And then there were two…
But what those two did, was all up to them
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S c a r e d o f S i l e n c e
Axel and Roxas, the new couple, were back at the redhead's. And all Axel could really think about was how did this happen so fast? He met the blonde just a few days ago and he was in love with him by at least the third day, and was his boyfriend in what seemed like moments later.
And Axel felt dizzy because of this. Or was that just because Roxas was staying so close to him? Axel didn't know though, and it wouldn't matter if he did or not. Because the room was feeling twisted, mangled, maybe somewhat spinning. And then the redhead seemed to drift to sleep. Despite the somewhat melting room. He just felt so confused. But if Roxas was the cause, Axel didn't mind.
Roxas mirrored Axel's thought track. He was spinning and in love. Was that how it always felt? When you've found the person you were made for?
But the blonde didn't want to mind that now. He just wanted his Axel. But he noticed that the redhead had fallen into a slumber. So Roxas just lay there, against Axel's chest, and gave in to sleep as well.
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Riku and Sora were back at Riku's home. They wanted to visit Axel. They wanted to know if Roxas was with him, and if the both of them were okay.
"Riku, where do you think Roxas would have gone? I don't know where he might be, his car needs gas you know?!" Sora screeched at his boyfriend.
"Calm down a bit, Sora. Roxas can't be far off, he might be walking, or on a bus or something. Maybe, dare I say, he took your car."
"If that little… I'm sorry… If Roxas took my car I'm going to be very pissed at him."
"I know… But it's okay. If he is in your car though, let's think of where he would go in the car."
"Riku, I just remembered that I drove my goddamned car here."
"Sorry, Sora. Uhm… Hey! Do you think he might have run off with Axel somewhere?"
"Oh my gosh! You're right! What if he did? Axel can't have taken him somewhere dangerous though. He's probably safe."
"Yeah… Axel would never want to hurt Roxas. He would hurt himself first."
"That's for certain."
"Come on, we should check Axel's house; just to be safe." Riku ended.
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Riku and Sora pulled up in the driveway. And they walked into Axel's house, using the spare key in his mailbox.
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Roxas felt like there was a presence other than Axel in his midst. And that they weren't good people walking in. So Roxas forced himself to wake up. Stirring awake from on top of the redhead.
Axel woke with a start coming from movement atop him. He opened his sleepy eyes and looked at Roxas, who was rubbing the sleepiness from his own eyes. The redhead also heard people chatting next to them. And immediately looked their way.
"Oh… hey Sora, hey Riku." Axel croaked.
"Hello, Axel. We just wanted to know if you had Roxas on your hands, I see that you do. So Riku and I will be leaving. Have fun, Roxas!"
Roxas wasn't even fully awake during this conversation. He was after the pair had left, though. And was smiling down at Axel while he was shaking off the last bit of sleepiness in him.
"Hi… love…" The blonde's words came out slurred because of the apparent sleepiness clouding his senses. And it was simply adorable.
"Hey, Roxas." Axel cooed, leaning up to whisper into Roxas' ear.
Roxas let out a sigh of approval. And Axel kissed the same ear softly. And Roxas leaned further against him. He sighed again, but this time not as innocently. The blonde's skin flushed at the contact, and a little more than a whisper of breath was pulled from his throat. And Axel's cheeks flushed as well at the noise. How could Roxas make such noises and make Axel feel the same kind of heat. Axel pulled away from Roxas' ear and moved down a bit, kissing softly at his neck. Roxas moaned this time, not too loud, but much too soft for that moment. Axel groaned and flushed deeper at the sound, the blonde wasn't even that awake yet and he was making Axel… to be blunt… horny. And he was still beautiful.
But they weren't going to have their first time tonight. Axel thought that it was too early for Roxas to give up something so important to him so soon. So the couple would wait. Axel didn't want to just take it, that wouldn't show his love enough. And that's all he wanted to give the blonde.
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The sun was finally gone outside and Roxas finally felt like no on was spying on him or Axel. Maybe as if the sun had eyes, and that's why it burned to look back. Roxas decided to show Axel some love.
