Chapter 12
EPOV
"What the heck is going on here Edward?!" Rosalie had me pinned up against a wall, she could be very fierce.
In my depression, I didn't have the strength to fight back. I started explaining to her and Alice, who was standing behind Rose with her arms crossed, about Tanya and my situation. Alice started shaking her head when I started on the text messages from Tanya and then the calling of the security. I finally explained what was going on to them and Rosalie released me from her claw like grip. "What are you going to do?" Rosalie asked, confusion and fear in her eyes.
"What can I do? If I do what Tanya saids she'll tear Bella and I apart and if I don't she goes to the tabloids with a fake story."
I was depressed, immensely so and I didn't know what to do.
Apparently I was supposed to tell Bella, well that was at least what Emmett and Jasper had told me, but each time I had worked up the courage to do it, I had chickened out by seeing Bella's innocent face. "Can't you get one of those restraining orders?" Alice asked.
"What offence has she committed?" I asked.
"Uh, threatening to, uh...blackmail?" Alice asked hopelessly.
I shrugged, "Getting a restraining order will take weeks and I don't have weeks, we're almost in LA!"
"Emmett and Jasper has called the tabloids and warned them about Tanya, but who knows who they'll listen to? I mean bad news is better than no news after all. These tabloids are like bees to honey, it's hopeless."
"I think you should tell Bella what's going on Edward." Rosalie spoke up.
"She'll hate me for this! She will truly despise me for this."
"Not if you tell her the complete and utter truth." Alice commented and with that both of them left.
We had stopped to go back to our normal trailers and we were getting quick refreshments before we headed on. LA was about an hour away and I was starting to hyperventilate. I hung my head and walked into my trailer where Bella was waiting patiently. "Are you going to tell me what's going on or are you going to run away from me again?" Bella asked, her voice cold.
"I, I, I, I um, well, here's the thing...you know how we kissed and there were pictures of us and so on?"
Bella nodded once but said nothing.
"Well, they're making stuff up about you and, it's not pretty. Bella i am so sorry! We shouldn't have gotten together in the first l place this was my fault."
Bella stood up and came over to me. I closed my eyes as i expected her to slap me and say that she knew i was lying but she didn't. "Open your eyes Edward." She said softly.
I opened them slowly as if I was only just waking up and looking into her soft sweet face. "I knew that in the beginning that there would be some trouble with the magazines and that they would print wrong stuff about me, but I'm fine with that! As long as we have each other I'll be fine."
"You mean, you don't care if they print you out as a slut or something?" I asked nervously.
"I don't care as long as you don't believe it!" she replied honestly.
I felt bad for lying to her and not telling her the whole truth. I felt bad for not telling her about Tanya, but she was protected this way. She would be protected this way. Now Tanya couldn't touch us if Bella didn't care about this stuff. Now all i had to worry about was the VIP pass.
"I love you!" I said, pulling her into me. I was such a dick head.
I had already broken three stress balls and a rugby ball, if this wasn't stressed out, i don't know what could be. "Dude, you are so freaking stressed, just chill, we've got everything under control!" Emmett said.
I scoffed, "You and organization will never, ever go together dude."
Emmett scowled at me as i destroyed my fourth stress ball. We were at the hotel, in LA admiring the fancy carpets and statues. They even had a freaking river running through the lobby! I sighed, hiding the broken stress ball from Bella as she came to sit next to me on the couch in the lobby as we waited or our manager to sort things out with reception. "So what do you wanna do when we get to our rooms?" Rosalie asked everyone, eyeing me especially.
"I think it would only be proper if we practiced a bit." I said shiftily.
"Aw, no way! We're practicing at this shin dig's main hall this afternoon, i am not doing double time." Emmett complained.
"Good thing you don't work in an office Em." Alice joked.
I smiled, looking over at the scowling Emmett. Our manager motioned for one of us to come over and get the room keys. We all looked at each other.
"Not getting it." Rosalie said.
"Nope." Jasper seconded.
"Nu-huh." Alice shook her head.
"No way." Emmett sulked.
"Don't look at me." I said.
