough for it to be the last kiss we share." She says and the next thing I know she's straddling my lap and kissing me.

It takes a few seconds for my brain to catch up but as soon as it does I kiss her back with all the love and passion I can muster and sending it with this kiss. My one of my hands finds her back and the other finds her neck right under her abnegation bun. She has one hand wrapped around my neck and the other in my hair, I love when she runs her hands in my hair even though it's short. A few minutes later my lungs are burning for air but I don't want to stop kissing her so I start to kiss down her jaw and then nipping at her ear which causes her to moan my name, which as far as I'm concerned is the best sound ever. She must realize what it's doing to my body because her hips start grinding into me and she takes over with kissing my neck, then moving to my throat and my jaw and finally reuniting with my lips.

As she's kissing my neck I realize that this is quickly turning into what happened on the train a few weeks ago but I know we're not ready and if we continue we'll regret it. I lie it's not that I don't want to make love to her I just know it'll make leaving her even harder on both of us. "Tris, we need to stop"

She finally stops and looks at me with hurt in her eyes "Why Tobias, don't you want me?"

Is she serious? "Tris it's safe to say that yes I want you badly as a matter of fact I'm pretty sure if you wiggle your hips a few more times you'll more than feel how much I want you. But I know that you're not ready yet and that's ok. I just don't want to do anything we'll regret. I love you Tris and I told you I would wait for you so if that's why you're rushing you don't have to."

"Thank you and I love you too Tobias" when she looks at me again the hurt is gone from her eyes and she's smiling at me

"Why don't we eat the lunch you brought for us"

"Ok if you insist" she says but before she gets off of me she grinds her hips into me one more time.

"You're going to kill me one of these days Tris" next thing I know she's laughing at me and handing me one of the sandwiches she brought.

We spend the rest of our time eating our lunch and talking with the occasional kiss thrown in. It is exactly how I wanted to spend my last day in abnegation with her. A few hours later it's time to go so I can head to the choosing ceremony with Marcus.

"Tris it's time to go, I have to get there early to check in"

"I know Tobias, will you walk me home one last time?"

"Of course my love lets go" I stand and then give her my hand to help her up she takes it but doesn't let go. As we head to her house she holds my hand with her head leaning on my shoulder. When we get to her door I lean down and kiss one last time not caring about the social rules of abnegation because as far as I'm concerned in two hours I'll be dauntless. After the kiss the only thing I can say is "I love you" because if I were to say more than that I might break down and that's not how I want her to remember me.

"I love you too" and with that she slips into her house.

Tris POV

"Mom, I'm home"

"I'm in the kitchen Beatrice" I walk towards the kitchen and the smell hits me instantly, she's baking banana bread she only makes it on certain occasions like the choosing ceremony she makes a few loaves to take to the parents of the abnegation that transfer to another faction. Usually she only makes 2 loaves because there is rarely a transfer but she likes to be prepared although this year there's three loaves.

"It smells amazing in here, why did you make three loaves this year mom?"

"I thought someone might need it when she gets home" she tells me with a small smile.

"Thanks mom, it's time to go" I give her a hug and smile back

"Beatrice tonight your father and Caleb are with the new initiates so they'll be home late. When we get home there are few things that I would like to discuss with you.

"Alright mom but we better get going so we can get there on time."

Tobias POV

When I got home it was time to leave so Marcus and I head to the bus station to take us to the ceremony. When we arrive I get checked in and told where I'm supposed to sit. My father talks to some of the other abnegation parents before heading over to talk to some of the other faction leaders. I stand quietly behind him nodding when I'm introduced and only responding when spoken to you like a good abnegation child is supposed to. An hour later the auditorium starts to fill up with the other factions and the other sixteen year olds as I'm looking around I see Tris standing next to her mother looking for me when our eyes meet her face splits into a big smile and her blue eyes sparkle at me.

Tris and I head towards each other and meet in the middle with her mom right behind her but at that moment all I see is Tris.

"Hi" I say with a smile on my face

"Hi" She says with a smile but a nervous tone to her voice.

Her mom walks up and starts talking but unfortunately I don't notice because all I hear is my heart hammering in my chest like it always does when Tris is near except it's exponentially worse today because I know that it's the last time I'll get to see her and those sky blue eyes for awhile. "I'm sorry Mrs. Prior I was distracted and I didn't hear you"

She chuckles and then says "It's quite all right Tobias I understand your distraction" she looks at me and Tris and smiles before continuing "I was just saying good luck, it's a hard initiation but I think you will find a home there. Before you ask Beatrice no, she didn't tell me but I've always known since you two became friends that you weren't meant for abnegation. Tobias your mother would be very proud of you and your decision if she were here today." Next thing I know she hugs me and whispers in my ear "Be brave Tobias"

"Thank you Mrs. Prior" is all I can manage to say

"Beatrice I'm going to get us a seat before the ceremony starts"

"Okay Mom I'll be there in a minute" Tris says

When her mom leaves Tris launches herself into my arms and holds me tight people from other factions are shocked while the few abnegation look at us disapprovingly good thing I don't care. We just hold each other for a minute before I whisper to Tris "I love you Tris" she whispers back "I love you Tobias" after another minute we stop hugging but don't let go of each other's hands until I reach for her pearl that's hidden under her jacket. She looks a little shocked but then it goes away and her smile quickly returns, I bring the pearl to lips and kiss it and then gently put back. I smile at her then say "That way whenever you need a kiss or reassurance you can kiss the pearl like it was my lips."

She smiles at me and takes my hand with the bracelet and lifts my hand towards her lips but stops to reveal the bracelet she gave me yesterday and then kisses it. I smile at her she than says "That way whenever you need a kiss or reassurance you can kiss the leather like it was my lips" I laugh a little at her statement because it's what I just said to her.