Axel groaned as the blonde was kissing around his neck.
"Roxas… God, I love you…" was what the redhead uttered.
"Axel…?" Roxas asked, rubbing his head into the crook of Axel's neck.
"Yes, darling?"
"Can we go to bed? I'm sleepy…" the little kitten purred.
He smiled wide when Axel picked Roxas up and carried him away into Axel's bedroom. They were going to have a nice long sleep. As long as the blonde wanted.
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Roxas woke in Axel's arms. He stretched a little, and snuggled closer to the redhead. He had never felt the way he did that morning. Sweet as a candy treat. Nothing more spectacular than that. He then looked up at Axel, who looked more gorgeous than he normally did at that moment. His unbelievably green eyes were gently closed, not clenched shut. And his hair was a mess because he had slept and it was getting messy from the pillow. His face was utterly calm, and looked as if nothing could disturb his sleep. Roxas felt so funny on the inside, overrated love story? Totally. But did he love how it felt? You know he did. And it felt so wonderful to be with Axel. Like no one before.
Roxas got out of bed as quietly as he could. Axel had had a good grip on him so he had to cat out of it the best he could without disturbing the redhead. He wanted to make the older man breakfast for treating him so well last night. What should he cook for the man? Something simple, to make him happy. So the blonde decided upon waffles and toast. Yes, this would be the best morning ever for Axel. And Roxas was glad that he could be the cause for it. He got to work on the toast, popping it into the toaster and waiting, waiting, waiting, pop! It came up. And Roxas quickly buttered it and put it on a plate for his lover. And then, the trickier part came. How would Roxas make the waffles? He wasn't a genius and didn't know how to make waffles perfectly. Did Axel even have a waffle iron in his house? The blonde really hoped so, because it would really help right now.
So after looking through all of the redhead's cabinets and drawers, the blonde was stunned to find that there was no sign of a waffle iron anywhere in his kitchen. And decided that maybe he should eat something before he starts making his boyfriend something. So he sat down to some toast. It was pretty good; it had some butter on it and was warm and fresh tasting. Wait…
"Toast? Didn't I make Axel toast?"
Oh no, the blonde had eaten the redhead's food! What was he going to do? Wait… why panic when Axel's got a whole loaf of bread…
"Damn. Of course that was the last piece of bread he had!"
The blonde was losing it now. He walked into the living room to lie on the couch. He closed his eyes and tried to think about the situation at hand.
"I could go and buy more bread or something for Axel, maybe before he could wake up? Would that work out?"
But the blonde didn't feel like going to a grocery store at such an early hour of the morning. He felt tired and uncomfortable now that he wasn't in Axel's arms. And he also felt bad that he couldn't make a simple meal for the redhead. This morning just turned disastrous and it wasn't even seven yet.
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That's when Axel woke up. He felt the absence of something important, something warm. And whatever it was, he wanted it back right now. So he went into the kitchen to look, into the restroom to look, and into the guest room to look. And no one was there. But then he went into the living room and found a beautiful blonde lying on his couch. He wasn't sure if he was asleep, so he went over to the boy and saw those beautiful eyes were open, and looking at him directly.
"Good morning, Roxas."
"Good morning Axel." They smiled.
Then they kissed, it was a sweet quick one. But then they shared another, and another, and another until they turned into innocently sinful kisses. And then Axel stopped the kissing and asked;
"Hey, wanna get some breakfast?"
"Mmm… Okay…" Roxas said back as Axel nipped and licked gently at the boy's sensitive neck. And Roxas thought to himself,
"I was gonna make you something, but I guess that'll have to wait…"
"I love you." Axel smiled into the crook of Roxas' neck as he inhaled the boy's scent.
"I love you too Axel, so much…"
And they went off to go but some breakfast. So far, this morning turned out to be one of the best mornings of Axel's life, and he hoped it was for Roxas as well.
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But, somewhere else in the world, not too far from the couple, there were serious matters being discussed.
Demyx and Zexion were at Riku and Sora's house, discussing Axel and Roxas. They were all very happy for the both of them, but they were worried if their relationship would last.
