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Song - Your Protector – Fleet Foxes
"Away
from here!" I shouted my voice raising through a few octaves. I
sounded hysterical. Maybe I needed professional help. I had always
been one to bottle emotions up. Esme's kind, caring face was
looking at me sympathetically. I hated people feeling sorry for
me.
"Bella, why do you want to leave?"
I couldn't hold it
in anymore. I couldn't lock everything in. I needed to let it all
out.
"I don't belong here! You lot are all here, you belong!
You love each other! You're family! I'm not. I don't belong
here. I don't belong anywhere. Nobody wants me, even my mother! It
would be so much better if I disappeared! Nobody needs me taking up
space anymore. I'm just something no one can get rid of, something
no one wants!" At this point I was shaking so hard, my knees
buckled under me and i collapsed to the floor. Esme knelt next to
me.
"You do belong. You belong anywhere you want to. We don't
want to get rid of you Bella! You are welcome here always. And you
know your here until your Mum is ready for you. Of course she wants
you!" She pulled me into a tight, comforting hug.
At this point
Edward came speeding through the door, a blur in the corner of my
vision. His friendly liquid golden eyes looked at his family and
finally settled on me. His face suddenly hardened, his magnificent
butterscotch eyes solidified. Everyone's breath stopped. Apart from
mine. His eyes bore into mine. My heart raced ahead. He glared. I
cowered into Esme's cold grasp.
Carlisle gave a cough, the
'ahem' kind that usually interrupted something. Edward slowly
began to move towards the stairs. His gaze lingered on me for half a
second longer before he climbed the stairs rather quickly. Like they
usually do. It began to frustrate me, not knowing what was going on.
At first it was just confusion. I came out of my puzzling trance in
time to see Emmett get up and thud loudly up the stairs after his
brother. I sighed.
"Ignore him, it's complicated." Esme
whispered in my ear. I sighed.
"Everything is complicated." I
closed my eyes and took a breath. When I opened them I realised
everyone was staring at me. My eyes widened as I took in all the
golden eyes. I began to panic. I didn't want to be here, with them
all staring me. I really was more of a sufferer in silence. I began
to scramble around trying to get up off the floor. Esme released her
grip from around me and hauled me to my feet.
"Why don't you
go back upstairs Bella? Unpack and clean yourself up. Then maybe you
and Alice could go out somewhere?" She said hopefully. Alice's
worried expression immediately got happier until her mouth was spread
out into a wide grin.
She danced over to me and grabbed my hand.
Just like Esme, her hand was unnaturally cold.
"Yay Bella! Come
on, let's go shopping! We can buy loads of new outfits! It will be
so much fun!" she said gleefully. She dropped my hand and clapped
hers whilst jumping up and down. She grabbed my hand again and pulled
me upstairs. I pulled the corners of my mouth up to what I hoped was
an enthusiastic smile.
"Jasper!" Alice cried. "Go clear out
some clothes I've already worn!" Jasper smiled at her, his
expression full of love.
"Not more clothes!" He rolled his
eyes playfully.
Alice grinned at him and then hauled me up the stairs.
- Later -
I will never go shopping with Alice again. Never. Ever. It was torture. She dragged me around tonnes of shops, making me try on near everything. She bought so much, all with the same golden credit card. Even my stuff. Were they made of money?! I came home with about 10 new outfits. I even actually felt sorry for Alice. Even though she had put me through a lot today. She had nearly triple what I had! But I had more important things to think about. I needed to think about all I had found out about this mysterious family today. I went to my room and touched the laptop for the first time since Emmett and Alice brought it to me. I needed to find out what was going on. I opened Google and typed in "golden eyes, cold-skinned, pale". It was all useless things. I didn't care if some supermodel from the 50's was pale! I scanned the page, looking for anything that might be helpful. There was nothing at all of use. I turned the laptop off and got into bed instead.
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I was running through a forest. I was panting hard, how long had I been running? A while. I wiped my hand across my sweaty forehead. I still heard the footsteps calmly following. I forced myself forward faster and faster. The footsteps came faster and faster. The forest got darker and darker. Panic was building up inside me; I didn't have any idea where I was heading, what I was doing. I could feel the adrenaline pulsing through my veins. A branch sticking up from the ground, in my path, and typically me, I fell. I lay there shocked. I don't know why I was shocked, with my luck it was hardly surprising that as I was running for my life I trip and fall over an extremely visible object. A scream built up inside me before I could stop it. I opened my mouth, sucked in a breath, and screamed. Before half a second had past, a freezing cold hand slapped down over my mouth. I heard the crack of my jaw. Fear was plain on my face, as the red-eyed, bronze haired beautiful monster glared at me. A crooked smile spread across his face. My heart raced, but not from fear. How could I object, being killed by him. My last moments with him, the end of my life spent with the most beautiful creature in the whole world. All I could see was him. He was what mattered now. I didn't care anymore. His lips came down to meet my neck. I smiled, as his lips caressed my neck, before with teeth broke my smooth, ivory skin and began to drink.
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I woke up with a gasp. Sweat was dripping down my forehead and my heart was going faster than ever as the dream sunk in. My heart seemed to be going faster nowadays than it went normal speed. I opened the laptop once again and re-opened Google. For the first time I wondered how my subconscious mind had come to this strange, impossible conclusion. I puzzled over this for a minute. Then I sighed and typed "vampires" into Google.
