Forbidden Boundary

Chapter 2. Shattered Heart

Summary: As I hold his hands, I feel the heat. But undeniably, I'm still oceans apart from him." Kagome Higurashi has come to realize how her relationship with her best friend has changed over the course of her life. SxK

Recap…

As I watch the blur of buildings and lights flash outside the car, I couldn't help but notice my reflection from the window. I'm no longer the little girl that held your hands and ran carefreely Sesshoumaru. I've changed into a woman... but when are you going to see me for who I am? I'm no fool. I know he doesn't see me as a woman. I'll forever be that little girl that held us hands. I smiled bitterly.

Who knew that our friendship was the only thing blinding the man I've been in love with from seeing me as a grown woman.

Or so I thought.

As I stepped out of the car, I spotted Sesshoumaru in a suit. That's odd Sesshoumaru normally dresses a little more casual than that. Then suddenly a woman from behind him came out. She was a head shorter than him and her brown eyes were shy as she glanced at me.

Congratulations Kagome, she just confirmed your worse fear!

I felt my heart drop. Sesshoumaru's hands were firm over hers as he walked with her over here. This couldn't be happening to me… She's probably just a secretary, sister, friend… Anything! My mind sought to give a reason for my best-friend bringing a woman to meet me.

"Kagome," Sesshoumaru's husky voice sounded out as he bared a small smile at me. My heart fluttered. Sesshoumaru was never one to show much emotion but when he does, he's up to something. Please… don't…

"This is…"

I closed my eyes

"my fiancée."

My heart broke.

I couldn't process it… fiancée?

I tried to smile. "Sesshoumaru, what are you talking about?" He motioned the woman to come closer, she shuffled shyly towards me and smiled as friendly as possible.

"Kagome-san what a pleasure to meet you, I'm Hikari, Sesshoumaru's fiancée."

I felt my heart break a bit more.

I managed to muster another smile, "Hikari, the pleasure's mine." Then I glared at Sesshoumaru,

"I apologize for my rudeness but I don't recall a certain someone mentioning a fiancée to me." I knew I was being rash, but I felt betrayed. And I thought he just wanted to spend time with me… Sesshoumaru put his arms around her waist,

"Kags, Hikari and I met in Paris when I took a business trip. I've been seeing her for the past few months and I proposed to her yesterday. I thought you should be the first one to meet seeing that your approval will mean a lot to me."

I cringed. Because I'm his best friend…That's why.

"Sesshoumaru, months?! You've been keeping this away from me for months? Is that how you treat me? And I thought you were busy with work that's why you couldn't spend time with me? Why the hell Sess?" I was mad. I wanted to yell at him and slap him.

I wanted to scream at him… Look at me Sesshoumaru; I'm the one for you… I'm the one that wants to be with you!

Hikari whimpered beside Sesshoumaru at my outburst and Sesshoumaru hurriedly hugged her towards him. Just the way he does to me…

"Kags, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it, but please don't scare Hikari." He said protectively. I knew he was mad; after all, I grew up with him. His eyes were stern and his lips were pursed.

I know I should back down now and apologize but my conscious stopped me from it.

"Happy for you? After my best friends lies to me for months, you want me to happy for you when you just decided on the spur of the moment to bring me your fucking fiancée?" My hands clenched in a fist and I wanted to punch something.

Something snapped in Sesshoumaru's eyes. He walked towards me menacingly,

"I love her Kagome. I fucking love her. So don't tell me what I did wrong because if that's how you're going to treat me, then fine. I wanted you to be the first to know because I wanted to see you smile!"

I laughed at the irony

"You want to see me smile Sesshoumaru? Smile at what? At the fact that my best friend lied to me for months? At the fact that when he actually wants to spend time with me he brings a fiancée? Or that you tell me that you want to see me smile when you're only just thinking about your own fucking happiness!"

Suddenly, I felt a pair of hands grab my arms forcefully.

"Why are you so mad at me? I'm telling you now aren't I?"

"Now? After months, you decide to tell me. Sesshoumaru you can't show up after so long and just bring a woman with you, saying it's your fiancée!" I yelled.

"Why not? We're happy together and I wanted you to be happy for me!" His hands clenched around my shoulders,

"Why can't you just be happy for me?" I stiffened and whispered…

"But how could you do this to me?" How could you…? After everything I've been through, how can you bring in a woman that will be everything I want to be?