"I think it will last for a lifetime, maybe even a little bit longer than that…" Zexion started.
"I agree with Zexion BUT I think you two should definitely leave those two alone… They are really tired of the both of you." Demyx stated.
"What? Why would you say that? What are we doing that's so wrong? We just want them both to be happy!" Sora shouted, already getting defensive.
Zexion's eyes widened, so did Riku's, but Demyx looked angry and decided to continue on.
"You're treating them like flowers, Sora. You're overwatering them, making them feel overwhelmed. And I really think we should let them grow their own petals and get out of that pot that you've put the both of them into."
"You really think that's it? I'm not doing anything at all to them; they simply come to me for assistance. And I never force them into anything! You are obviously imagining things, Demyx!"
"All I'm saying is that you control or try to control whoever you already don't have eating out of the palm of your hand, Sora!"
And with that, Demyx grabbed Zexion's hand and walked him out of the house gently. All the while leaving Sora to ponder if there was something wrong with him.
Riku just stared.
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"Demyx, what just happened?"
Zexion was scared, and Demyx was mad, but he also felt bad for scaring his lover like that.
"I'm not sure, Zexion. But I really do think that Sora is a sneakily controlling every one of us. And I think that sadly Axel and Roxas are the most unaware of this. And that's what makes me angry. You do know that they were kinda forced into their relationship, right? Sora made Roxas fall in love like that."
"So, do you think that Roxas and Axel would really be lovers, even without Sora's force?"
"I actually think so, because Axel was in love with Roxas even before Sora knew his game plan. But if Roxas finds out what Sora did, I honestly think he would hate Axel forever just because Sora made him love the poor guy."
"All I have to say is… poor Axel and poor Roxas… How long should this be our tragic little secret?"
"As long as it takes them to really fall in love." Demyx sighed…
"To be honest, I think we're way past that part…" And Zexion knew he was right.
"Yeah… I think I agree. They are both so close already. Maybe it was meant to be. And maybe Sora isn't as controlling as I thought…"
"No, he definitely is… but what I'm saying is that, Sora may have triggered this, but it doesn't mean he's the cause. Because I doubt Sora of all people can control hearts and love like that. He simply just doesn't understand that well."
"That's a genius statement, Zexy…" Demyx smiled and kissed his little lover and then got back into the car with Zexion and drove them far away from the enemy's house.
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Axel and Roxas parted ways that afternoon. Roxas had to go back home so he could work on the painting for his friend's wedding and Axel had to get to work on that poetry collection he had sworn upon.
So as Roxas returned home, Sora bombarded him with questions.
"Was it fun at Axel's?"
"Mmm."
"What'd you do with him?"
"Mmm."
"Are you mad at me or something?"
"Mmm."
"Fine. I'll leave you to yourself until you decide to act mature again."
And Roxas watched Sora walk away contently. Roxas could finally concentrate on this painting… how did they want it again? Oh yeah, the blonde had it on paper, so he could check it out. Now if only he knew where he had left it… Roxas found the paper and read it over.
Now… where to start?
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Axel was back at his house, alone. And he hated it. He didn't like being without Roxas since he had so much of him lately. He felt like he couldn't really write anything without his blonde there to help and support him. He felt like somewhere where silence is always lurking, it was laughing at him while running full-speed toward his house to come in and blow the fragile redhead away. With or without sanity was completely up to fate. And finally, Axel's loneliness and how he needed Roxas there with him triggered a poem.
"He's a lonely one
Nobody wanted him
And nobody cared.
But I did
And he was scared."
That one he wasn't sure of. It sounded love sick. But that's how he felt at the moment. So he wrote further.
"It was cloudy today.
I don't know why exactly
But I think it had something to do with the distant sound of…
Waves, the ones that I'm scared of because they look like they can eat away at even the greatest of swimmers.
Or, blossoming flowers, the kind that make the sky shimmer that faint pink at sunset. Before it all just becomes a dear memory.