"I love you Beatrice Elizabeth Prior and I can't wait to see you again"

"I love you Tobias Aaron Eaton and I can't wait to see you again, be brave Tobias" we hug one more time and it's time to take our seats.

This year the Erudite perform the choosing ceremony their leader Jeanine Mathews takes the stage and gives the usual speech about our society and the factions but in all honesty all I hear is "blah blah blah" until she finally gets to the reading of the names. The First name is called and it's a boy from Erudite Mathew Zeal he chooses Erudite

"Lauren Stuart… Dauntless" she's the first Amity to transfer to dauntless in years

"Ezekiel Pedrad… Dauntless"

"Eric Grant… Dauntless" he's the third and last transfer from Erudite to dauntless today

Finally I hear "Tobias Eaton" I stand and walk up on stage and take the knife from Jeanine and with one last look at Tris I walk up to the bowl with the coals signifying dauntless however right next to it is the grey stones for abnegation. As I'm standing here staring at the two bowls that contain two very different futures I cut my hand with the knife I then turn towards where my father is sitting looking at me giving him the biggest smile I can as I hold my hand over the coals. The next thing I hear is my blood sizzling on the coals my father and the rest of abnegation is shocked all except for Tris and her mother who are sitting next to my father with smiles on their faces. As I head down the stage I'm greeted by the hoots and hollers of my new faction and family.

Soon the ceremony is over and I'm running out the door heading for the train that I then realize that this is the first time in a long time that I am free.

Tris POV

They finally call Tobias' name I can't wait to see the look on his father's face when he realizes that he's lost him for forever. Tobias walks over towards Jeanine and takes the knife looking at me for reassurance I nod to him he then turns around and heads to the bowl that I know is the coals of dauntless. He hesitates for a minute which terrifies me for a fraction of a second until I see him cut his hand and turn towards where I'm sitting next to his father and smiles this causes me to smile. I then hear the sound of his blood on the coals. I see the faces of those all around me looking flabbergasted however Marcus just looks pissed his fists are clenched so tight that his knuckles are white.

I lean towards him and whisper "How does it feel to know that you can no longer control him. That you've lost the last person in this world who ever loved you once, he won and you lost maybe think about that before you use your belt."

Finally its abnegations turn to leave at least those who didn't volunteer to clean up my mother and I stand to leave as I'm about to walk past Marcus he grabs my wrist so tightly that I know there'll be a bruise tomorrow he stands and stares at me before leaning closer to me and saying "No matter what I will always have control over him you little bitch."

I don't know how it's even possible but his grip tightens even more before letting go. I give him the best scowl I can before my mother ushers me out of the building. We walk home in comfortable silence the silence only fuels the ache in my heart from Tobias' absence. When we finally get home my mother walks into the kitchen and makes a pot of tea for the two of us I remember that she wanted to "talk" with me before my father and brother got home from helping the initiates.

"Beatrice, I need to ask you something and please be honest with me"

"Okay Mom I'll be honest"

"Beatrice, do you plan on transferring to dauntless no matter what your aptitude test results are?" She says. I didn't see that one coming at all

I don't even hesitate before responding to her question "Yes, I plan to transfer to dauntless."

"Okay then there are a few things I need to tell you then." She says hesitantly

"Okay tell me" I give her a reassuring smile before adjusting myself on the couch so I'm comfortable

"Beatrice before I came to abnegation I was dauntless."

"You were!?" I say shocked but in the back of my mind I'm not because it explains my weird relationship with her.

"Yes I was, my mother your grandmother was a dauntless leader who was in charge of the training program and a few other things. When me and my brother were old enough she used to train us to prepare for our own initiation. Because of this I want to offer to train you because if you go there without the knowledge you need I'm afraid you won't pass not because you aren't capable but because kids from other factions have more freedoms than kids from abnegation."

At this point I'm in shock with tons of questions for her "You have a brother? And you want to train me to be dauntless? You aren't mad at me for wanting to leave you and dad?

She chuckles at my questions before answering my questions "First, yes I had an older brother his name was Nathan and last I heard he had a wife and two sons before he died in a training accident. The oldest is named Ezekiel after your grandfather I'm assuming and the youngest is named Uriah he's your age. So when you get to dauntless find them and tell them you're my daughter." She smiles at me and takes my hand squeezing it lightly. "Second, yes I want to train you because I want you to succeed and be with Tobias where you can be free to be yourself. As for you last question, No I'm not mad at you like I told Tobias earlier I've known for a very long time that you don't belong in abnegation not for a lack of trying it's just not who you are. Your father will definitely be upset but not surprised either. Plus we'll have Caleb, I don't see him transferring however there's always a possibility. Beatrice your father and I love you very much and no matter what you do, nothing will change that." She smiles at me again

"I can't wait to meet them" I smile at her before continuing "I would love you to train me but how are we going to train around dad and Caleb?" I ask her. Training to be dauntless was already the plan I came up with this morning now I don't have to do it by myself and lie about it.

"Don't worry about your father and Caleb I'll take care of it. Now how about some of that bread before they come home" She says

The rest of the night we sit and she talks about her past in dauntless. She tells me stories about the things she and her brother did, about my grandmother and the cake that they have there she makes me promise to whenever I eat a piece to eat another one for her. Soon it's time for bed I tell her goodnight before I get to the stairs that lead to my bedroom she tells me "Beatrice it'll be hard without him but you need to remember that it's not forever have hope that you'll see him again and when you do promise me that you will put everything you have into your relationship with that boy because you two are destined to be together."

With that I head to my room and lay on my bed staring at the ceiling I kiss my pearl and say "goodnight Tobias I love you" I soon fall asleep dreaming of him.