We all looked over at Bella, who was looking at us confused. "Now, hold on a second, that's not fair, Bella shouldn't have to get it. She doesn't know the rules of complaining babies!" i said, a bit of guilt stirring in the bottom of my stomach.
"Yeah that's because of Tanya." Rosalie mumbled. I glared at her and threw my broken stress ball at her.
"You don't have to get it Bella." I said looking next to me into her huge brown innocent eyes. Oh how i love those eyes. So vulnerable and innocent. I'm a monster.
"No that's fine, you're all a bunch of lazy sods anyway since you have an argument over who's going to get off of their own bums and walk about five metres to get their keys to their own suites!" Bella joked, getting up and jogging over to the manager waiting impatiently.
He dropped three keys into her hand and she came back to us, "Rosalie and Emmett, you have suite number 476. Alice and Jasper gets lucky number 479 and Edward we have 477."
"Easy." I smiled up at her, grabbing her waist and moving her to the elevators.
I felt like the goddess walking beside me, brushing a piece of hair out of her face was just an image that i could only look at and not touch. But yet here i stood with her pecking my cheek and pulling at my arm as the elevator doors opened and i felt so horrible. I looked down at her smiling face filled with glee as she looked up at me. The stress, if not already from the hint of the stress balls, was clearly showing on my face since Bella's carefree look changed to one of a troubled one. "What's wrong?" her voice broke out, looking at me worriedly.
"Nothing." I quickly choked out, "You're just so beautiful that's all." I said truthfully. Nice save Edward.
"Oh." She murmured, a blush creeping across her chest.
"Hey," i said, pulling her into my waist as the elevator climbed to level 22, "What do you want to do when we get to the hotel room?" i asked mischievously.
A deeper maroon blush shone brightly on her face as she quickly became interested in our feet. "Hey," i said again, putting a finger under her chin and lifting her face up, "What's wrong?"
"Well, actually, i was...um, well, kind of thinking, we could try out the Jacuzzi in the hotel room?" she said timidly.
"That sounds good to me." I said kissing her forehead.
"Um, but the only thing is..." she said, quickly averting her gaze back to our feet, "I don't have any, ya know, swimmers, so..." she murmured, a blush quickly spreading around her whole face.
"Oh." Was all i could mutter.
She wanted to have sex? I was gobsmacked, from the beginning i had always wanted to be close to her, but she felt so comfortable with me already?
But how could i connect with her in that way and still have Tanya on my mind the same time? Oh fuck it, i knew that i was a sucker for anything Bella wanted, i was a sucker for Bella. I would bring her the whole world if she asked for it. I would pluck a star out of the heavens for her if she wished it. I wrapped my arms tighter around her body and leant me mouth down to her ear. "If that is what you wish."
Heat radiated from her face and i kissed her cheek softly, and then down her neck and then landed on her lips. We were kissing so freely that we were startled when we heard a small 'ah hem' from in front of us. We looked up from our embrace and realised we had reached our floor and there was an impatient woman standing in front of us waiting for us to finish. "Hello, i am Andy Willgor and i am here to show you your suites." She said politely.
I stood up from our embrace and said"I think we can find out own way, thank you." It came out as more of a growl than a polite gesture but i was so turned on i didn't have time to wait.
"Oh, but if you would follow me, i can show you how to work some of our electrical devices in the room and show you some important factors that we have at the Ritz royal hotel."
"Thank you, but we're fine!" i snarled.
I barged pass her, dragging Bella along behind me as i unlocked the hotel door and closed it after
Bella once we were inside.
"I'll, um, get, uh, ready." She said, disappearing into the bathroom.
The Jacuzzi was in a separate room and i quickly got the water bubbling. I took off my shirt and shoes and everything else until i was just standing in my boxers. "Oh who cares." I mumbled to myself as i got into the Jacuzzi with my boxers still on. About two minutes later, Bella entered with a towel around her. I got out of the Jacuzzi and stood behind her, slowly shrugging her towel down to the floor. She was wearing a pair of night blue lacy panties and bra and i swallowed thickly. I pulled her around so she was looking at me, a red blush now so deep that you could have mistaken her for a human tomato. "Ssshhh," i trilled, "It's ok. We'll go at a slow pace if you want."
