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After a few minutes once Axel had left he walked to the shower scraping off the dirt, feeling dirty until the point of blood. he stopped before bleeding and looked down, he didnt cry he was past that. "Roxas" said a voice from outside the door. "once you're finished washing up i need you to step into my office" the voice belonged to the one person he didnt want to see.

"...Diz..." he said in almost a scoff. the shower couldnt last long, but he wished he could stay in there forever. once he left he noticed the sheets were being changed, possibly thrown out from the amount of blood and cum that stained the blanket. He passed it by in his clothes, dressed messily, his hair dripping. "yes Diz?..." he asked once he approached the door to Ansem's study.

He dare not open it, he wouldnt bother enetering his office if he hadnt any reason to. Diz laughed softly. "...cross with me after that?" he asked through the closed door. "...i wouldnt call it cross..." he said leaning against the wall next to the wooden door. he smelled the scent of wine, aomeone in the room next to Diz was 'working' as well.

He winced slightly from the movement of him leaning against the door. he had a few bruises lining his wrists and back,these paled in comparison to the immense pain he felt coming from where that bastard had relentlessly raped him. he heard Diz laughing at Roxas's comment, and he continued his thought in his mind. 'its more along the lines of hatred' he thought to himself before he snapped rebelliously. "...whaddaya want anyway Diz?" he asked in a scowl. Diz was silent a moment before responding to the harsh question.

"...well, i have another job for you tonight Roxas, but you cant use that same room today...i have your fix in here, but you wont get a single pill untill you finish THIS job" Roxas slammed his fist against the wall. "THAT'S NOT FAIR!!" she said gripping the handle. "...i could throw you out at any time! you're lucky im giving you anything after such a fuss you put up last night!!" he hissed, causing roxas to shudder in memory of it. he felt his eyes grow moist. 'all that pain...all that pain...and...and he's not giving me anything for it!!!' he thought to himself angrilly.

it had been a few days since his last fix and he was craving it badly. "diz c'mon! please give me something! three pills! three! then ill give the guy twice as much as he asks for alright and ill throw in something for you too Diz!" he couldnt believe he was actually saying he would do something for Diz for free. Diz scoffed. "...hmph, im not giving you anything Roxas, you take the pills after the job, or you get none at all..." roxas hissed. "fine!" he said angrilly, wiping at his eyes. "...you are lucky im giving you some pills after last night...you were screaming the whole time! it was bad for business! you're lucky that man enjoyed the torture, and he actually paid for it..." he sighed then opened the door.

Roxas had let go of the handle when he heard Diz get up from his armchair which stood on the opposite side of the room, there were women in there as well. they were very beautiful and held seductive glances to Roxas, the wine scent came from Diz's room it was obvious since they were holding a bottle of wine and three glasses. Diz's was the largest glass there, his clothes reeked of it, it was difficult to get Diz drunk, his tolerance was high. "...here!" he said tossing him a coat. "..its a house call...head over, here's the address" on the coat was a card holding an address on it.

Roxas knelt down picking up the coat looking over the address. "...what time?" he asked looking up to Diz, Diz was taller then Roxas, his eyes were feirce, and at one time Roxas actually feared those eyes, now though, Roxas barely feared anything. "...6:00" he said before walking back to the room slowely. "...if you're late he'll tell me and every second you're late after 6:00 i get rid of one pill, if you dont appear at all, i wont give you any pills for the rest of teh week" Roxas nodded, he assumed Diz would say something along those lines. "...am i free the rest of the day?" he asked not looking up at him.

"...do what you like, but make sure you are there by 6:00" Roxas nodded and walked off. house calls if he could pick a favorite would be. instead of the usual, he was allowed to leave the house. he was allowed to see the sun, smell teh fresh air and go out to see people who arent scumbags.Once he left the house he looked back, the place was small but richly decorated, it was only decoration. to lure those men who need company inside. Roxas usually got male customers, a female every so often would slip in for a bit of fun. it was amazing Roxas hadnt contracted anything as of yet. he was clean so far, which he thought was the only reason why Diz worked him so hard, because Diz wanted to use him as much as possible, before he wasnt so clean.

He walked along the streets silently, he had purchased some advil for the pain of the night before, and so far it hadnt kicked in. As he sat down, painfully he sighed, hanging his head low. he saw a pair of feet, and heard a familiar voice. "...i was wondering what happened to you!" said a cheerful voice, belonging to someone he had always loved seeing. "hm?...Sora?" he asked looking up to him blushing slightly, Sora's face was close to Roxas's, but he didnt seem phazed by it. "whacha doing he Roxas?" he asked before sitting down beside him.

