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A/N: This scene was based on Chapter 7 of Neon Genesis Evangelion: Academic Record of Heaven's Descent.
"Ah-" I manage to choke out - I knew something that should be there, wasn't.
The school bell had just rung a few moments ago, screaming to say that it was our lunch break. Kaworu and I are nearly in all of the same classes, so it wasn't unusual for us to be walking with each other, talking with each other, eating lunch with each other.
We didn't need each other's permission to do so.
It was like… we knew - as if it was like a sort of sensation - that we 'needed' each other's company. But right now, I have to go retrieve something - something of such miniscule importance - that it costs me my time with a new friend that I wish to be more acquainted with…
Or maybe at least learn a thing or two more about him, Ayanami and Soryuu…
He turns his head, slight concern in his expression. He's worried about me…?
"Sorry, Kaworu-kun, but I forgot my pencil bag in the lab. Could you go onto the cafeteria ahead of me?"
His expression lightens up, and his lips expose a small smile - he gives that to practically everyone; every girl that swoons at his appearance, at his intelligence, at his soothing tone - he rewards them all with a smile. But somewhere inside me, I wanted to think that his smiles to me were - Sincere. Genuine. Special.
"Sure - want me to pick up a meal ticket for you?" That smile -
"Yeah, grab me a B-Combo ticket will ya?" - is contagious.
"Ok." He turns to walk away, but time slows for me. I wonder if he feels the same - if he knew that we had this-this…
'Special Sixth Sense' towards each other. I want to ask him bu-
"Kaworu-kun" Shit! Reflex!
He turns around again, not completely; concern was, again, present in his expression. I want to think it was concern, maybe it was just that I annoyed him, or piqued his interest-
"…Ah." -Or that he's just hungry or maybe he's thinking of me or- "Um…"
Oh…
This is embarrassing…
He chuckles softly and makes a gesture of light-heartedness. "On second thought, I'm craving some curry right now."
He worried me for a while there, I thought he was going to say something serious.
But that was just one of the things that I thought he might say - I wanted him to say that he was going to reconsider about retrieving his pencil bag and say something among the lines of: 'Oh, I can always get it back after lunch. Let's just go and get lunch already.' But in that care-free, cheery manner of his.
But still, it's better than 'Leave me alone'.
Somehow… I just feel that he would never say that to me… even though we did have a rocky start.
But maybe this… 'sensation', came along with the contract when I signed up to be one of his friends. I hope he also knows inside, that all my smiles to him are always truthful - and it's just especially for him.
Simple and clean. "Gotcha."
I turn, and think of what he could've been thinking about while he was in that small state of contemplation. Probably about the Eva's or the Angels…
But why do I hope, that he was thinking about… me?
Huh…
That's awkward…
Both boys turn, their destinations contrasting the other.
As they both walk, they slow down after a certain amount of steps - both of parallel timing.
Shinji nearly stops completely, but doesn't go back completely to normal speed until he catches a glance of a familiar head of hair.
Kaworu as well, slows down, but does not stop walking. He couldn't risk catching a glimpse of a familiar shade of brunette, it would just make his thoughts more awkward - for the both of them.
They both wanted to turn. They both wanted to be with each other. They both wanted each other.
But their senses were just not strong enough…
Not yet.