She nodded once and i carefully picked her up bridal style and carried her into the bubbling water.
She giggled slightly as the water bubbled on her feet, tickling her. I smiled at her laughter. But then it was replaced by a deep frown. "Bella, are you sure you want to do this? Don't you think it's a little too early?" i asked timidly.
She brushed her hand up against my face and i closed my eyes at the contact. "Edward, I love you. And nothing will ever get in the way of that. I am sure of this. If you would not like to i understand, but if you would, then know i am as open as a flower with you."
I smiled at her, opening my eyes. "I told you you're a good lyricist." i whispered and she blushed lightly. I leant in and kissed her lips passionately. My fingers hooked on the inside of her panties and she sat on my lap facing me. She put her hands on my hips and slowly, together, we took the pieces of clothing off.
I lay in the suite bed with Bella contently humming next to me. We were naked and enjoying the comfort of each other's arms. What i had just experienced was amazing, nothing could be compared to it. Not sky diving, not rock climbing, not even playing in the black keys. This experience was truly unique and so different. I could lie in bed here and stare at her all day long. Of course i couldn't because i had band practice in an hour but if i had my way, i would. Her hand began brushing my chest, trying to find a piece of chest hair, but of course, she found none. "No chest hair?" she asked light-heartedly.
"Hmm, no. Never had any. Think i have a disease." I said with half open eyed.
She giggled once, "That's okay." She said and continued her humming next to me.
"I love you." I whispered to her.
"I love you too." She whispered back, smiling.
There was a silent ticking in the back of my head. Like a small bug trying to annoy me. And i knew in my heart it was Tanya. How could one text cause so much trouble?
The little bug in the back of my mind that was ticking so noiselessly but annoying me so much was Tanya, and she was ruining my first time with Bella.
I really didn't want to go to band practice, but i knew Rosalie would haul me out of this bed whether i was nude or not because 'the band always came first' in her words.
But the truth was, the reason i was savouring this moment so much. Was it because i was scared.
I was scared i would never have this with Bella again. I was scared i would lose her. I wanted to be open with her like she was with me in the Jacuzzi, but i would rather want to hurt than hurt her. So that is why i got up to go to the bathroom when i actually didn't want her to see the silent tear slip down my cheek. And so that was why i needed to watch her every movement so that i could remember her forever. I didn't know if i was overreacting, but i knew that i was an idiot guitarist in a cool rock band that didn't give a shit about anything or anyone. And i hated myself for it.
I got up and started getting ready to go to band practice, Bella watching me as i rushed around the room looking for different pieces of clothing. I pulled on my jeans and looked around the room with a puzzled expression, Bella giggled "Your T-shirts under the bed."
"That's why i love you." I grinned a crooked grin at her and reached under the bed, grabbing my T-shirt and pulled it on.
"Do you wanna come to band practice?" i asked as i grabbed my jacket and guitar case.
"I'll come down later; I'll have a shower first." She replied, standing up with the bed sheet wrapped around her small frame.
I smiled at her and kissed the top of her head, "Okay, see you soon."
I was humming softly under my breath as the elevator came up to my floor and i got in. I was about to press the button for the ground floor when i heard jasper yell. "Yo dude, hold the elevator for me!" he said, jogging in.
"The others getting ready?" i asked him as the elevator started moving.
Jasper looked at me confused, "Uh no, they're already down there."
"Oh, right, sorry. Must of lost track of time." I muttered, blushing a little.
I smiled to myself as i thought of Bella.
Jasper turned to me right before the elevator doors were about to open "Oh." Was all he said and then turned to walk out the doors, heading for the main hall.
How did he know?!?! How could he always read my emotions?!!?! "Damn..." i muttered before jogging to catch up with him, the elevator doors closing behind me.
Okay, so sorry guys that i haven't updates in ages but it's been r eally hectic and i just really haven't had time. I promise that i will be better at updating soon. Anyway, what do you think?? Ok, i know that i promised we'd see Tanya in this chap but i thought it would be better to have this before and then see Tanya in the next chap. So what will happen between Edward and Tanya in the next chapter? Will Bella believe Edward?.....oooooo
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