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This time I was completely aware that I was dreaming. I forced myself to stay alert and remember what my intentions were; I couldn't afford to be distracted, but as I took in the scenery my heart ached.

I was standing in the cabin. Memories of the night before the attack invaded my mind…the night before she and everything I had ever lived for were taken away from me.

A mixture of anger and sorrow began to swirl in my chest…two things that I had been feeling a lot of lately. I sank to my knees besides the bed and I did something I had also been doing a lot of lately. I wept. I was used to having such a firm control over all of my emotions but ever since I'd been awakened every small feeling seemed to magnify.

It's strange how real these dreams seemed to be, if I didn't know any better I'd say they were actually happening. Hell, I had been completely convinced in all of my previous Rose dreams. The door creaked as it opened, and I glanced towards the doorway. There she stood, wearing the exact same thing she had worn that night.

I wanted to hold her tight and never let her go, that's when I saw her stomach again. Like all of the previous dreams, she was pregnant. I couldn't understand what that meant? Could she actually be pregnant in real life? Or was it just simple proof that this was only a dream and that I had been over my head?

I stood promptly and wiped away any remaining tears. I felt weak crying in front of her; even if this did just turn out to be a dream I couldn't let her see me cry.

She seemed a bit shocked and I wasn't sure if it was at the sight of me or just the surroundings. She was crying to as she met my gaze.

"We both know how this will end." She bit her lip to hold back a small sob.

She was right; all of these dreams ended the same way.

Suddenly, something clicked. This was a dream… I couldn't let myself be distracted any longer.

"Rose" I said sternly, she looked into my eyes. "Don't come after me, I need you to go back to Lisa, to keep her safe…to keep yourself safe."

She appeared dumbfounded for a few seconds.

"The real Dimitri would've wanted me to do this…" she replied stubbornly.

I shook my head. "Under normal circumstances I would've looked forward to you ending my life…or existence. But not when it puts both you and Lisa in danger. Roza, I need you to listen carefully."

She had already taken out her steak. "Your not the real Dimitri… not the Dimitri I loved." She began to approach me; as much as I wanted to close in the distance I couldn't let her kill me. Not without warning her first.

"Roza, you don't understand. The blonde strigoi from the caves…he has me chained up somewhere, he's trying to lure you to him. He wants to use you to get Lisa." I had said all of that in one breath so I was breathing a little heavily.

"What?" she asked, confusion crossing her beautiful face.

"Believe me Rose…you have too." I was near begging point now, ready to sink back to my knees and plead for her trust, even if it was only a little.

She seemed to be at a loss for words, which was rare for her. It reminded me the first time I had met her. When Kirova had threatened to expel her and I had jumped to her defense. Even then there had been about her that had me intruiged. She seemed to be such a determined novice…she is a determined guardian. I wasn't sure when along the line I had begun to develop feelings for her.

"You're…you're lying." Her words brought me back to reality. "Your just trying to use his memories against me…your trying to catch me off guard so you can…" she paused and stared into my eyes. She wanted to believe I hadn't changed, that I still had some humanity left.

It hurt to have her confirm all of my fears and doubts about myself. Maybe I really was a monster now. No, if I was a monster, I wouldn't be able to care about her…I wouldn't have doubts I'd just kill like all the others. I wasn't gone yet, at least not completely. I had to save her.

Although it took almost all I had not to break down in front of her, to tell her everything I had gone through. How I sat awake every day thinking about the times we shared in this same exact cabin. I was just about to tell her…to cry to her. A few escape teardrops rolled down my cheeks.

She must have seen them too because she dropped her steak and sank to her knees. I darted over to her and held her against my chest.

"Oh…Roza, I've missed you so much, it's been torture."

"Me too." She replied in a faint whisper.

I wasn't sure if she actually believed me or not but at the moment it didn't seem to matter. I was the happiest I've been in weeks, just to have her in my arms once more.

That's when she began to fade, my time was up.

