The
first month at Mac's went by in a blur of long hard days, sunup to sunset.
Kitty and Jubliee had a better time of it, left with
energy to spare at the end of the day; but for Jean, long hours and little
sleep left her exhausted, most often found on the couch asleep when the day was
done.
Justin
was kind enough to move into his uncle's house and let them use his place just
a few feet away. It was small, but it had three bedrooms for them to have their
own spaces, and they were safe. As everyone adjusted to their new roles, Mac
was easier about leaving them to work on their own. But first, he wanted them
to know how to protect themselves, which Jean found very funny until she saw
what he meant by that.
"Here,"
he held out a shotgun to Jean.
"What
is this for?"
"If
you're gonna be here, you need to know how to shoot."
"You're
acting like this is the old West," she joked dryly.
"With
the Meyers, it might as well be."
Jean
didn't bother to ask why he didn't call the police, Mac was a proud man, he settled his problems on his own. She turned as Justin's
pickup pulled up next to Mac's, with the girls next to him. Mac nodded at her
disapproving expression, but took out more rifles of a smaller size. "They
have to learn, too."
"I
know," she muttered.
Justin
watched Jean take a few shots. "What is it, Justin," she asked
between her last two strikes on a target.
"You
might want to move your stance a little."
"Like
this?"
"No,
like-" he put his hands to her hips, making Jean's cheeks flush
unexpectedly.
"Thank
you." When she was tired, she sat next to Mac and watched Justin help the
girls with aim, handing the gun back.
"It's
yours. Carry it on you at all times."
Something
about that reminded her of Logan,
and she teared up unexpectedly.
"Thank
you."
"Ford. What you're runnin'
from, it isn't going to follow you here, is it?"
"No,"
she lied. She wasn't sure if they'd be safe here, but if it put Mac and Justin
in danger, she'd have the girls long gone before any trouble came to this
place.
"Okay
Justin, let's head back to the house."
After
dinner, Jean stood out on the porch with a cup of coffee, looking out on the
dark purple sky.
"Seems
like you're a million miles away," Justin walked over with a smile.
"I
think I was," she admitted.
"Ford."
"Yeah?"
"You
want to go out sometime?"
She
paused, unsure what to say. Jean was in love with Logan, but Ford was unattached. Who knows how
long it would be before Logan
came around, if he ever did. It couldn't hurt having a friend. "How about Friday?"
"Mac
has me doing stuff then."
"What
stuff?"
"Spying on the Meyers."
"Can't go alone."
"He
wouldn't want you out there, Ford."
"I
can handle myself, Justin. The girls will stay in the house with him, I haven't
been on a mission in a long time," she smiled.
"I'll
run it by him first."
"Sure.
I'm gonna head to bed."
"Let
me take that," he took the cup from her hand.
"Thanks."
Jean
leaned back on her elbows, looking into the night sky.
"Nice,
isn't it?"
"Very."
She
leaned into Justin, enjoying the closeness of another person sitting beside
her. They went without a fire, to keep their location to themselves, but the
thermos of coffee and a heavy jacket kept the chill away. Every time she let
herself relax, the thought of Logan
popped into her head. Time and again, she brushed it away, only to have it
remind her that this man and this place wasn't her first choice. She wanted to
be with Logan,
in whatever Hell he was in, just so she knew she was still Jean Grey. But he
told her to go with the girls, and that fact made her angry. He treated her
like his equal in all other aspects of their lives, and yet when it came down
to it, he chose the Warrior role for himself and chose for her as well, the
Woman.
"The
girls aren't too happy with us out here, are they?"
Jean
snorted. To say they weren't happy was an understatement. When they found out,
they acted like children of divorced parents, angry that their mother was going
out with someone other than their father. The three Mutants were still not
speaking when Jean walked out the door that afternoon.
"They
hinted to me that there was someone else, is that true?"
She
sighed. "Justin, we were all close to someone, and he's gone now."
"Your husband?"
She
shook her head with a startled chuckle. Logan, a husband?
Anything more than a lover was a stretch, and they never gotten that far.
"Logan was
our...protector."
"How
did he die?"
"We
aren't sure he's dead, only that he's gone."
"So
he abandoned you?"
"In
a way," she nodded.
"I
can't imagine anyone abandoning you-" his sentence was cut off with a
touch of Jean's lips on his.
"I
appreciate your concern, but I'd rather not talk about it anymore." Justin
nodded, and Jean raised her eyes to the sky once more.
