As Sam stood outside watching Dean watch TV with Mickie and AJ he could not help feel that he was finally right he was the outsider in his family but he was determined not to let Dean down not let his evil future become true to keep his family safe. To keep Dean safe, to keep Bobby safe and now to keep Mickie and AJ safe as well.

"I have to get out of here" Sam thought "I have to get away from them so that way Dean can have normality for as long as I can give him"

"Where are you going to go?" Ruby asked him worried about his own mental state

"Away" Sam said "maybe Lawrence I was always happy there"

"I won't let you do this Sam" Ruby said "you need Dean and he needs you"

"No he doesn't" Sam said "AJ needs Dean more than I need him"

"For God's sake Sam he DIED FOR YOU, WENT TO HELL FOR YOU" Ruby said "HE FUCKING GAVE UP HIS HAPPINESS FOR YOU AND YOUR FATHER, TWICE"

"I know Ruby" Sam said

"And you are going to walk away?" she said "after all this you are giving up? I hate to say it Sam but maybe Azazel was right when you came back you didn't come back totally Sam Winchester , you came back a spoilt self pitying child you are a shell of what you once where and no wonder Dean wonders if you are really you"

"How dare you" Sam said "I am leaving to let Dean have time with his family if there is a war"

"You are his family Sam" Ruby said firing up "he is as much your father as John"

"My father did the best that he could" Sam said

"Then make him proud" Ruby said "and don't give up"

"I am trying" Sam said

"Then do something that proves it Sam" Ruby said "hunt Lilith down and slit the bitch's throat for what she has done to your family"

"I can't do it alone" Sam said

"You won't have to" Ruby said "there are loads of people that care for you Sam, don't shut them out"

"I just have to get out of here" Sam said "and try and find away to kill Lilith we lost the knife there is no colt, we have nothing"

"Sam running away will not help anyone" Ruby said "it will just make it harder for yourself you are better staying with Dean and fighting together than leaving and fighting alone"

"I am not running away Ruby" Sam said "I am protecting them"

"Call it what you want Sam" Ruby said "I am through arguing this with you"

"I need to go" Sam said "but I need your help"

"Ok" Ruby said "pack your stuff and we will go"

As Sam left Ruby turned and looked into the darkness and said

"I hope you know what you are doing Sam Winchester because I sure as hell don't"