Chapter 6- Last Day

I woke up this morning with the realization that today is my last day in abnegation and with my family in just a few hours I will be cutting my hand and holding it over the smoldering coals that represent dauntless. After 20 min enjoying that last few minutes and comfort of my bed, I decide to get up and get ready for the day. I come back from my shower to find my mom in my room setting out my clothes for the day.

"Good morning mom"

She looks at me and smiles softly and then surprises me by kissing my forehead softly it's rare to show affection in abnegation after a child reaches the age of ten at that point you should know that its considered selfish "Good morning Beatrice I decided to help you get ready for the ceremony I also thought I would cut your hair one last time. Under you abnegation clothes make sure to wear the dauntless under garments I got you for training, after the ceremony is the first test jumping onto a train we both know it's more comfortable in a sports bra. You'll be sharing a dorm with both girls and boys so wear the boy short underwear that way you'll feel more comfortable changing in front of them. I've heard they've changed some of their training practices so I might be wrong but it's better to be prepared than not at all. I'll let you get dressed when you're done come to my room and I'll do your hair." She then walks to out the door before suddenly poking her head through the door "and Beatrice I love you."

I look at her and smile "I love you too mom" after she leaves I get dressed and remember to put my pearl on I can't wait to wear it out in the open I also can't wait to see Tobias I wonder if he's changed the same I have over the last two years. I used to look like a small boy with really long hair, I'm still short standing at 5 feet 5 inches but I now have curves a nice toned butt and legs with strong arms but the most exciting change was when I finally advanced to bra size other than an A cup which I could've sworn I would be stuck as for the rest of my life. My breasts although may be considered small to most people are the perfect size for my height any bigger than a B at this size I wouldn't be able to fight as well as I can they would constantly be in the way. I am confident with the way I look but that doesn't mean I'm going to be comfortable parading around half naked in front of boys that aren't Tobias, even then I don't know if I would be comfortable.

I decide to wear the dark grey boy-short underwear like my mother suggested along with pants instead of the standard abnegation skirt that most girls wear every day, it's really hard to run in. The pants are the standard grey and loose fitting to make sure I don't have my figure showing, I then pull on my favorite dark grey sports bra with the a spaghetti strap tank top and then a light grey crew neck t-shirt. I then go to my small closet and get out my usual dark grey flats and put them on. When I turn around I find my mother's dark grey almost black flowy cardigan that she wears all the time; it's her favorite she's worn it every day this week, I pick it up and hold it to my face it's so soft and warm but the best part is it smells like her. I pick it up and bring it with me to her and my father's room, when I walk in I see her finishing Caleb's hair with my father sitting on the bed they seem to be having a conversation I decide to wait to walk in until they're done as not to be rude and interrupt what might be the last private conversation Caleb might have with our parents. About ten minutes later Caleb comes walking out looking every bit the abnegation man, except we both know that Caleb will be going to erudite today at least if the pile of books he has hidden under his bed are anything to go by. "Hi Caleb"

He smiles at me "Hi Beatrice can I talk to you for a moment?" I look at him for a moment and then nod; I follow him to his room and sit when he offers. "I know we aren't supposed to talk about our test results but I thought you should hear it from me first, that way you aren't surprised at the ceremony. I'm transferring to erudite."

I smile at him before I respond "I'm not surprised Caleb I know about your book stash. You might want to tell mom about it so she can either return them to the library or give them to the factionless children. I know we aren't supposed to say things like this but in 4 hours I'll be slicing my hand open and holding over hot coals so I think I get a little leeway to speak my mind, I love you Caleb you are the best big brother a girl could wish for and I hope that you find happiness in erudite expanding your knowledge. But I hope you also remember that just because we're supposed to follow the creed faction before blood doest mea we should, because in the end you will always be family. Who knows you may one day have children that decide to transfer to abnegation or dauntless and if they do I hope you tell them to look for their Aunt Beatrice. My main point is that just because we're both leaving we shouldn't forget where we come from; the abnegation in us should just be used in a different way than we're used to. Mom once told me that the test only tells us which faction we would most fit into and just because we transfer to erudite doesn't mean you aren't selfless, kind, brave or honest. Everyone has the ability to be in any faction the test just tells us which of the traits we have the most of." At this point I'm getting emotional because even though me and Caleb haven't been close since Tobias; I still remember him calling me his little bumble Bea when I was scared of the lightning and thunder from a summer storm when we were five.

