Chapter 9

School became a blur; everyone confronted me on the situation between Jasper and I. They asked where and Alice and Edward went to. They wanted to know what happened between the four of us. I had explained that I was single and that Edward and Alice were visiting in Alaska. They were all waiting for me to break down but I knew I was okay.

Mike took this as the perfect opportunity to ask me out. I was sick of letting him down easy and always playing nice. I finally let him know that I will never be interested. Jessica perked up at that knowledge while Mike scowled at me.

Lauren made comments how Edward left me because I wasn't worthy. That may be true but I am not going to complain when I have Jasper by my side. She wants the satisfaction that I will never bring her because she wants to see me in pain. She will be waiting for a long time. I simply told her along with everyone else that it was a mutual decision and left it at that.

As I sat down at the Cullen table in the cafeteria Rsalie asked me if it was true.

"Is what true?" I'm confused.

"That you still want to be like us."

"Yeah, of course I do." I look over at Jasper and he smiles at me. I guess I am not the only one excited. When I would take about me being changed in front of Edward, he would throw a fit.

"Do you really still want this?" she asks me. Is she pleading with me to say no with her eyes? I won't back down. I know want I want.

"I know what I want, Rosalie."

"Yeah!" Emmett said excitedly. "It would be awesome to have you like us!"

"...And awesome not to have to worry about snapping at you anymore" Rosalie jokes. Ha.

It's funny. Last week she hated me and now...Now, I'm so sure she will be the best sister anyone could ever ask for.

"Do you guys talk to Edward and Alice?" Jasper asks breaking me out of my thoughts.

"No" Emmett lightly growls. "But Esme does. They still are her children after all."

Rosalie rolls her eyes and scoffs. "Please, they are whores."

We all nod in agreement.

"Emmett is going to send Edward the video tape of you smashing his Volvo." Jasper laughs.

"Oh yeah!" Emmett perks up at that. "I made about twelve copies, Bella!"

"Yeah? Make sure to give me one. Stupid bastard." I say.

"Of course! Eddie whined like a little baby that do. You did do a good job, Bells."

"Yeah, well... as much as I love to see Edward and Alice in pain right now, I really did work hard on that stupid car. All that work went to waste..." Rose pouts and picks at a piece of tomato on her plate.

"Aw, Rosie, it will be okay. I'll buy you a brand new car you can tinker with all you want. You can tear it apart and put it back together and anything else you want." Emmett coos. Gag me with a spoon.

She kisses him so passionately that I think I will vomit if I look anymore. I look to Jasper and smile at him. One day that will be us. I just know it.

After school, we head over to The Cullen house and Carlisle and Esme are both home.

"I called Carlisle at work" Jasper tells me answering my unanswered question.

"Hello" Esme smiles at us as we walk in the door and take a seat around the living room. "What is so urgent? You all had me very worried." She places her hand over her non beating heart and sits down on the sofa alongside Carlisle.

"Nothing to worry about Esme, we just wanted to talk to Carlisle and you about something" I say. I take a seat next to Jasper on the love seat.

"So what is going on?" Carlisle asks us.

"Well, I don't know any other way other than to just spit it out." Jasper starts, "But Bella would like to be changed still."

Silence.

"Dear, do you know what you are asking? This is a very big deal." Esme tells me. The concern is apparent in her eyes, but I know. I always have.

"Yes, I do. I know I will miss Charlie but he will be fine. I know Edward and I are no longer together but I feel as though this will... complete me? I don't know how to explain it."

"Bella, this is a very big decision."

"I know, Carlisle." My eyes never leaving his.

He takes an unnecessary breath and rubs his hands over his face. He drops his hands and then looks at me.

"There is no going back, Bella. Once this is done, there is no way to undo it."

"I know."

He takes a minute to collect his thoughts and then walks over to me and pats my shoulder gently. "When would you like to do this Bella?" he asks me.

"Yes!" Emmett booms and jumps off the couch. I laugh and get up to hug Carlisle.

I am finally going to be apart of this family. I finally get to be a Cullen!

It is decided that my change will next week. Rosalie will take my car and drive it into a ditch and then set fire to it. Simple, right? The police will find my truck and assume my body burned along with the contents inside.