CHAPTER 3

"It's just..." Callie sat up and faced Addison. "It's just ok. See here's the deal. I love you." Callie placed her hands on top of Addie's. "I love you so much, and I want to be with you but there is this little nagging voice in the back of my head that's saying once a cheater always a cheater." Addison interjected.

"Callie no---"

"Wait, just listen for a sec... I've been cheated on before and that was the worst I have ever felt about myself. I said I would never get into that situation again."

"I'm sorry I have to stop you." Addison interrupted. "I know what you're going to say. I'm not that kind of person. There is nothing in this world that would have me disrespect you like that... Nothing." Callie looked down at the bed. Addison asked her what she was thinking.

"I was just... thinking about what Derek said."

"Callie... Don't, please don't listen to him. He just doesn't want me to be happy."

"But I can't help but to feel that he's probably right."

"No.. why would he be right?"

"He said you cheated because he wasn't there... What if I'm not there for you? What happens that one day, that I can't be there? I've been thinking about this all day." Addison took a deep sigh. She did not know what to say. But she did not want to argue with Callie.

"Callie, look. I was not happy in my marriage. That's why I became lonely. I wasn't happy. I'm happy with you, you make me happy. The day we're not with each other, I'll still be happy." Callie stood up and grabbed her scrub top. She put the top on and grabbed her coat. Addison had a confused look on her face and scooted to the end of the bed. She questioned Callie.

"Where are you going?"

"We ran out of time. I've gotta go back now. I'll see you later though, right?" She walked up to Addison and kissed her on the cheek. Addison replied, "Yeah." She looked up at Callie, and Callie walked out of the room. Addison knew telling Callie the truth was the right thing to do, but at that point she wish she hadn't. She got up and put back on her shirt, then lab coat. She fixed her hair then walked out of the room.

Click, clack, click, clack, was all that could be heard as Addison walked down the hall. As she was walking she looked into a patients room that she passed and saw Derek. She stepped in and asked to speak with him. "Derek, I need to talk to you." Derek knodded and excused himself from the room. Addison walked over to a small stock room as Derek followed.

"You're still going to talk to my patient right?" Addison walked into the stock room and turned around, Derek still following.

"Derek, what the hell do you think you're doing?"

"Trying to help my patient?" Derek replied. Addison's voice began to change.

"No, Callie. What you told her yesterday? Ring a bell!?" She said enraged. Derek chuckled. "What's so funny?"

"Nothing, it's just. I'm very interested as to what this is."

"Whatever it is, it's none of your business. Do not tell her anything that has happened between us in the past."

"I thought I was helping."

"No, no you didn't. You were doing what you always do and thinking of only yourself and what will benefit you. I know what I did was terrible, but we're not together, we're barely friends. Don't act like you care when you don't give a damn, and stay out of my personal life." Addison looked Derek directly into his eyes, piercing through.

"Fair enough... My patient is waiting." Derek turned, opened the door and walked out.

Addison collected her composure and walked out of the room. She headed to the bathroom, feeling the tears forming. As she was walking down the hall Callie spotted her. She noticed she looked distraught and hoped it was not because of her. She handed the nurse her patients chart and told her she would be right back. She followed Addison and saw her go into the bathroom. She walked briskly towards it, and walked in.

Addison weeping "Addison?" Callie walked to the end of the stalls, and tapped on the door. Addison took a huge sniff and grabbed the toilet paper to wipe her eyes. Callie asked again. "Addison, what's wrong?" Addison unlocked the door and let Callie in. Callie walked in shut the stall door and squated in front of Addison, who was sitting on the toilet. She asked her again. "Babe, what's wrong, why are you crying?"

Sniffs "Nothing... well not nothing. It's just... I never thought I would be that person."

"What person?"

"The dirty cheater woman person." Callie placed her hands on the sides of Addison's legs.

"Addie, you're not a cheater. This is all my fault, I'm sorry. I just got scared. I know you would never cheat on me, I just let Derek get in my head... I know you would never hurt me." Addison wipped her nose and looked Callie in the eyes.

"I wouldn't."

"I know. Now come on, you're sitting on a toilet and we have nooo idea who else has been sitting on it." Addison laughed and wipped her nose. She stood up and she and Callie embraced. Callie kissed Addison on the cheek and moved a piece of hair out of her face. Addison whose arms were around Callie's waist, squeezed Callie and placed her head on her shoulder.

"I really don't want to be that person."

"You're not. You won't. I'm in this for the long haul."

"Long haul?" Addison questioned.

"Yes, long haul. You're my one, and I only want you." Callie pressed her lips against Addison, placing her hands on her face. "We better get out of here before we get caught." Callie unlocked the door and they both walked out of the stall. Addison walked up to the mirror to fix her makeup, Callie right behind her. Callie stood next to her rubbing her back and watching as she fixed her makeup. She decided to apologize for earlier. "I'm sorry about earlier."

Addison sniffed, "It's ok... I guess I still love you." The two chuckled, and Callie grabbed Addison by the waist. She leaned in to her ear and was about to whisper when the bathroom door flew open. Addison and Callie quickly bounced away from each other. It was Meredith.