Alright and here is the epic conclusion of the diary! Or yeah. Anyway, thanks to those who have read and I had a lot of fun writing this so enjoy the end! - Chelsea

Dear Diary,
Today's the day…and it's my birthday! Going offworld, then showering and looking nice. God, I can't wait!

MUCH LATER – Whoa. I'm not sure what just happened. But… it was something. So I got ready and wore casual clothes for the first time in about a million years. Jeans had become something of a luxury and I tossed on a shirt and short little blazer. I personally thought I looked pretty good and made my way on down the hallway to where he told me to meet him. When I walked into the room, I was presently surprised. The room actually opened up to a balcony and you could see the moon right over the ocean. Aiden was dressed in cargo pants, a gray t-shirt, and a baseball cap that he took off as soon as I walked in. It was cute. On a little table he had two glasses on Champaign and he handed me one.

"What's all this for?" I asked, taking the glass.

"A thank you."

"For what?"

"Being there for me when I was in the infirmary. It meant a lot to me that you were there, you know, waiting," He said, looking me strait in the eyes. I don't think I have ever heard something more sincere in my life.

"A thank you card would have done," I said looking around the room, admiring the effort he made.

"It's a thank you for other things too," He told me. I simply cocked my head in curiosity, choosing not to say anything.

"I have friends here, but it's hard. Major Sheppard thinks of me as a kid half the time, McKay is hard to get along with, and Teyla spends a lot of her time on the mainland or with other people," He said pausing. I hadn't ever really seen this side of him before. I wasn't even sure if opening up like this was hard for him, "And you've been the one I could go to, so thank you."

I smiled, "You're welcome," Was all I could come up with, "To us!" I said and raised my glass. He tapped it with his and we both took a sip before walking out on the balcony. We stood there, leaning against the rail, looking out to the ocean. No matter how many times you look at it, it's still amazing. We were living on a city in the middle of the ocean. And, if we wanted it to, that city could fly.

"This place is beautiful," I said staring up into the stars. It was a foreign sky and I didn't know any constellations.

"Yeah," I heard Aiden sigh and when I looked at him he was staring right at me. And then, augh, I don't even know what happened! But he kissed me! Or I kissed him, I don't know. But when it stopped I stared at him, shocked.

"This isn't allowed," I said, bewildered.

"Yeah, I know," He said…and then I kissed him. Man, I hand my hands wrapped around him and everything! And if I can be honest, Aiden Ford is an excellent kisser. Once we were…done…we just went back to talking and sipping our Champaign for a few minutes. He was then called away and we had to end the little party early.

"Happy Birthday, Chris," He told me as we parted ways. My eyes got big.

"How did you know?" I asked. I hadn't told too many people because birthdays aren't too big of a deal here on the greatest expedition in human history.

"I just know," He said and walked away.

All in all…BEST BIRTHDAY EVER. There's not much to reflect right now, other then I feel like I am sitting on a cloud a million miles off of the surface of any planet. I hope Elsa doesn't find out. I hate thinking of myself as the conversational topic between scientists. But, still a good day. Oh, damn, what a good day!
- Christina

Diary.
All you need to know is that today was the worst day of my life. But I feel the need to write this down so I can figure out my emotions. First off, I fell way too hard. I allowed myself to get way too attached and it had bitten me in the ass. I'm not sure why I let myself get so close to him. I guess I just though it was a little crush that will just fade. I was too stupid trying to hide my own emotions from myself to realize I was letting it grow bigger. I didn't even try to hide it from anyone. Everyone probably knows about Lt. Ford and I, and it's embarrassing. It's demoralizing. It will probably one way or another get back to the pentagon and end my military career. Worst Case scenario, right? I don't care.

I just feel so guilty. I feel so damn guilty and then I went and screwed it all up. So the Lieutenant and I we meeting up for lunch. On my way there I saw him in the hallway with Major Sheppard. I knew better then to barge in on a conversation so I just hid behind the corner of a wall.

"Remember where you are in the military, Lieutenant," I hear Major Sheppard say.

"I know…" Ford replied.

"Just…be careful."

"Yes sir," Lieutenant said, and the Major walked away. I stepped out from behind the wall and looked at Lt. Ford.

"We should talk," He said.

"I agree," And we walked away to somewhere more private so no one would hear us.

"We can't do this anymore," He told me. My eye brows wrinkled. I knew I had too agree but there was something that told me to argue as well.

"Yeah…" I said softly, unsure of what to say and do.

