Ugh, sorry about the wait. I've really been trying to update once a week, but I really have to be in the mood to write and sometimes, it just doesn't happen. If I got over a week and a half, feel free to PM me and yell at me. Seriously.

This chapter is unbeta'd because I was getting antsy to update (rofl I am the worst person ever. I am sorry Geenah). I checked it like 12 times, so if there are any mistakes, I am so sorry.

There is a A/N at the bottom about the story, and the plot and stuff, so check it out. I'm shutting up now.

When we walked into the house, I was quickly abducted by Alice and dragged toward the kitchen. I shot Edward a look of distress, but he just grinned and shrugged his shoulders at me. Traitor.

Once I was in the kitchen, Alice took a bag of popcorn off the counter and tossed it in the microwave.

"Well, aren't you making yourself at home in Edward's parents house?" I was smirking at her and leaning against one of the counters.

She just shrugged and smiled. "Esme is very welcoming. She told me I could do whatever I wanted in here." She looked wistfully around the kitchen. Alice loved kitchens. Her eyes snapped to me. "Enough about me. What were you and Edward doing down in his secluded cottage?" She raised her eyebrows suggestively.

I tried to remain nonchalant. "We talked about a lot of things." Which wasn't a lie, we had talked, at first.

"Oh yeah? What exactly were you talking about?"

I shot her a disapproving look. "Things that are personal, and aren't really any of your business. All you need to know is that we talked, and then he asked me to be his girlfriend."

Her face lit up and she hugged me. "It's about time! The two of you act like a couple already; I was beginning to wonder what he was waiting for."

"We've really only been dating a week, it seems like so much longer than that though."

"The two of you are very adorable. He seems quite fond of you." She smiled softly at me. "He's going to be good to you, I can see it. I've never seen someone look at another person the way that he looks at you."

I lowered my head and flushed a little.

"I really like him, too. He makes me feel better about myself. I don't feel so worthless with him. I've been in such a mood since I got here, because of school and everything, and he makes me not worry about those things. He makes me happy. I feel like he understands where I'm coming from."

Alice smiled and was going to say something more when the microwave beep at the same time that I heard Emmett hollering that the movie was about to start. Alice and I hurried and entered the living room just in time.

The Cullen's living room was very spacious with a large flat screen TV on the wall. There were several sofas, each couple was occupying one. Emmett and Rosalie were curled up on the right side of the living room on a fluffy white couch. Jasper was waiting for Alice on a loveseat that was positioned right in front of the TV and Edward was sprawled over the couch all the way to the left. He saw me and grinned, sitting up and stretching his legs out for me to sit between them.

I crawled onto the couch and snuggled into his chest as he wrapped his arms around me. I was instantly reminded of the night last weekend, when Edward and I were in a similar position on the couch in his cottage. As shiver ran through my body.

"Are you cold?" He whispered to me as he tugged an afghan off the back of the couch. He draped it over us and I turned on my side a little more. I couldn't really see the movie, but I didn't care. I pressed my face into his neck, and his hands started to slide over my body. One hand slid up and down my back while the other rested on the bare skin of my thigh, squeezing before his fingers just danced over my whole leg.

"Hands where I can see them, Edward." Emmett's voice sounded amused and teasing. Edward just groaned and moved his arms to the outside of the blanket. He wrapped them around me and lost all pretenses and just pulled my body completely to his. My legs slipped to either side of him and I was almost straddling him, with my legs stretched along his. I shifted to get comfortable and just closed my eyes. I was very warm now and quite content.

He chuckled softly in my ear. "You aren't watching the movie."

"I don't really care about the movie." He chuckled more and tilted my head up. He kissed me softly before he rested his cheek on my head. I sighed and rested my head into his neck once more.

They watched the movie in silence for while before Edward's hands began to roam again. This time, I shifted to his side so that my back was against the back of the couch and I tugged him with me. I glanced over his shoulder to check on the others. Rosalie was asleep against Emmett who seemed to be enthralled by the movie. Jasper and Alice were snuggled up and I couldn't tell if they were sleeping or not, but either way they certainly weren't be paying attention to us.

