Hey guys' (once again) well, um thank you for reading (and choosing to still read after all that happened) and reviewing. Enjoy. I'll do my best to remember what I wrote before (if only I kept it on my computer instead of deleting it…sigh).
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Lilly took her left hand out of Miley's hair, letting it glide across her cheek, and her right hand slowly releasing the brunette's shirt, causing wrinkles. Lilly stepped back slowly, staring at Miley.
Did she really just kiss her? Her best friend? Her female best friend? Kiss her and like it? Lilly made her way to Miley's bed and sat down, a stunned look upon her face. She was shocked and confused. What could this mean? Did she like Miley, maybe love her? What about Oliver? This was all to much for her, to many emotions passing through her brain at once, she could not take it. She did her best to control her breathing and sucked in on her lower lip, biting down.
What was she to do? She betrayed Oliver and is possibly paying tricks on Miley's heart. But which one did she love more Oliver or Miley? She can't love Miley. Miley was a girl, just like her, they could never be accepted. Lilly closed her eyes tightly; she was on the brink of tears but did not want them to fall.
Miley stood there, eyes still closed. She did not want to open them, want to wake up, it was her perfect dream, and if she woke up it might turn into a nightmare. The person she fell for just kissed her and she did not want it to end. Miley drew in her lips and had her tongue lick them, still tasting Lilly. She slowly opened her eyes and was happy to see Lilly had not yet run. That had to be a good sign right? But her happiness soon changed when she saw the blonde crying. "Oh Lilly," Being her best friend first Miley instinctively walked over to Lilly and wrapped her arm around her. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Lilly." Lilly didn't hold back she let the tears fall and the sobs come out. "I'll stop, I'll make it stop. I'll leave it you want me to. I'll forget about it, move on. Never come back, you'll never have to see me again."
Lilly leaned into Miley placing her head in the crook of the taller girl's neck. Miley got a taste of what she wanted, of course she will never be completely satisfied, but she got part of what she wanted plus it was not fair to Lilly, who had a boyfriend, who was also their good friend. Miley's main priority was for Lilly to be happy; she did not want to make Lilly miserable. "No…" Lilly sniffed and finally calmed down. "I don't want you out of my life Miley." Lilly lifted her head up and wiped the few tears that fell. "I caught of glimpse of that and I don't want that to ever happen, you are very important to me Miles. I couldn't picture my life without you-I don't know what the future of us holds but-I don't know I'm just confused."
'Future'? Could Miley possibly have a shot with Lilly? "Okay…" Miley drew Lilly close with a quick half hug before letting her go. "Why don't you rest, I'm gonna go get a drink." Before Lilly had time to respond Miley was out the door.
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Oliver walked up the sidewalk to the Stewart household talking to himself, for confidence. He could not let this go. If Miley likes Lilly what could happen to them? The last thing Oliver wanted was some show down to win Lilly. He did not want in any way to ruin the bond that they had. He had to at least try to talk to Miley and not only figure this out but fix it.
Oliver walked up the steps of the porch and knocked on the door. Miley looked up from the counter, where she was pouring her drink, and looked at the door from where the knock came from. Noticing Oliver she grew nervous. Should she answer the door, with Lilly right up stairs? She knew she would have to face Oliver sometime and that time was now. Miley made a quick glance to the stairs before making her way to the door. She opened it to be greeted by Oliver. "Oliver…Hi." Miley smiled at him, trying to hide her nervousness.
Oliver mustered up the best smile he could back at Miley. "Hey Miles." Silence fell among the two friends. Oliver was fighting an inner battle with himself and Miley was trying to control her nerves. But Oliver had to do this and he had to do it now. "Um…could we talk?"
Miley bit on her inner cheek. "S-sure, come in." Miley moved out of the way, opening the door completely, so Oliver could get by. Oliver muttered a 'thank you' and walked over to the green couch. Miley walked behind him and sat on the other side of the couch. She drew in a breath. "So what's up?" Both started to feel uncomfortable.
Oliver leaned forward and placed his elbows on his knees, avoiding eye contact with Miley. He had to do it and he was going to be straight forward. "I know." Miley's eyebrows raised and quick panic struck through her, but she did not say anything. Oliver turned so is brown eyes met her blue. "How could you Miles?" Miley was now the one to avert her eyes somewhere else and pretending to be preoccupied with her hands. "I mean, you know her and I are dating and that I love her. Just how, why?"
Miley's throat grew tight and her voice small. Guilt started to tear away at her stomach. "I don't know…I'm sorry Oliver really I am. I just, I guess I couldn't help it. I mean, I always pictured what it would be like to kiss Lilly and I guess my hormones got the best of me. But I promise I'll stay away, I'll forget, I wont have feelings for her. I don't want to ruin our friendship, Oliver."
Oliver nodded his head. "I know me neither." Oliver lent his hand out and grabbed a hold of Miley's, which made her feel more uncomfortable. "The three of us have a great bond, I don't want anything to ruin that, I really care about it, I don't want to stop being your friend Miles, or fighting you for Lilly," He gave Miley's hand a light squeeze and Miley swallowed the lump in her throat, she was growing more uncomfortable by the second. "I'm sorry Miles, but she is with me. A-as long as you promise."
Miley did her best to perk up, although she was breaking inside. "I do, I promise Oliver, I'm sorry." Miley did her best to get her hand out of Oliver's grasp and give him an apologetic smile.
Oliver returned the smile, looking deep into Miley's blue and finding she was serious, his brown eyes shined. "But I also want you to promise you'll be yourself again and hang out with us."
Miley licked her lips and did her best to maintain her smile. "Sure…promise. I'm sorry. I already told Lilly she could forget, I would move on find someone else, and not have feelings for her."
"Thanks Miles." Oliver opened his arms and Miley accepted his hug. They stayed like that for a few seconds before pulling away. "I-I uh better get going."
"Yeah sure see you tomorrow?" Oliver gave her a soft smile before nodding. Miley didn't bother to get up as he walked out the door.
She closed her eyes and tried to control her breathing. Any chance she had with Lilly was now gone. Miley did her best to get rid of the tears welling up behind her eyes, but she could not hold them in. She lost a love she never had and will never have. She reached out and grabbed one of the pillows from the couch. Clutching it tight to her body.
Her tears where falling freely and she hugged the pillow pulling it closer to her mouth to drain out the sobs, so Lilly could not hear. Times like this she wishes her Mother was here. To hold her, give her advice, talk to. Sure it was great having her Dad and Jackson, but going through your teenage years it would be easier with a mom, a woman, who could help her. Miley wept more as she thought of her Mom also gripping the pillow tighter wishing it was her Mother and crying for losing two women she loved.
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Unknown to Miley and Oliver, Lilly sat atop of the stairs the whole time, hearing the whole conversation. She never thought much of Miley or her feelings. She was worried about her own and how Oliver would react, not Miley. She never once imagined her being more confused than she was. It had to be hard. Loving someone and them never loving you back, while their boyfriend "tries to make it better".
Lilly face dropped and sadness over took it. She was hurting Miley and she was not there for her, as a friend. Plus she now had to deal with what she was feeling towards her girl best friend. Miley let out another sob that was muffled by the pillow, but Lilly heard it, and a knife shot through her heart. Miley crying was her fault. Miley tried to be strong and let go for her, but Miley did not want that, Miley wanted her to be happy, and she overlooked it. Lilly let one small tear fall from her eye and soon more followed.
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Okay, well I hope you guys' enjoyed it. I'll start writing the other chapters soon. Anywho, what do you think? Could things go back to normal? Does Lilly love Miley? Till then. :)