"Forget it Kagome, you're not worth it." His eyes glared intently at mine and for a second I felt regret. Apologize to him damnit… But I couldn't. My pride forbade me and I hung my head to the side in defiance.

His hands dropped me as you took Hikari once more by the hands. "Let's go…" he said gruffly as Hikari stumbled behind him and tried to follow him. As they left, I saw Hikari glanced back at me almost apologetically.

I hate her. I hate how perfect she is. I hate how she smiles. I hate how warm her eyes are. I hate how she has him.

Instead of running after him, I took what was left of me and went home. By the time I reached my house I was devastated. Hungry, cold, betrayed, and heart-broken I closed the door behind me. Then suddenly, my feet gave out. I slid down the door and hot tears found their way down my cheeks.

I'm crying…

If Hikari was a bitch or a gold-digger, I would've probably felt better. But she isn't… I wish she was bad… I wish she didn't deserve Sesshoumaru's love… Then suddenly I laughed.

Is this how it feels to be the girl next door? To be the plain Jane that would always be second to the prom queen? Am I the girl next door? And is Hikari the prom queen?

My shoulder shivered as I cried tears of hurt. The way he looked at her… the way he wanted to protect her…

And when I remembered how disappointed and hurt he was at me, his words came back to me.

Flashback…

"Forget it Kagome, you're not worth it." His eyes glared intently at mine and for a second I felt regret. I thought, 'Apologize to him damnit…' But I couldn't. My pride forbade me and I hung my head to the side in defiance.

Flashback ends…

My heart shattered.

Then suddenly, it was as if something finally clicked in my head. I have to be the better person and step out… I no longer have a place in this. This is for the best. For Sesshoumaru's sake… and for mine.

"Stupid Kagome, always playing the good person eh?" I said as I wiped a tear away with my hands.

"This time you're not going to come like last time huh?" Suddenly I remembered an incident in fifth grade and Sesshoumaru told me that he hated me. We had a fight about who's mother was better and we ended up saying pretty hurtful things to each other.

Flashback…

"I hate you, I hate you, I hate you!" A young Sesshoumaru shouted.

"My mother is so much better than yours!" I was seething with anger,

"Not true! My mommy knows how to cook and take care of me better than yours!"

"Not true!"

"True!"

"Not true!"

"SO true! Why don't you just admit that my mother is prettier and better than yours!"

Then suddenly out of nowhere Sesshoumaru pushed me,

"I never want to be your friend again!" When he saw the hurt on my face, he continued

"I only talked to you because you said you were half a boy. But I hate you now so don't talk to me ever again!" He huffed out and he started running, leaving me on the ground crying.

I cried and cried and cried until I felt like there were no more tears in me. Then I started to whimper… 'when did it get so dark?'

I didn't realized how long I cried and when I did, I lost track of time. It was well past dinner time and knowing my family, they were probably worried sick. Suddenly, I wished Sesshoumaru was here to help me.

I was always terrified of the dark and suddenly, I felt so alone. So very extremely lonely…

"You know you should get home, everyone's looking for you" a voice squeaked out. I lifted my head in surprise…

"Sesshy-chan!" Then suddenly I remembered our fight and I felt terrible. 'He came back for me and I said all those mean things to him!'

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean anything. If you want your mother to be better than mine than go ahead but I still want you as a friend!" Sesshoumaru avoided my eyes and coughed.

"I um… I'm…" Then he whispered something barely audible. I blinked.

"I didn't get that, what did you say Sesshy-chan?" Sesshoumaru blushed,

"I said, ImsorryforwhatIsaidandthatitisn'ttrue!" I blinked again.

"Sesshy-chan, wahh?" He growled,

"I said I'm sorry and I didn't mean the things I said!" I beamed a big bright smile.

"I know you didn't mean it! I'm sorry too!" I giggled,

"But an apology from you is amazing!" He blushed as I poked his cheeks.

"Get off…"

I smiled and grabbed his hands,

"Thank you for coming back to me."

He smiled.

Flashback ends…

"I guess you're not coming back this time Sesshoumaru…"

I took my car keys and walked out the door. The cool breeze fluttered my hair and the moon shone on my face.

Time to forget...

Author's Notes:

Chapter 2 is finally up! I haven't updated this story in ages but I'm glad I got to rewrite it! Read and Review!