All characters are Stephenie Meyers. I don't own them I wish I did ;o)

Well here is the second chapter. Sorry it took so long to get up. I am still writing the first story of my trilogy Future. I am also writing a new story that I will post soon as well called Why? Tell me what you think of this story. Do you like it? Hate it? Is it one that you will keep reading??? Read and review. They are always welcomed.

~munchkin1978


Christmas Wish

Chapter 2

Edward.

I had seen Edward. He was right here in front of me. He was the one calling my name. He's the one who helped me. He's the one…. Wait if he helped me then that means….. That means he's…. I gasped and sat straight up. My eyes flew open and searched my room again. He was at the window again standing still as the statue I knew he could be.

"Edward." I finally said out loud.

He didn't say anything back he just watched me.

"Oh crap. I knew it. I am seeing things. No wonder everyone stays away from me. I really am going bonkers." I was talking to myself. Something I did often these days.

I started to get up again and he moved. I stopped stepping gingerly on my feet. "Stop it Bella. I know you're not real. I know your not standing there. This is a dream. I am going cuckoo."

"You are not cuckoo Bella." The Edward look a like said.

"I'm going to pass out again. Maybe this time I'll wake up properly."

"You are awake Bella. Please look at me."

I did as my dream told me. I looked. His gaze was deep. His eyes pure gold, liquid gold. Perfection in small orbs. He started to come to me as I started to back up again.

"You…"

"I'm real Bella. I'm right here. It's not a dream."

"You… you left. You left me." I cried out. I hoped Charlie wasn't here to hear me like this. He would surely come running up to see this.

He didn't say anything. He looked ashamed. He looked like he needed to say something. He opened his mouth and then closed it again. His eyes never leaving my face.

"You don't have anything to say?" I asked anger starting to seep through.

"I…"

If he wasn't going to talk I was. I needed to know why? Why he left? Why he left me the way he did? I needed answers to all my questions.

"I need to know. I need to know why?" I finally said holding the anger that was starting. He still was not saying anything, which was making me mad. He had all the answer's I wanted. The answer's that I needed to survive this.

"Bella, I shouldn't be here. I broke my promise. I promised to leave you alone."

"Don't you dare leave me again Edward. Do you know what your leaving did to me?" I didn't wait for an answer I kept going. "It crushed me. I was broken into a million little pieces. I don't feel whole anymore. I want answers. I need to know. I want to know why?"

"Bella, I don't want you to get hurt. I don't want you to ever get hurt again. That is why I left. I lied to keep you safe."

"You lied." I blurted out. He had lied to me to keep me safe. No that had to be another lie. How could I believe that? Was I so blinded by being in love that I believed it so easily?

"I never wanted to hurt you. I am yours. You are my life. I can't live if you are not here. I made a huge mistake for leaving you. I should have stayed. We should have worked together. Now I'm afraid that I ruined us." I watched him turn away from me and head to the window. He looked out the window but didn't leave.

"I would have followed you anywhere Edward." I cried out. I didn't know what I was doing. I was mad, sad and happy. I was an utter mess.

"That is why I left. I needed you safe. I didn't want you hurt Bella."

"Did you not think to ask me what my opinion was? That maybe I could have helped."

"My mind was set Bella. The others had left by request of me."

"So what" I cried out again. "It had to do with me. I had a right to say what I wanted."

"I know that…" He turned back around and watched my emotions play on my face. I was mad at him. I was now very mad at him. He had no right to do this to me. I wanted my say.

"You can't just expect me to take you back Edward."

"I know that Bella. I will spend my entire existence begging for your forgiveness."

My emotions were catching up with me again. I felt light headed and stepped to the bed. I sat on the end and realized what was happening in front of me finally.

"Don't black out again Bella. You've done that twice today. I will have to take you to Carlisle to look after you."

The family. The Cullen's. Alice, Rosalie, Emmett and Jasper, poor Jasper. It wasn't his fault. He needed to know that. I shook off blacking out again. I needed to stay strong. I needed my wits about me.

"I never really left Bella. Well I did try and track Victoria for a week or two but nothing came from that. I am a horrible tracker." He tried to lighten the mood with one of his crooked smiles. I wasn't going to have it. I needed my answers before he dazzled me.

"Why did you let me be that way?" I paused. "They, Charlie and Renee wanted to send me to the nut house. They thought I had lost it. I didn't move for a week. Do you know who found me in the forest?"

"I know Bella. It is unfortunate a dog had to get you out. I would have come back for you. As soon as I left I wanted to come back for you. I wanted to whisk you away somewhere safe. I wanted to touch you. Feel you close like you always wanted to be. I will be eternally sorry for leaving you."

He looked at me with such remorse I couldn't help but believe him. He was telling me the truth. He was standing at the end of my bed making his way to me little by little. He finally kneeled before me on both knees and begged.

"Bella please, please tell me you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I lied to you and I want to make that up. Please..."

"I don't know…" I stopped myself. I wanted this. I wanted Edward. Why was I not saying yes? "I don't know if I can."

He looked into my eyes. The liquid gold swirling in the orbs that were starring at me. I looked away again, breaking the trance his eyes held on me. He stood up before I could blink.

"I'm not leaving you again Bella. I will prove to you I belong with you."

He turned from me and was gone in seconds. Leaving me with my thoughts. I was in shock. I was falling. I was… I needed air. I felt like I was clawing my way up out of the hole I was now in.

I stood up gingerly. I was still in shock and didn't know how long I would last on my feet. I went to the window. I looked into the forest across the way and there he stood watching me, watching him.

"You didn't have to leave." I said quietly. I didn't know if he heard me or not but he didn't move an inch to make me think so.

This was wrong. This is not how I pictured this happening. I needed Edward. I wanted Edward. He wanted me. He'd returned and I was the one who couldn't make her mind up. When I was so set in what I wanted from before. "Argh…" I growled at myself. I left the window open as an invitation to come back. I just hoped he would.

Well what did you think of the second chapter? This is only going to be a short story as well. As always please read and review they are much appreciated

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