"We're just gonna have to…not see each other as much, I guess." I finally concluded. And then that totally irrational person bottled up inside of me shot out.

"What, and pretend like none of this ever happened?" I said it much more sharp then I intended.

"I don't think we have a choice, Sergeant," He said, almost like he was reminding me of my place.

"You think just not being around each other is going to change things?" I said, my eyes narrowing.

"It's gonna have to." He said.

"Fine," I snapped, "Then I'll see you later."

"Fine."

And then we both walked away from each other. And that was that. There isn't anything else to say or mention. Even though the conversation was short…it just…stung. And the worst part, I wouldn't be feeling like this if I hadn't have blown up at him. He was being so good about it, and I flipped. I don't know what to do with myself really. I've been in my quarters most of the day. It's all my fault.
- Chris

Dear Diary,
I think I lost my best friend.

Diary,
Been a little over a week since I talked to Lt. Ford. Thoughts keep itching at my mind and I know I should apologize to him. I could walk into him anytime I want and say 'I'm sorry.' But my ego is not letting me. And then I am even more bothered by the fact I can't be (wo)man enough to admit I am wrong. But, of course I am wrong. I was so wrong to act like a lunatic. I am wrong to not say something. I am wrong to avoid him like I am still fifteen years old. And I bet he knows it. And it kills me to think that he is sitting there knowing I am acting immature. Even Elsa says to apologize. Only good news (if that): I don't think anyone saw the kiss, I haven't been approached. I need to jog this off.
- Chris

Dear Diary,
After fighting back some tears last night, I realized I was only going to feel better if I said something to him. I'm going offworld today, but tomorrow I will talk to him. It's what's right and best.

Dear Diary,
I did it. I went to him today. It wasn't pretty, but I did. I woke up and knew that I had to do what was right, but didn't know when. So I slumped around in the morning, and then ate a little lunch. There wasn't much of an appetite so most of my meatloaf I threw away. Then, as slowly as I could, I walked to his quarters. I took the most round about way too. I stared at his door for a minute or two before being all 'I just got to do this'. Then I rang for him. I heard his foot steps and my heart started pounding and then he opened the door. My heart sank as he greeted me.

"Hey," He said dully, not even acting surprised or anything to see me. Not that that surprised me or anything to begin with.

"Hi," I said timidly, "Can…Can we talk?" There was a moment where he considered this and stepped aside for me to come in. His quarters were just like everyone else, but with his own little touches. The Lieutenant had clicked into silent mode as he waited for me to say my peace.

"I don't know where to start," I said and nervously smiled. I wasn't even looking at him by this point, "I think all I really want to do it apologize." His face suddenly was starched with interest. "When we talked the last time I guess I was all crazy and emotional or whatever. I knew what you were saying was true but I guess I didn't want to admit it to myself. So I did what I thought was rational and I got angry. But, that was so wrong. I mean, so, so wrong. I was completely wrong and you were completely right. I can't even begin to explain to you how sorry I am. So sorry that I couldn't sleep and I couldn't eat. All I could think about was you and how I ruined a good thing." I paused wondering if I was getting too emotional, "Not like a thing, thing, but a good friendship that I valued more then anything on this base.

"And I'm sorry…and I don't know what I'll do if you won't forgive me, whether it's today or five years down the road." When I stopped I realized that halfway through my spiel I was staring him directly in the eyes. Everything I meant.

"It's okay," I said finally, the soft face that I knew so well returning, 'I get why you reacted that way, and I'm sorry too-"

"Don't apologize," I interrupted him.

"I wanted a quick fix but it's going to be something we work at, you know?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yeah," I said, a small smile twitching to my face. Then he gave me a hug, but it wasn't romantic by any means. It was just the kind of thing you would do when you saw a friend you hadn't seen for a long time, which was what it felt like. So I walked to the door, deciding that taking my leave would be the best choice of action.

"I'll see you around, Lieutenant," I told him with a wave.

"See ya," He said with a nod. I walked down the hallway only a little bit before I heard him call out to me.

"Sergeant!" I turned around, "You can still call me Aiden."

I laughed, "Maybe," I said jokingly and continued walking.

So, today was a good day. A redeeming day. Days like this only happen once in a while. I guess that friendship we made runs pretty damn deep. It was just a little tiff but we could get through it. I don't think I can honestly write what I feel right now. It's such a feeling of relief and I can move on. I have a best friend and I think it will stay that way. Nothing is going to change that fact. And that's a good feeling. So I am going to lift my head, do my job, and learn from this…and of course have Aiden back in my life.
- Christina