Sorry for the cliff hanger… hope it didn't ruin the effect of the whole 'moment'. Got a excerpt from the first story in the series, Finding Yourself… enjoy!
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"Might be easier if I do this part." I said and slowly struggled to get my pants off. Her lifted to my shoulders and pulled me down on top of her. I kicked my ankles out of my shorts as Gabriella ran her hands from my neck to the ring on my middle finger, so lightly that you could barely feel it at all. I watched her facial expression attentively as she did this. She looked like she was reading my soul, as if everything was understood. She stopped at my wrists and then moved to the undersides of them, tracing the outline of the heart almost perfectly. Her eyes looked hurt now, confused. She bit her lip. I leaned down and kissed her forehead. She moved her attention to my neck and playfully bit at my neck a few times. I laughed, her hands began to play with my hair, picking at it ever so slightly. And then a sudden flashback came to mind.
She picked at my hair and kissed my neck as I did so. My eyes narrowed. I got up, "I have to go" "What? Won't you at least finish" she said pouting. I slammed the door on my way out and found the nearest bathroom that didn't have someone puking in it. I looked into the mirror and watched a tear fall down my face; I tried to forget the thoughts in my head about the one person I never wanted to remember again, the way she used to pick at my hair the same way…Gabriella.
My mood suddenly changed, goose bumps flew down my body. "I'm sorry" She looked up at me, a confused look on her face. "I d-don't deserve this" I said, moving away from her. "Troy, Troy? What are you talking about?" I could tell she was hurt already, I didn't want to hurt her, I wanted everything to be okay, I wanted her to hold me and tell me that she loved me, but I didn't deserve her. "I just can't. I won't. I don't deserve you Gabriella. You know how I acted when you left. You know what an asshole I became. You know that you would never date someone like that!" I wanted to get away again. I wanted to forget it all, be forgotten.
"Troy, oh come on baby, don't freak out on me now…it was just getting fun!" she was joking, but I was serious. She realized this quickly. "But you're not that guy anymore… you turned into someone else, something else. You're that guy who loved a girl so much that he would make himself never forget her by doing this." She grabbed my wrists and showed them to me… the black hearts seemed darker than ever. I hadn't actually told her that they were for her yet. But I guess one could assume. "Gabi, you don't even know the whole story about that…" her jaw dropped and her eyes got wide. Then she slapped me just before a tear fell down her cheek. "No Gabi…" I couldn't finish my sentence before she started attacking me, like she was throwing a temper tantrum on me, "Go away! Get away from me! I hate you! I hate you!" she said as her hands rhythmically hit my chest, "Shh… shh" I said trying to calm her and tried to embrace her. She fought back at first but then gave up and cried. "I didn't mean it like that" I said, smoothing down her hair, "Oh, yeah, what is it, you accidentally fell for someone else?" she asked sarcastically yet it didn't seem funny. "No, I mean, you don't know what I was going through when I did that I w-" "Yes I do, I was dealing with the same thing!" she said, "No, let me finish, I mean. I was on d-drugs. Ecstasy to be exact" her expression changed for probably the hundredth time that night and it was only 9:30! "…I'm sorry" she said, absent of words. "No, I'm sorry, it was stupid, everything was stupid, the drugs, the girls… the drinking" she smiled a broken one and then sighed. She slipped under the covers and looked up at me, standing next to the bed. "I'm not mad, you know" I smiled, and jumped under the covers.
Gabriella was all over me at that point; something about the argument must've gotten her… horny? I don't know, but she seemed a little weird. As she kissed me she fooled around with the waistband on my boxers, and continued to pick at my hair. Soon enough the passion built causing us to both get hot and heavy. Our breathing picking up speed, it seemed like this would be the longest time I would have taken to get into someone's pants… I mean, Gabriella still had her bra on for crying out loud! Not to mention her shorts… I tugged on her pants' waistband and managed to slip them off easily, but her underwear practically came off along with it, or somewhat. Gabriella didn't seem to notice or care though. She was too concerned with what she was doing and at the moment, it was taking off her bra with one hand. "Need some help there?" I whispered in her ear, my lips brushing against her temple. She laughed, "No, I almost… there." The blue bra was thrown across the room and later we would realize that it landed on a picture of her mother, a strange thing indeed.
I tried not to pay to much attention to her breasts though; it wasn't a goal. I wanted this to be special, so I tried to get her to slow down a little, she understood. At the same time, coincidentally, we managed to pull off each other's underwear. I could feel the warmth of her lower abdomen pressing up against mine. And then it hit me, "Do you have something?" she blinked, and bit her lip, shit. I sighed and cursed in my head, one bad thing after another. "I wasn't expecting this" I admitted and she laughed, "Yeah well, I mean, I haven't been… since I moved back into our house. So I haven't needed any protection either" We sat there in silence for a couple of minutes, bodies still entwined. "Just do it" she said pulling me closer. I had a bad feeling about this. "No, Gabi, I couldn't let myself do that to you. I mean, you could get pregnant…" she smiled, "Come on Troy, you're a big boy, you'll pull out in time" she pulled me even closer. I didn't want to disappoint her or hurt her… what was I supposed to do?
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Ha! That cliff hanger was intentional! Lol, okay. I will update soon! Hope ya liked it!