The suns been up over the edge of the valley below for about an hour and the rest of the flock is still asleep. I haven't exactly slept through a full night for a month. On top of that none of the flock are particularly happy with me since I made them leave Ella's and Dr. Martinez's but I figured it was for the best. And since I am technically leader now they had to listen to me.

I know I should be going a little easy on them since losing Max but surprisingly after the first two weeks they got this idea in their head that she's still alive. Every time they bring it up I get so tense and start screaming that she's gone and she's never coming back, yet I still cant help but hope that their right. How stupid is that? Getting my hopes up on what a couple little bird kids say is a "gut feeling".

The only one I really believe is Angel. She says she can sometimes hear Max's voice in her head but I'm still not sure. Angel is only 6, this could be the way for her to deal with it. Either way I'm keeping my eyes open for any sign of her, cause if there's even the slightest clue to where Max may or may not be, we're going to check it out.

I was about to close my eyes and try to drift back into an uneasy sleep when Nudge opened her big mouth.

"Fang?"

"Mmm?"

"I think your lacking at being leader I mean I'm starving and Gazzy hasn't, well you know, for awhile since we haven't ATE for a couple days."

I brought my head up and returned her stare. I wasn't about to go break in every restaurant, store, or house in sight so Gazzy could stink us out of where ever it is we were. But Nudge did have a point, I haven't got them food for like 3 days now. I suck at this leader crap.

"Fine, what do you guys want?"

"Uhh, can we get taco bell?" Gazzy had rolled over onto his stomach and was chucking pebbles at Iggy from across the cave.

"That depends.. Are you gunna order something with beans?" Iggy asked as he ran his hand over the ground looking for the rock that hit him on the leg.

"Can we get Subway?" Angle asked from the other side of me.

"Sure Ang we can get subway, at least that's semi healthy." I said as I pushed myself up from the dirty ground and grabbing my backpack looking for the sack of money Dr. Martinez gave us.

We took off about ten minutes later, we fly a lot faster without Total, and even though I do kinda miss his yappy mouth that fills in awkward silence, I'm glad we can just fly without making pit stops. It was kinda ironic that once Total gets his wings we decided to leave him with Ella. Again, another "leader" decision that the flock was NOT happy about, but Ella needed someone to keep her company while were gone. I'm not sure if were ever even going back but I hope that someday we will.

We got finished eating and were just wandering around the shopping center when I spotted a Starbucks. I hadn't checked my blog for awhile since I kind of confessed my love for Max in the last post and you know her… absence. So, I'm not sure what kind of comments I'm going to be getting. But I decided to let the flock go mess around in the Game Stop next door while I booted up my laptop.

I replied to about the first 100 replies when I just couldn't take anymore. I scrolled down the page to see how many more I left unanswered when one caught my eye.

10:14 PM THURSDAYPOSTED: ANONYMOUS -

FANG THIS IS URGENT!

I don't have much time but Fang, I'm here and alive. I need you to take care of the Flock. I'm not sure if I'm ever going to see you again so I want you to know that I do love you and I don't care how many billion people see this. I LOVE YOU AND THE FLOCK.

"ANGEL, IGGY, NUDGE, GAZZY!!! GET IN HERE NOW !"