I shifted my legs to twine with his, slinging one of them over his hips. I slipped one of my hands into his hair and tugged his mouth to mine. He groaned softly into my mouth and slid his hand down my back to grip my backside. I pulled my mouth away from his to pant a little. I looked up at him and he was grinning down at me lazily. He gazed at me for a moment, his eyes dark and his lips glistening in the soft light, before he recaptured my mouth. We kissed softly, with his tongue gently plundering and exploring my mouth.

His hand slid up my front and under the t-shirt I was wearing. In our haste to get up to the house after Esme had called, I hadn't put a bra on. Edward's wandering hands found my bare left breast and he squeezed and flicked my nipple. The moan that came out of my mouth would have been very loud if Edward's mouth hadn't been covering mine. I thanked God that the movie was playing louder than my moaning.

He pulled back slightly, whispering "shhh" against my lips and removing his hand from under my shirt. He dragged his lips across my cheek before he pressed them softly to my ear. I was panting in earnest and clutched him tighter to me, burying my nose in his shoulder. His hand came up and cupped the back of my head.

"Do you want to go out to the pool? I think that we might need to cool down." I could hear the humor in his voice and I giggled. I pulled back to look at his face and I nodded. He smiled softly and ran the back of his fingers over my cheek and pressed a tender kiss to my lips before he began to disentangle us. I reluctantly removed my thigh from his hip and let go of this t-shirt that was bunched in my hands.

We stood up carefully and slipped out of the living room without anyone noticing us. Once we got outside, Edward took off running down the lawn to the pool. His light laughter was filling the still night air. I walked at a regular pace, just taking him in. He had a child-like innocence at times. He was so carefree and happy. I was glad to see him that way, knowing now the things he had been through in his young life.

I smiled as he reached the pool long before I did and he turned around to wait for me a bit impatiently. I giggled when I got within arms reach and he grabbed me, pulling me closely to his chest and snuggled his face into my neck. He placed sloppy, loud kisses all up the column of my neck and he began to tickle me. I started squirming and yelping, trying to free myself from his grasp, but he only wrapped his arms around me and crushed me to him and locking my arms at my sides. He pulled his face back and looked down at me.

I'm sure my face was flushed and shiny from laughing and my hair was probably out of control because of the chlorine that was in it, but he didn't seem to care. He just leaned down, tilting his head slightly, and pressing his lips to mine. In my nineteen years of life, I had never really experienced something that I loved more than kissing Edward. It would never get old to me. His lips were so soft and the pressure he used was always just right, like he had some sort of ability to know exactly what I wanted at every moment. My lips parted with a breathy sigh, and he never missed an opportunity to slip his tongue in my mouth. But this time, I fought back. I usually just let him plunder however he pleased, but not now. I reached my tongue out and slid it against his, swirling around the tip of his. He groaned in approval and reached up to cup my face, and moved to kiss me deeper. We kissed slowly, our tongues sliding perfectly, gently over each other. After a few moments his tongue retreated into his mouth and I followed, tasting his mouth directly for the first time. He tasted like nothing I had ever known before, but at the same time, it was like something I had known all of my life. I relished it in.

I finally pulled back and he placed quick, gentle kisses on my lips before resting his head on my shoulder. I nuzzled his head with mine and ran my fingers through his hair.

He pulled back and grinned.

"So much for cooling off," he chuckled as he shook his head. I just shrugged and shot him a smile.

He let got of me and started to walk towards the pool house. He reached behind his back and slid his t-shirt over his head, tossing it on a lawn chair before he disappeared through the door. My mouth watered at the sight of his back muscles shifting. I was a sucker for backs. I couldn't wait to run my finger nails across his as he hovered over me…

"All right, Bella. Get naked." My eyes snapped to him, jolting me from my fantasy. He was standing by the lawn chair he discarded his shirt on and was about to lower his shorts. I didn't know if I should stare or look away. I chose to flush and turn around, and I quickly pulled my t-shirt over my head and pulled my shorts off. I grabbed my t-shirt up off the chair and held it to my chest as I turned around. He was still standing there with his shorts on. He raised an eyebrow.

"Can I get in first?" I was feeling embarrassed and shy all of sudden.

He smiled. "Sure. Do you want me to turn around?" He sounded like he was teasing a little, but I knew that he meant it.