He gets up from his chair and sits next to me on the bed and he the hugs me and then grabs my hand and holds it he then surprises me by calling me the name he used when he couldn't say 'Beatrice' "Bea first of all I love you too, and the reason why we stopped being close is because you really didn't need me anymore you had Tobias he became you protector and best friend which was fine because I knew you both would eventually need each other and I was right. Plus it gave me a chance to read more which we both know I love' we both laugh at that because it's definitely true. "If I'm honest with you I've never really thought about what the test was for other than to figure out where I belong but now that you've explained it I can see where you're coming from. Maybe I'll become a healer or study a way to make people's lives a little easier use the abnegation in me like you said I should. I don't know what it's going to be like there and even though dad explained to me what it was like when he was there he said it changes yearly because of constant advancement of technology. He also told me to look for his brother and sister and our grandparents he said they are still alive last he heard. I will always be your big brother and I'll come see you on visiting day that way I can see mom and dad to since they won't be allowed to visit me at erudite."

I'm happy to know that he listened to me but I'm also happy to hear that he'll come see me on visitation day, I hug him for a little bit longer than he hugged me "I can't wait to see how you'll look in blue with those fake glasses that they wear' we both laugh 'I have to go get my haircut and then we should eat the delish lunch that you and dad are supposed to make." I smile at him once more before I leave.

When I get to my parents room I knock to let them know I'm there they both smile at me before my mom waves me forward to sit in the chair in front of her. I sit down and she gets to work cutting my hair wondering what we're going to talk about and when the conversation starts it's definitely not what I expected.

"Beatrice your mother and I need to talk to you about you test results, we know that no matter what they were you are still going to dauntless but it's important for us to know."

I look at my parents quizzically, in my head I'm cheering because here's my chances to talk about my divergence and to hopefully get some answers. "We were told to not talk about our results to anyone under any circumstances; I don't want us to get into trouble."

"Honey there is a few things you need to know and we can't tell them to you unless we know you results trust your father and I; if it makes you feel any better we'll tell you ours."

"Ok I'll tell you but Tori the lady who administered my test said that my results are dangerous she said I had an aptitude for more than one faction she called me Divergent but she never explained why it's dangerous." I look up at my parents and my father looks stricken and my mom has a single tear running down her cheek but other than that she doesn't look surprised "Why is being divergent dangerous? And why aren't we allowed to ask about it?"

She quickly wipes away the tear and it's like she was never crying at all. "Beatrice remember that conversation we had during training about everyone having a little bit of each faction in them but each person has a dominate faction that they would belong to best?" I nod my head yes "being divergent simply means that you have more than one dominant faction I have two both dauntless and abnegation you fathers was erudite but he decided to follow me to abnegation so we could be together where I would be the safest. Certain people believe that the divergent threaten the faction system because our affinity to more than one faction could corrupt the system. Because of this belief your life will constantly be in danger especially during initiation, the second and third part of initiation you go through what's called a fear simulation when you are put through the sim be careful not to manipulate it. I'm sorry we didn't tell you about this sooner but we had to wait until after your test to make sure that my suspicions were correct. Tell no one Beatrice, not even your brother it's important to keep this a secret. "

After my mom finishes talking she goes back to cutting my hair like the conversation never happened, I'm trying to process the information I was given about what I am but eventually get stuck on the last thing she said 'tell no one, not even your brother' "Why can't I tell Caleb?"

