Rawr! I haven't posted something in awhile. Sorry to all of you who were expecting a new chappie from one of my two unfinished fics. I will eventually start again, when life is not so hectic.
If you have seen this before, you must be an AP member, for this was one of my first poems. Don't worry, they have gotten better. Anywho, my username is the same on allpoetry as it is on here. I am not stealing from anyone except myself, and I'm pretty sure that is legal.
This poem was originally written, however poorly, about an event that was occuring in my life, when my friend pointed out that it reminded her of the Twilight series. So put this in the second book, New Moon, when Edward decided to leave for Bella's sake. Bella P.O.V. obviously!
How
How could you say that?
What would possibly compel you?
What must have travelled through your mind?
You could have just said no
Would it have been that hard?
Apparently…
Apparently
But instead
You ripped out my heart
Whether subconsciously or not I cannot tell for sure
And whilst it lay beating in your warm, soft hands
You did more then just break it
No, breaking it would have hurt much less,
Something broken can be pieced back together
You obliterated it
Destroyed it
Pretend like it never happened!
A cliché that makes me scoff
I would laugh
If my heart would actually let that slight happiness in again
Pretend
Is this a joke?
If only it was that easy
You can't run from your problems, from me
Do you know that?
Cause you sure as hell try to
Should I be ashamed?
'Cause I'm not ashamed
Maybe at one point I was
But I no longer hate myself
At least, not for that
Never for that
Regret eats my awareness
Dulling my senses
Flooding my existence
No.
It was not regret for what I did
For what I said
I will never regret that
Neither is it regret for the response I provoked from you
For that is how life is
Cruel and unforgiving
The regret that captivates my being
Making it so I can't think
Begging my mind to overcompensate
With hazy swirls of color and ideas
Trying smother that oh-so-familiar, everlasting pain
Futilely, yet relentlessly
But instead of mind numbing images
Your face once again clouds my vision
It wouldn't be life
I've come to realize
If it was that easy to forget you
To forget what I feel
And no matter how hard I try to
In the pit of my stomach
I know I never will forget
The only regret
Which still lingers in my heart
My final regret:
That my heart was stupid enough
To fall for that dazzling sunshine,
To fall for someone like you.
After re reading it I can definetely say I am completely unstatisfied with that poem, but no one is perfect right?
Once again:
If you have seen this before, you must be an AP member, in whichcase my username is the same. I am not stealing from anyone except myself, and I'm pretty sure that is legal.
Feedback? Tell me how horrific it was.
-Dak