"Please."

He nodded and turned around. I scurried to the steps of the pool and quickly slid in. The water was warm and I quickly moved into the deeper part of the pool to feel the warmth envelop me. I heard a splash in the deep side of the pool and suddenly felt Edward's hands on my legs. I made a small noise of surprise as he tugged me under a little.

He broke the surface and pushed his hair out of his face before he wrapped his arms around me. He smiled and smoothed my hair back, gliding his hands over my bare shoulders. With his arms still around me, he waded us to toward a sort of bench seat that was carved out of the wall of the pool. I sat down and he sat next to me, sliding his hand around my waist and tugging me to him. The water came up to about my collar bone. It was perfect.

"This is lovely. I'm glad you suggested it," I said quietly, looking around at the softly lit water.

He squeezed my side before sliding his hand over my back. He leaned into my ear. "I'm glad I suggested it too."

"Let's just hope that Emmett doesn't realize we are out here." I really didn't want him canon balling in and finding us naked.

"Nah. If anything, he will think we went back down to the cottage. He was still awake, I'm sure he heard us going at it on the couch." He was smiling wickedly at me. I smacked his chest.

He just laughed and reached his hand up to cup the back of my head. He kissed me gently and then slipped his arm over my shoulders.

"I don't want you to think that I always go this fast with the girls I date." He offered very quietly, unexpectedly. "We've only been dating for a week. But you feel so perfect, and I just feel like I have no control." He sounded like he was annoyed with himself.

"Hey, don't worry about it. We can go as fast or as slow as we need to." I shifted a little towards him, sliding into his lap slightly. He wrapped his arm around my lower back and rested his other hand on my leg. I put my hand on his cheek and made him look at me. "I have no control when I'm with you either. This is the first relationship that I've wanted to do these kinds of things."

He looked confused for a moment. "You didn't want to have sex with your last boyfriend? Did he force you?" He looked panicked and pulled me too him tightly. "Oh my God, Bella. I am so sorry, did I…"

"Stop."

He shut his mouth but looked terrified and disgusted with himself.

"He didn't force me. And neither have you. He was just awful at all things sexual." I giggled a little in spite of myself. He looked at me to explain myself.

I sighed. "I started dating Jacob my sophomore year of high school. I had met him my freshman year and we were really good friends. And then it sort of developed into something more. He was really good to me in the beginning. The summer between sophomore and junior year, we started sleeping together. I thought that it was bad because it was our first time, and we were new at it. But in never did get better. I just endured it, and he didn't seem to care that I didn't enjoy myself. Or maybe he was just too unaware to realize."

Edward had an annoyed look on his face, like he'd like to punch someone.

"I made excuses to get out of sleeping with him. I, uh, I got good at giving blow jobs," I paused, closing my eyes and cringing a bit. I really hated talking about sex out loud, "Just so that he wouldn't ask me for sex as often. It worked for a while."

"That explains it." Edward murmured, mostly to himself. He had a far off, wistful look in his eyes.

"What?"

He looked at me a little sheepishly before looking down. "I wasn't kidding before when I said that that was the best blow job I had ever gotten."

I flushed a little and smiled.

"It's still not fair though, Bella. Why would you stay with him if he treated you that way? It's obvious that he really didn't care about you. If he truly cared about you, he would have put your needs before his own."

I shrugged. "He was my first love, my first boyfriend. He was all I had ever known. I thought that maybe there was something wrong with me, I didn't know better. I wasn't really secure enough with myself at the time to tell him to get lost, either. All of my friends were his friends. I was scared to lose it all.

"But eventually I did. Apparently he had been telling everyone that I had stopped putting out, which I had, but that's beside the point. He dumped me a week before junior prom, in front of all of our friends. I had bought my dress and everything. I just kind of became a recluse after that. Alice was my only friend."

Edward cupped my face and kissed me gently. This kiss was telling me that he would never hurt me like that. That he would always be there for me. He pulled back and rested his forehead against mine, grinning slightly.

"I was going to suggest that we wait for a while before we have sex, to slow things down. But, I am nearly overcome with the urge to drag you down to the cottage and show you how a man is supposed to make love to his girlfriend." He pressed his lips to mine again.

