Title: Lost

Author: Dani Meows

Author's Notes: Lack of sleep puts me in the mood for angst apparently, this piece is so sad.

Disclaimer: I do not own, and I make no money off of this little piece of writing.

"Bella, I don't want you to come with me." He was careful to keep his expression cold, to keep the numbness in his chest out of his voice as he said those words that obliterated the only relationship he'd ever had. The light in his bleak and meaningless existence. He had to do this for her, for her benefit alone could he do this.

"You...don't...want me?" Her voice was confused, her eyes which hadn't shone with light since the events of her birthday dimmed further as she tried to make sense of her words.

"No." He made his voice even icier still and felt his heart breaking even further as he stared into her face, into those shocked eyes and saw as she believed his lies so quickly. He'd been prepared to argue with her for hours, for her to refuse to believe his lies, a part of him had hoped that with her perceptiveness and her keen mind, she'd be able to force the truth from him, and then convince him to never leave her.

Why did she believe the lies so quickly? Did she doubt his feelings for her so easily? Hadn't he shown her every day the depth and intensity of his love?

Or maybe she didn't feel the same for him. He should hope that she didn't feel the same for him. Because if she felt the same mind numbing pain that he did, then even time which would eventually claim his beloved one's life, would not dull the pain.

He exchanged more words with her, digging the knife into both hearts further and then he ran as fast as he could away from the woman who held his heart.

With every step that he took away from her the longing to run back and kiss away her tears, beg for forgiveness and spend every day of her life with her increased. He forced himself forward, away from her.

It was for Bella, he told himself with every step, so that she could live a normal life without the dangers he posed to her. This was his first unselfish action since he'd decided to talk to her after the biology incident.

He'd selfishly wooed her and now he had to pay the cost. His heart breaking for ever. A vampire's love was forever and he was leaving his mate forever.

He was lost in the dark, drowning and he didn't think he'd ever find a way back up.