FORSAKEN
I TELL MYSELF,
I Must protect you,
Leaving you
The only way.
You are,
Only human love,
And will forsake,
My love someday.
I promised you,
No reminders,
You could forget,
Keep moving on.
While I'm curled up,
In agony,
Each hour so painful,
So very long.
(possible chorus)
You must give up
Don't feel forsaken,
Move past,
Losing this haunted face.
Please my love,
Don't feel forsaken,
My love so strong,
I must leave this place.
I know,
I can only bare this pain,
Because I've left,
And your now secure.
I plead inside,
Tell myself,
For her, for her,
You must endure.
My plan for you,
to relinquish my love,
No destiny should be,
So filled with strife.
It was wrong,
to steal your future,
You deserve,
Much more from life.
A life,
I could never give you,
A gift,
I can't bestow,
I can only take away,
It's why,
Why I had to go.
It was selfish,
Just to take you,
From my world,
You need no part,
Please know,
My love for you,
is absolute,
Never forsaken
In my soul,
In my blood,
In my heart.
3.17.09
Jen
LIQUID EYES
Lucid, streaming,
Liquid eyes,
Stun me,
Burn me,
Hypnotize.
Electric, pulsing,
Rapid squeeze,
Pull me down,
Onto my knees.
Begging, pleading,
Trapped inside,
Topaz eyes,
That cannot hide.
Lids can close,
Twittering, blinking,
Liquid crystals,
Inside sinking.
Glittering orbs,
That hold,
Mesmerize,
Unbearable,
Lucid, shining eyes.
I look at them
Lose my hold,
Embracing warmth,
Ebbs out the cold.
Lost in heat,
Those eyes I see,
They take me where,
I want to be!
3.19.09
Jen
CLEANSE
Cleanse this soul,
Free it from pain,
My being soiled,
My insides stained.
You left me dead,
Alone I stood,
Stranded in agony,
In the mossy wood.
Frozen, tortured,
My way now lost,
Gave in with ease,
Look what it cost.
There was no choice,
Your eyes,
they stunned,
Elicited a frantic start,
Aimed towards you,
The compass of my heart.
I know too well,
I had no hold,
Breakable, weak,
Barren, cold.
My humaness wilted,
By your gleaming,
Know broken, messy,
Soul left bleeding.
No needle or thread,
To patch the tear,
It grows, opens up,
Tattered everywhere.
Where are you?
Tell me why!
Come back to me,
Cleanse and purify.
You're the air,
That keeps me alive,
What I need,
To just survive.
Only Your soul,
Your scent,
Absorbed in my head,
Without you,
Alone,
I'd rather be dead.
Ruined, dirtied,
Eternally pained,
Without you,
To cleanse me,
Eternally stained.
3.19.09 (amended 4.25.09)
Jen