A/N: SORRY THIS ONE WAS SO SHORT. I'VE HAD THE FLU FOR AWILE NOW, AND I'VE BEEN SO BUSY. I WILL TRY TO UPDATE FASTER THIS TIME. SPELL CHECK ISN'T WORKING ON MY COMPUTER, SO I'M SORRY IF THERE IS SPELLING MISTAKES. PLEASE COMMENT AND REVIEW! ITS MUCH APPRECIATED. AGAIN, SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING FASTER.
Inside the box was a silk nightgown and matching panties
Inside was a silk nightgown and matching panties. I quickly dressed and walked outside the bathroom. Edward was patiently waiting in the center of the big golden bed, which I was all too familiar with. I walked over to him and sat next to him. He laid back, and put his hands behind his head. We both sighed at the exact same moment. I rested my hand on his chest. All of a sudden he was tracing a line of kisses from my collarbone, up me neck, and to my cheek. As usual, the wind was knocked out of me like someone just hit me in the chest. My heart accelerated. I'm sure Edward could hear it. He stopped tracing, and I could feel a smile creep against me collarbone.
"Your heart is racing."
It wasn't a question it was a statement. He sounded surprised, as if it still blew his mind that my heart always jumped a beat when he did things like this. But this time I couldn't respond. I was still in shock.
"U-um Y-y-yeah."
He looked up at my face and as I guessed, his face did look surprised with a slight notion of sensuality. He held my face in a hand, and kissed me. My lips followed in rhythm like a beat to a song. His hand traced circles on my stomach that made me shudder. Soon my back was arched as I clutched Edward's shirt.
"Did you change your mind?"
He purred against my skin. I then remembered. The day in the meadow, when he said that he would put my "priorities" first. Just like then when I didn't want to "do it," I didn't want to now. When I regained composure from Edward's entrancing kisses, I would have to tell him no. Again.
I "attempted" to push him off of me. He sensed what I was trying to do, and he backed off. He sighed, and rolled back over on his back.
"It seems like you have all the control now."
I froze. What the hell? Me, have control? I stifled a giggle.
"When have I ever had control Edward?"
I suppressed another giggle. This was too unreal. I still couldn't believe that he thought I had the power.
"Before," he began. "I was the one who had all the self-control. I would stop "us" by thinking of your well being. But now, I don't really care what happens to you. For once in my life I feel this incredible urge to have you. I want you."
I felt my mouth drop. Was this really coming out of Edward's mouth, or was this just something I wanted to hear? He studied my face with caution, as I studied his. He was disappointed. With me or himself? He reached out to close my mouth. There was a popping sound as it shut. I couldn't believe it. His cold touch was my alarm. This was real. He really did want me. I couldn't hold back anymore. I laughed so hard that I almost wet my pants. He got up and walked out of the room. I stopped laughing at the realization that he was mad at both himself, and me. He was mad at me for not understanding his "need", was almost as strong as his thirst for blood. He was mad at himself for the fact that he was open with me, and I laughed in his face.
Most importantly I was mad at myself. I had an empty feeling in my stomach. He left me. Exactly the thing he said he wouldn't do. He left me alone in the room, by myself. I gasped as I tried to catch my breath. A feeling that I hadn't felt in a long time, quickly engulfed me. Loneliness. I was alone.
Again.