Chapter Four

"Bella! What are you doing?!" Rosalie shrieks. "I worked so hard on that engine!" I ignore her and hit the windshield one more time and then focus my anger and aggression on his side windows. I add some dents in his doors and finally toss the bat to the side.

I try to steady my breathing by taking a few deep breaths. "Wow! I am so glad that I got that on video!" Emmett yells jumping up and down while looking through a camera recorder. "Eddie is going to be so pissed! This is so great!"

I fall to my knees and cry. I thought there would be no more tears left to spare but there is. I cradle my head in my hands and wonder how could he do this to me. How could they do this to us?

Just then Edward and Alice appear out of the trees and Edward looks so pissed off. He truly looks like a vampire. "Who did this to my car?" he screeches with as much venom as he can muster.

I stand up and walk over to him. "Edward, if you really loved me, you wouldn't be worried about your car right now". Tears pouring out of my eyes, he pretends to care. He pretends because that's what he is good at, because it is a part of the show.

"Bella, of course I am worried, I just—my car, Bella!" he yells in frustration. Pinching the bridge of his nose, he looks past me at the rest of his family, "Who did this?! Answer me!"

"I did." I say softly. He looks down at me with a bewildered expression. I look to Alice and give her a small smug smile. "I ruined your clothes too, Alice." She glares at me but then it is gone with a flash. She can't be mad at me. She is doing far worse behind my back.

"Are you drunk, Bella?" Edward asks.

"Maybe a little" I shrug. "But you still had it coming. Since I cant set you on fire or beat the crap out of you because I would injure myself, I had to resort to personal belongings."

I walk over to Alice who has her arm around Jasper's waist. "About two weeks ago after you and Edward went hunting we all had a talk because we are all worried about you two. Do you remember, Alice?" She nods. "Good, and do you remember when you left you looked at me?" She nods again. "I thought you were so upset because I was leaving and we couldn't spend time together. I thought you knew something that I didn't know. Well you do know something that I didn't know...until now that is."

I walk back over to Edward and let the rest of my traitor tears fall. "And do you remember Edward when you brought me back to my house that night? You told me how you loved to go hunting. You loved the rush and that there was nothing like it. You say hunting is such a beautiful experience. You said it makes you free but why? Why do you have to feel free when you're away? You say that there is nothing holding you back so what is here that is holding you back?"

He simply stares at me with no expression. He looks at me with a blank expression; a numbing essence about him. Good, now you know how I feel.

"I knew Edward that as soon as you started talking about it, that we were not talking about hunting anymore. You were referring to something that was completely out of my reach. I was always good at reading cryptic messages, but this took a bit longer didn't it Edward? I was so blind. We all were. I am not the stupid little human you think I am. I will not have you do this to me."

I walk back over to the porch and pick up Edwards Journal and as I look back at him, he looks like a deer caught in headlights.

"Bella—"he chokes on his words and puts his face in his hands.

"Oh, you will get no sympathy from me Edward. Nope, you will get none at all."

I turn around to look everyone in the eye and push Alice away from Jasper.

"You do not deserve him." I growl at her. If she could cry, im sure she would.

"I am so sorry, Jasper." I whisper.

"Bella, I do not—"

I cut him off and open the book to where I left off and I begin to read aloud as silent tears continue to run down.

Journal, july 7th 2009

I know I haven't wrote in a while but things have been a little hectic lately, but you must always take the bad when you take the good. I have been doing guilty things but I do not feel sorry. The past few months are the most glorious I have ever spent in my life. I am in love. I never thought in my human life or this existence that I could ever feel this good.

I know that cheating on a loved one is not right but they way she makes me feel is indescribable. Her soft skin that tastes like heaven--- I know that Bella could never compare. We don't know how to leave our significant others. We don't know how to leave. It is more than an affair because I truly believe she is my soul mate. I don't know how we never noticed before.

It started one night while hunting with Alice and we were talking and she was telling me she has visions of things resulting in fighting because of Bella's and mines Sexual frustration mixed together so we talk about different techniques and that eventually got us worked us up. Next thing I know my Sweet Ali was on top of me and---"

"Stop!" Jasper roared. He storms over to where Alice is standing. "Is it true! Please tell me it isn't Alice!"

"Im sorry" she whispers.

Jasper than looks to Edward and Edward looks away and looks to me, "I am so sorry Bella" he says but I have no remorse for a man who just killed me.