Maybe even the sound of your whispers, riding the wind. You know, the ones I listen to whenever I can because your heart seems so far away and your voice sounds just like my heartbeat. And it's a really comforting sound.
I dunno, maybe it'll be cloudy again tomorrow."
"Whoa, where did that come from?" Axel asked himself. He didn't really know how to explain that one. All he knew is that it felt great to write it. And he wanted to do that again.
"Yesterday, I counted the number of times I thought of you.
And I didn't know they made numbers that big. And to tell you the truth, I also didn't know that I thought about you that much.
But it's probably because of the fact that you treasure each sunset the way I treasure your breathing technique. Slow, steady, goes with the sound of the wind. And every time you exhale, my own breath hitches. And my head spins twice as fast as a carousel. But I love, love, love that feeling. And my heart quivers when you look at me, those diamonds embedded into your head just shining while my dull jades look back in an intimidated way. But that's exactly what you are. Intimidating. You also remind me of my mother, the way you cradle me when I need it but not in a childish way. And how you whisper your words that I don't listen to in my ear, but I just like the way tickles; tickles all the way down to my ankles, and then that feeling drips into the awaiting ground.
But, that isn't anything special. It just is to me."
He started a third one… What was wrong with him? And why did this feel so calming?
"I really like your smile. And I know that sounds juvenile, but it makes me feel like there isn't anything to worry about. But really, (they think I don't know, but I really do), everything is wrong and nobody can fix it. But you smile anyway. Knowing everything might not be the same tomorrow, knowing that everything you love might be gone the next day. But not me. I'll always be waiting for you at your doorstep, at the foot of your bed, wherever you want me to wait. Even if you never wake up, I'll follow the fairytale and kiss you awake. And if that doesn't work, I'll just sleep with you. In a dark twisted eternity. That doesn't really sound as comforting as it used to.
And you may not know it, but I'll always be thinking about the sounds I hear. Maybe they're all imaginary. But maybe some are real. I'll never know, but I'll always listen. So sweet dreams, perfect. I'll join you soon.
"I want to write… no, I need to write one more…" Axel muttered to himself.
I'm someone when I'm with you. Just not someone I'm familiar with. And that's really strange because I feel so real when I'm around you but that nostalgic feeling of being trapped is just barely beneath my skin and it makes my insides work a little faster than they should. But, then again, maybe that's just the feeling of nervousness.
And it's funny because I'm like all because of you. But not in a bad way or anything. I really like you a lot. And I wish I could write like I talk because if I did, you'd love me like I love you and we'd be together to listen to the soundtrack of the strange world. It'll never be quiet again. And I'll be alright with it, will you?
Because if won't be then I'll take us somewhere where we can listen to a different sound. The sounds that break all the silence the ones that are always there but never paid any attention to. Like the buzzing of electric items, or the sound of our hearts combining to make a heartbeat. And I'll be by your side forever to make that noise with you.
And with that, Axel put his pen down. He stood, and he walked over to the phone. He needed to call someone.
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Roxas was painting carefully and diligently; the way he always did. He was perfectly concentrated on adding the little wings with superior detail to the angles on the canvas so far. And he was about to add the word "love" to the middle of the angel circle… and he had to do it carefully and without interruption. One little mistake, and the blonde would ruin it all and have to start over again…
And then the phone rang.
Roxas jumped, spilled paint all over the entire thing, screamed in frustration and slight fright. Then the blonde regained himself and went over to pick up the little monster.
"Hello?"
"Roxas!" Axel was on the other line and he sounded abnormally happy. Well, for Axel anyways.
"Axel?"
"Yeah, it's me. Sorry, are you busy?"
"Well, a little, still trying to paint." Roxas looked over at the disastrous canvas. "Do you wanna come over here to write?"
"Sure, baby. I'll be over in a second."
"Alright, see you soon!" Roxas was already making move to dispose of the ruined thing.
And they hung up.
And so did Sora from the guest room phone.
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So sorry this sucked the first time (if any of you GOT to read it the first time…) but I really hope you like this better… (Even though I think it still sucks…)
Hmm… what is Sora doing?