Chapter 4 - My, Myself and I
Who am I?
I know my name. Lisa Cuddy. A lot of people call me Dr. Cuddy. Some call me Cuddy. Not many call me Lisa.
House calls me Cuddy. Or some crazy nickname.
I'm the administrator at PPTH. The job is interesting and I earn a lot of money. In general, I love my job. But then there are times ...
Let's just say that sometimes a job is not enough.
House has often made comments about me having slept with a lot of men to get that job. He knows that it's not true. He knows that I've gotten the job despite having slept with him. Yeah, that's more what it is about ...
House also often says things like my ass is so big that it's no wonder the couch in my office is an XXL version. And that was on one of his nice days.
Even more frequently, he talks to my breasts. He's even given them names. More than one for each.
Yeah, I am a woman, I have an ass and two breasts.
And I would love to use my breasts for more than filling my suits.
And I'm not talking about some sex fantasy ...
It would be great to breastfeed my children.
The only problem is that I don't have - and will probably never have - children, at least not of my own flesh and blood.
I've told myself over the last years that having children is my biggest dream. That's why I've spent so much money on IVF and things like that.
But sometimes, when I lie awake in the middle of the night, I wonder if it's really true.
Would a child really fill this big whole in my heart?
I'm almost fourty and I still don't know who I am ...
House wouldn't be able to stop laughing if he knew my thoughts ...