My father looks at me with a sad look on his face "Caleb is transferring to erudite they are the faction who has the biggest problem with the divergent population. Jeanine Matthews the head of erudite is heading the crusade against them abnegations leaders know the exact numbers of the divergent, the factionless and abnegation have the highest population of them because they have the least chance of being found out. She would stop at nothing to take them out and use it as a way to usurp abnegation as the leaders of the government, including bribe someone for information by taking them under her wing to train since the person she originally wanted transferred to dauntless actually. I'm not saying your brother would actually do it but better safe than sorry."

Logically I understand completely what my father's saying but the emotional part of my brain wonders if Caleb would really do it for the pursuit of knowledge and power. "What about Tobias can I tell him?"

My parents look at each other seeming to have a silent conversation with each other until my mother answers for them "If you think you can trust him completely than yes you can but that's it or perish at your own risk. After today's ceremony you will be considered an adult in our society who has to learn to make your own decisions and to live with the consequences of them. Beatrice, know that no matter what that your father and I will always be proud of you."

I smile at her and hug her then turn to my father look him in the eye and smile "I love you daddy" I then hug him tightly. He hugs me back just as tight and then whispers "I love you to baby girl"

"Andrew why don't you go help Caleb finish preparing lunch."

"Ok, but don't be too long because it should be done soon." Once my father is gone my mother goes to the safe that's hides the mirror in her room and opens it this is the first time in a year that I've seen myself, I'm happy to note that I look older than I did the last time I saw my reflection which is great but a small part of me worries that Tobias won't recognize me luckily I have my pearl to help identify me."

"You look beautiful Beatrice, there's something I need to give you which should help your cousins and aunt recognize you if you could also give your aunt a letter I would appreciate it." She closes the door for the mirror but opens another door to the safe inside are what looks to be few things but what catches my eye is the handgun and a small velvet jewelry box that my mother takes out. "Each child that is born in dauntless receives one from their parents the day they start faction school at the age of eight. It is to remind them that they are dauntless." She opens the box and inside is a small pendant that's the dauntless symbol of flames surrounded by a black circle, the flames looks almost real with the way the crystals react to the light red fading to orange then yellow around them is circle of black crystals that make the flames stand out. The pendent is beautiful just like my pearl reminds me of Tobias this will remind me of my mother.

"Its beautiful mom, are you sure you want me to have this?"

"Yes I do, all you have to do is show your cousins and they'll know only leaders and their children get the crystal ones they should have matching ones. Wear it on the same chain as your pearl and make sure no one sees it until you get to dauntless." I take the chain that hold my pearl off and unclasp it my mother hands me the dauntless pendant to slide on the chain, the pendent and the pearl look beautiful together. I quickly fasten the chain around my neck tucking it under my shirt.

I smile at my mother "Thank you for the pendent, I'll make sure to give my aunt the letter. Why did you give me your favorite sweater?" I ask on our way down to the dining room

"I wanted you to have something that smelt like home to help you with any homesickness that might happen plus it's a little too dark to wear anywhere in abnegation except inside our home. It also looks really good on you." We both are laughing lightly when we sit down for mine and Caleb's' last meal in abnegation; plain chicken, brown rice, and roasted carrots and parsnips for dessert my mom surprises Caleb and I with a slice each of the banana bread she made for tonight's welcome dinner for abnegations new initiates. We spend the rest of the time we have to wait together chatting about small things like how my father's work is going and my mother's request to be moved to the daycare center for the children of abnegation so she can do something other than working at the sorting center like she has for the last couple of years. Finally my father looks at the clock and announces

"It's time to go"

A/N – Ok that's chapter 6 everyone I know that it may seem a little drawn out but I wanted to make sure that Tris had some time to say goodbye properly plus I wanted to make it so Caleb isn't a dick it bugs the shit out of me when he betrays Tris. Up next is the choosing ceremony and we also get to meet some of the other characters. Please review its great motivation for me to write!