"...nothing..." he whispered looking away. He wasnt lying, he had nothing to do, just he wouldnt return to that place until he needed to. "...want to go do something Roxas?" he asked smiling to him softly. "...you seem a bit...upset, and ice cream always cheers me up!!!" he stood up quickly holding a hand out to roxas. as roxas looked up to the happy face he noticed there wasnt a single scar on sora's beautiful face. He had a bandage on his cheek and a big goofy smile on his lips. This made a smile rise to Roxas's lips. 'hmm..its contagious' he thought to himself before taking sora's hand. 'i like the feeling of a smile...i smiled before...when i was in the hospital and we talked...' he continued to think as they walked, sora spoke to him and roxas subconciously heard him. he was mostly thinking of why he smiled around this innocent and goofy boy.

"-right roxas?!" sora had ended what he was saying and roxas snapped up. "o-oh y-yeah right!" he said with a nervous laugh. Sora boredly looked to him. "...you are a unic?..." roxas winced, he had been caught not listening. "...i figured you werent listening...after you started agreeing with me on things like that...i know your mind is elsewhere..." Roxas looked to the disheartened boy and laughed softly. "..im sorry, ill listen to you...i promise...so, what about that ice cream huh?" he asked continuing to walk with him. "...ill pay in apology"

Sora smiled brightly. "the only thing better then ice cream is...FREE ICE CREAM!!" he rushed off to teh nearest ice cream parlor, dragging the poor boy along by the hand. Roxas blushed madly as Sora excidedly held his hand. "ah! s-sora! not so fast!!"

"c'mon ya wuss!! run a bit!!" roxas merely chuckled. The ate ice cream and talked, Sora would talk to him always smiling. then...his face would drop when the subject turned to his boyfriend Riku. "...he's a great guy...i love him so much...but...he...i dont think he loves me...he's hit me...and always yells at me..." he looked down the ie cream had melted over his fingers.Roxas's eyes turned to Sora's showing worry and sadness. "...why dont you leave him?" he asked wondering. "...i...cant..." sora said sadly. "...i have nobody...if i leave him i have nobody...my mom...had recently passed away...and ive never known my father...i have no siblings...and Riku was the only one i needed for so long...that...i havent had any friends..."

"what about me?" Askes Roxas smiling to him gnetly. "...im your friend right?" Slowely sora looked to him. "...really?...you think of me as a friend?" Roxas smiled and pressed a hand to Sora's cheek, he was blushing slightly as Roxas leaned in whispering. "...you have no idea..." he leaned closer, but before he was able to reach sora's lips a beeping came from his cell phone. he pulled back cursing to himself, Sora seemed still to be blushing. "...im sorry Sora...i need to leave...i have...'work'..." Sora looked away. "...I trust Riku...the only thing i know...he wouldnt do is cheat...im sorry Roxas...but i wont give him feign trust..."

Roxas nodded slowely. "...you're a good boy Sora...its best you dont get mixed up with a guy like me..." with that he ran off, it was 5:30, and it was about twenty minutes to get there. On the way there Roxas fought back tears that threatened his eyes' dammit! i find someone who makes me smile...who i like to be around...and i dont just keep it at friendship!!...i guess...its just the way i am...' he slowed at the street, gasping for breath as he walked to the appropriate door. he was 3 minutes early. 'hmphj maybe that bastard will give me 3 EXTRA pills for getting here early" he said with a sigh, knowing it was untrue. he cautiously knocked on the door and a voice rang from inside. "...alright im coming!" it was a deep sensual voice, it seemed to hold a kindness, or at least a feigned kindness. As the man opened the door he smirked to Roxas "...well, im glad you arrived, right at 6:00 good timing..." Roxas hadnt looked at the man until he started talking.

Roxas sighed. "...yeah i try to be on time" he said softly. then he stopped. "...you..." he whispered looking up at the tall lean muscular man. he seemed around 17 and was an utter beauty. his hair was should length and silver, it felt in clumps, almost spiked, it held an elegance yet toughnes to it. his eyes were aqua-marine and were unreadable. his skin was pale although he lived on an island, this was the man who was sitting next to sora that first day. this was. "...Riku..."

((how'd ya'll like it!! sorry for the lag, i havent had been inspired in SOOOO long. haha))

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