"Believe me" I managed to say before I was snapped awake. I opened my eyes only to be met by John's ugly face.

I longed to be back in the dream again, even if I had to be killed 100 more times, just seeing her makes it worth dyeing repeatedly. Although this had been the first dream I hadn't been killed in.

Maybe it would work… maybe by some miracle she actually had heard me and our dreams were connected. But for now I couldn't rely on that. I still needed to come up with a stable escape plan.

Rose's POV

I was alone again…in the cabin. He had faded away before I was able to kill him. I don't think I was going to though.

I was completely aware that I was dreaming now, before I hadn't been completely sure. I picked up the steak and walked over to the bed. I had to sit down for awhile. I wiped away the tears and hugged the pillow.

I wasn't sure if he had been telling the truth, I mean it made complete sense but…he was strigoi now. He's changed and even though I want to believe he was still the man I loved…he was one of them.

I had been taught to kill them all of my life. He had taught me to kill them… he would want me to kill him. He had said it himself.

I sobbed into the pillow for a few minutes, memories of that night fully engulfed me. He had promised he wouldn't let anything happen to me... I had also promised the same in return. I couldn't keep that promise... at the end I could only stand there and watch as he was taken down. I wouldn't fail him again. I couldn't...I had to be strong, but part of me only wanted to stay here and cry my eyes out some more. What if he really was trying to warn me just now. I quickly dismissed the thought as just a dream. My subconcious mind still wants to believe he's still the same old Dimitri.

I heard a soft cough. Someone was here. I glanced up, part of me hoping it was him again.

"Hello little dhampire," a sad smile crossed Adrian's face.

"What are you doing here?" I asked almost defensively, I wondered for a slight second if it would do him any real damage if I killed him in the dream, I dismissed this thought aswell. Adrian was helping me, he didn't mean to intrude he was just trying to check up on me.

"How've you been? Are you in the hotel room I booked for you?"

I nodded. "I'm fine…"

He shook his head, "You don't look fine to me," he replied as he sat down next to me.

I began to turn towards him, to meet him in the eyes when he gasped.

"What?" I asked, surprised by his expression.

"You're pregnant? How?" he still sat there, his mouth wide opened.

I looked down at the large bump in my stomach then looked back up at him.

"No, I… I just keep showing up this way in my dreams, I'm not sure what it means."

His expression didn't seem to change; he continued gaping at me for a few more minutes.

"Rose…tomorrow, I want you to stop by a pharmacy. Buy a pregnancy test and let me know the result." I had never seen him so serious in my life. I saw concern and a small hint of jealousy in his eyes, but the shock overweighed all.

"I don't think that's it, I mean it can't be…I only had sex once." I spoke my thoughts out loud and had to overcome the urge to slap myself for letting it slip.

"When and who?" he asked.

"None of your business," I replied, who was he to try to butt into my love life.

"Little dhampire, I am trying to help you. Answer the question."

I thought about it for a few minutes…Adrian had helped a lot, without him I'd have no money and I'd probably be sleeping somewhere on the streets right now. I knew he cared about me, even if he was annoying at times.

"It's impossible..." I began but then answered the question. "Dimitri…the night before the attack," I stopped and looked around the cabin again. It had been right here. Tears were overflowing again and I buried my face into my pillow.

He pulled me towards him and hugged me. I didn't fight against him, I cried into his shirt for several more minutes before he spoke, trying to imagine he was Dimitri.

"It's ok, little dhampire…we'll get through this. Tomorrow I need you to do what I told you and then call me with the result." I nodded.

This couldn't be happening…it had to just be some sort of coincidence. Dhampires couldn't conceive with each other, it was impossible.

Adrian pulled away then. His face was filled with sadness and compassion. I felt like a jerk for taking advantage of him this way, the only reason he had given me money was because of his infatuation with me.

"Get some sleep, little dhampire." He faded away and so did the cabin. I had no more dreams after that just total blackness.