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Alice POV

I had never heard my husband scream before. He had never even raised his voice at me. The only time I heard him yell, was when he yelled my name in fear. Fear he'd lose me. He tried always to be so strong, whether things bothered him or not. So to see this vision of Jasper being held on a bed, screaming in pain was a shock. I couldn't focus. It replayed over and over again in my head. When I finally went back to reality, Carlisle was shaking my shoulders, with panic in his eyes.

"Alice. Please. What did you see?"

I turned to Edward, and saw the pain he held in his eyes, the fear. He was shaking. Bella was trying to comfort him, but he held my gaze.

"She has Jasper. Maria has Jasper." I screamed, clawing my fingers through my hair. Everyone tensed. They didn't know much about Maria. Jasper never spoke of his past life. But over time they have collected tiny pieces they could put together. Only Edward really knew what it meant.

"She's torturing him. He was screaming in pain." I whispered.
"How did this happen?" Carlisle asked, trying to mask the panic in his voice. He failed.
"I sent him to go hunting alone. I didn't look ahead. I was thinking of fucking dresses. DRESSES. And now my husband is gone" I screamed.

Edward flinched, and made his way to me, pushing Carlisle gently to the side.

"I asked him if he wanted company. He seemed… distracted today." He said softly, holding back information.
"I went outside to wait for him but when I caught the scent of the newborns it was too late" Guilt was driving his voice. My body shook in dry sobs.

Then I saw another vision. Jasper was in front of a mirror. His body covered in fresh wounds, his eyes darkened and he said only one word.
"Monster."

I screamed out in panic. Edward growled deeply, and threw a chair across the room. Everyone tensed, as Edward spoke of what I had seen.

"Alice. Where did they take him?" Carlisle asked.
"I can't tell. They ran far. He's in a big room. I can't see anything." I choked out.
"Then we'll start tracking. Bella, you stay here with Esme and Rosalie. We're leaving this house in thirty seconds. "

We ran for hours. But we couldn't get a scent. We couldn't find him.

Jasper POV

The pain was intense. I had not felt pain in over 50 years, and this hit me hard. It took me an hour to be able to move again, and without feeding the pain would not subside less than this. I sat up on the pink lacy bed, breathing hard. I was alone again. Listening for sounds, I heard the gentle conversations of newborns. I wasn't alone. I was just caged. I closed my eyes and ran a hand down my chest, evaluating the damage. Almost all the wounds were still open. The most painful was the first inflicted wound, on my collar bone. But my body was covered in bites. My arms, back, torso, stomach, and hips. I opened my eyes, and made my way to a long mirror that hung on her childish walls. I looked like a monster. Almost every inch was covered. I felt disgust fill me, but it was my own disgust. Alice wouldn't want me now. Alice didn't deserve a used piece of garbage.

"Monster." I spoke at the reflection. I heard footsteps coming, and immediately crouched. All human formalities within me were gone. Maria opened the door, and her eyes scanned the room until she found me. She was pleased with my position.

"Ah. There you are, Major." Her voice rang, and pride surged from her. I growled. Her pride went immediately to anger.

"That is no way to treat a lady Major." She hissed, and her eyes traveled down my ruined body.

"What do you want with me Maria?" I asked.

My voice wasn't soft anymore. It wasn't the voice I talked to Alice with. It was rough, and defensive. She walked towards me, and I stood upright. She stopped in front of me and I lowered my eyes

"With you I want nothing. I just want you." She said softly, and I was hit with feelings of loneliness, and desire. Repulsed, I looked up to her, barring my teeth.
"You have me." I growled out angrily, and she laughed. My hands made fists, but she looked at them as no threat. She knew how weak I was at the moment.
"I have your body. I want you. Not this gold eyed fairy boy. I want my Major back."

She then turned around, and went to the door.
"This is why I have brought you a gift." She said, her voice mocking a joyful tone. The door slammed open, and they threw a tied young human girl onto the bed. My eyes grew in panic, and I moved my back to the farthest wall from her. Maria just laughed, a horrible disgusting laugh.

"She's all yours. I picked her myself. She's a southern girl." Pride flowed with her words.

"You can decide. Sit here in pain until your starvation makes you kill her, or kill her now and take your side next to me." She explained lazily. I shut my eyes. I heard her footsteps approach, and her small hands rested on my shoulders. She slammed me back against the wall roughly, and I opened my eyes to see her teeth bared.