"Mmm." I hummed against his lips. His words were doing things to me; so were his kisses.

He pulled back and looked at me in question. My brain was a little foggy and I looked at him like I was a little punch-drunk.

"Keep kissing me like that and I might take you up on that offer."

He groaned. "My need for you is insatiable. I don't think I can ever have enough." He kissed me again abruptly.

He felt so right; everything about him. The way it felt to be in his arms, and the way it felt to have him in my arms. I wondered how I went my whole life never knowing him. How did I exist before him?

"If you really want to do this tonight, Isabella, then you have to get out of this pool and walk to my house naked. You can't hide behind your t-shirt forever. Sex usually includes naked people." His eyes were teasing, but I knew he was dead serious.

"What if someone sees me?!"

He laughed. "That is the chance you will have to take, isn't it?" I knew he was probably expecting me not to do it, but I was determined to be bolder. I shot him a challenging glance and turned to climb out of the pool. I walked to the chair that had my clothes and picked them up, sliding my sandals on, then starting towards the cottage. I was at a determined pace, trying not to think about someone looking out of the window at me. Especially not Edward's parents. Or worse, Emmett.

I wasn't even half way there when Edward appeared at my side with a towel. He tossed it over my shoulders and I looked over at him. He was looking at me in awe, amusement, and complete adoration.

"I never in a million years expected you to actually do that. God, you are amazing." He tossed his arm over my shoulders and we walked the rest of the way to the house. I noticed that he had put his shorts back on. I should have been annoyed at him for making me walk naked, but he didn't have to. I glared at him and he just chuckled.

"We don't have to actually do this, Bella. I was just teasing you."

I shot him a smile that I hoped was seductive. "Well, that's really a shame. I was really looking forward to you showing me," I leaned into his ear, "how a real man makes love to his girlfriend."

He let out a slightly strangled sound and quickened our pace to the cottage.

We made it to the house and slipped inside quietly. We walked to his bedroom and I dropped all of my stuff near my bag on the floor, sat down on the bed and waited for him to join me. My stomach was fluttering. I felt like this was the first time I was having sex. Well, for all intents and purposes, I was, and I was scared out of my mind.

When I looked up at him, I could tell that his mood had changed. He paced back and forth in front of me for a moment before he sat next to me. He seemed agitated suddenly and I was worried I had done something wrong. He put his head in his hands and sighed.

I placed a tentative hand on his back. "Edward, what's the matter? We don't have to do this…"

But he just shook his head and looked at me. His eyes were sad, remorseful, his expression was pained.

"I feel like I need to tell you something. I couldn't tell you before, because I hadn't told you about the things that had happened to me in New Hampshire. I have to tell you before we go any further. I lied to you."

A/N:

Ok this is going to be a little long, but for the sake of things, it needs to be. A few people have expressed some questions/concerns that I will address.

1. Bella is not going to get pregnant. Ever. Well maybe not EVER, but not in the context and time line of the story. Edward is not going to have a repeat of what happened with his Dartmouth girlfriend, who doesn't actually have a name, lol. I just didn't want to name her something cliché that everyone calls Edward's ex-girlfriend, and I still haven't decided. I should pick one though, she comes up again next chapter.

2. A few people at Twilighted have said that Bella is bouncing back from "rock bottom" too quickly. They're right, and the same time they are wrong, lol. She is bouncing back kind of quick and that is why she is moving so fast with Edward. She is kind of desperate to forget her past failures and move on to something good. But she's not dealing with them. Edward is good for her, but she might becoming too dependant on him.

Also, I've changed the story summary a little, nothing too drastic. The plot outline has changed quite a bit since my original layout of this story. I had originally intended for Edward and Bella to work at Sofie's together much longer before Edward 'vanishes', so the story was supposed to be drawn out more. That's kind of why I have them moving so fast in their physical relationship, I had intended them to know each other longer, but the fastness works for where the story is going now. The original summary went along with Edward vanishing for a longer amount of time, but now I've changed it to fit where this story is now heading. Edward's absence will be addressed more next chapter though, so hold tight :)

If anyone has any more questions about the story or this jumbled and confusing A/N, leave a comment of feel free to PM me.