The Uncertain Love.
by .brokenstrings.
There's a glitter in my eyes, it's always there. It's a sparkle, a light which has taken hold of my soul. Because of you.
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"Sakura-chan, are you okay?" Tomoyo asked me worriedly. I smiled at her lightly to reassure.
"Yes, I'm fine, I just feel… A bit dizzy. But I should be okay, don't worry about me."
She smiled a bit at this for some reason. "Are you sure? You've been spacing out a lot lately."
"No, I'll be okay, I'm not really sure why I'm like this at the moment but I guess it's just a spell. I'll get over it soon I know."
"Hm… Okay," Tomoyo was looking at me doubtfully, but she stayed silent.
I sighed to myself. It was very true that I had been daydreaming a lot lately. I had also been feeling odd, my head was light and although I hadn't been getting headaches, I felt uncomfortable, this was a new feeling for me.
"Sakura, are you alright?" A new voice floated towards me.
I looked up to see Li Syaoran hovering over me. "Yes, Li-san. I'm fine," I answered quietly, turning a slight red. I rubbed my cheeks and started coughing.
"Are you sure? Oh and you can call me Syaoran you know."
"It's nothing," I smiled at him to show the state of my health.
"If you're certain…"
I nodded emphatically. "Yes, yes, I'm quite sure."
It's a little awkward when I see him. His hair is getting longer, apparently he refuses to get it cut because he likes the way his hair is now and a hairdresser would just ruin the look. He never used to be quite so fashion forward, it actually makes me feel a little backward but I have Tomoyo-chan to compensate.
It's been a little while since I've started to have these feeling toward him. I noticed him first when I transferred into the school to be closer to Tomoyo-chan. He welcomed me to the class and offered to have lunch with me because Tomoyo-chan was away the day I started class. It was nice to have someone to talk to because I was scared that day, I'm grateful for his friendliness.
And then my heart started to beat harder and faster when I was around him. And then the question came. "Is this love?"
It was easy to love him and easier still to fall even deeper and harder for him than ever. My heart was calling that I loved him and I think, that glimmer of excitement in Tomoyo's eyes showed she knew it too. I think it was then that I started to get that uneasy feeling in my stomach, the one that no one understands until something happens.
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A note fell onto my desk. "Do you like Li-san?" came the question, blunt, brief and written neatly.
I almost fell off my seat in shock but I caught the stern gaze of the teacher and I bowed in apology before straightening up. I looked around to try and find the one who had written the note, but I couldn't find them. Hoo… I scowled and bent back over to my maths book, glaring at the equations.
Another note hit my head and bounded to the ground before another hit my table in quick succession. This time it said, "Everyone knows, it's very obvious you know. But that's okay, because we all support you"
Was that supposed to be encouraging? More than anything I thought it was depressing that it was so obvious I liked Syaoran. But it was pretty good that he let me call him by his first name, he kept most people on last name basis. It was kind of scary to be honest, but I can understand why he would, his fanclub is really over the top.
I think I'm pretty silly that I didn't realize until recently that I liked Syaoran. But the feelings I'm feeling are very weird, they're so hard to understand, only someone else would be able to understand what I was feeling and even then, the only possible way they would be able to understand would be to become me. I've confused myself even in trying to find a way to untangle the mess inside my mind.
There were so many points of time where I hesitated. There were so many moments where I could have done something. I will change that, make up for all the time that I've lost. I'm going to make myself the number one in his heart.
I'll stay by his side, show him only happiness and smiles. In return he should be good to me and never falter, never leave me. Even if it's for a short time, I start to feel uncertain and unconfident.
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A.N. Hi New one-shot. This one is based on the main soundtrack of Goong, Saranginkayo, or Perhaps Love. It's such a wonderful song and hopefully you enjoyed the one-shot just as much. I'll keep on writing, but please give me feedback, I'd love to know what you think of these stories.
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♥ jen :)