"You will drink human blood tonight. And if you change her, it'll just be another newborn you'll have to worry about killing when she gets too old. " Her lips grazed my cheeks gently, and she fingered my jaw line for a moment before pushing me back against the wall. She left the room, and locked the door.

I walked to the human, who was luckily unconscious. I frowned, and untied her quickly, her scent calling to me. My bites burned with every slight movement, reminding me of what her blood could do for me. I then returned to the far corner of the room, and sat down.

I went over my options
I was too weak to fight them off, and too weak to receive more punishments. Maria wouldn't kill me, at least not now, so trying wouldn't work. Turning the girl into a vampire would only increase her life by a year or two, depending on when her strength went away.

I tried to keep my mind thinking like that. I tried to keep thinking words, but I couldn't. I didn't want to live this way. Not without Alice. Without her I was nothing. But another voice was yelling at me. And it wasn't in my head. Shit.

"Please. Just tell me where we are." She begged me, and I frowned. She looked to only be in her early teens, and her southern drawl masked her words.
"I'm sorry. I don't know where we are" I whispered, voice hoarse. She was crying, hard. She walked over to me, and I stiffened.
"I don't know what I did to deserve this. God. Please. Let me go." She yelled, in hysterics.
"Relax. Please." I asked, as I felt her fear, anguish, regret and confusion hit me. I sent her calm.

She quieted down and sat down next to me, trying to scoot close, but I moved farther and turned my head away. She looked me up and down, and my lack of a shirt exposed all. She must have seen the open wounds, because she gasped. I was thankful she couldn't see the scars, or I would have frightened her even more.

"Are they going to torture me too?"she wailed, and buried her head in her hands.
"No. I won't let them." I replied, my voice dead of emotion.
"I don't want to die." She sobbed, and I turned to her.

She was extremely frightened, her small frame shaking. I looked at her with pity, but hunger and self preservation were taking over. I refocused. It was unfair to take the life of this child. It was wrong for her to have to know death is coming. She had so much life to live, so much time left. I frowned. No one should know when they are going to die.

"What's your name." I asked her gently, putting my hand on her shoulder. She leaned into me, without fear. My hunger flared.
"I'm Katie." She said, and scooted closer. She was a child. I pulled her into my arms, and sent her wave after wave of calm.
I held her like that for an hour, like a father holds a crying child. She turned to me eventually , and looked me in the eyes.
"God must have sent you to be my guardian angel. But why are your eyes so sad?" she asked. I pulled her up into a proper hug.
"God didn't send me." I said sadly. She didn't know what was coming. She leaned into me, resting her head on my shoulder.
"But why are you eyes so sad?" she asked again. I sent her as much calm as I could muster up.
"I'm so sorry Katie." My teeth clamped down onto her neck, and I sucked hard.

She was distracted when I did it, and I thought I had calmed her enough so she wouldn't be afraid. But I was wrong. She struggled, fear filling her body, as well as shock and betrayal. She struggled until the moment her heart stopped, and I dropped her body from me with a sob. My hands covered my face, and I growled a horrifying growl, projecting myself hatred to everyone around me. I was a monster. I wiped her blood from my mouth, with a shaking hand. Maria burst through the door, a happy smile on her face when she saw the blood on me, and the girl on the ground.
"Well well well. I'm glad to see you've changed ways."
I turned to her, conveying my rage. She flinched.
"I'm going to rip out your fucking throat." I growled, and launched towards her. She hissed, and I managed to scratch her face before being slammed down by a newborn. The surprise that I had managed to touch her was apparent on her face. I was pinned to the ground by four newborns, as she walked over to me.

"Why can't you accept this. You are mine now. I will never let you go." She yelled. I went still.
"Just kill me. Please." I whispered.

She laughed, and the newborns let me go. She pulled me up, and walked me to the mirror on the wall. My chest was covered in scars, so many it was revolting. My eyes were now red, with only a ring of golden around the iris to show I had been decent at all.

"I won't kill you, Major. You're were mine when I first layed eyes on you. And this fake Jasper you were before is melting away, and you can never go back." She said, with a huge grin on her face. She turned to me, and cupped my face with her hands. I closed my eyes
"Do you think she'd still want you with those scars? Do you think she'd want a man who killed. She was always too good for you. You belong here. You belong to me."

Alice.

I felt dead on the inside. She was right. I had just killed a child. My body was a disgusting leftover. Alice deserved better. I embraced the sting of my scars, and opened my lifeless eyes. Maria smiled.
"There you are major. I missed you."