Chapter 3

A.N: I was listening to Within temptations-angels when I wrote this. Such a good yet sad song. She has such an incredible voice. It's like Amy lee all over again.

Once again, I do not own Inuyasha or any of its character boo hoo. (sniff sniff)

I had been wandering without a purpose for almost two weeks. My demon magic was the only thing keeping Rin's body which I had insisted on taking with me from rotting to badly. Jake had been yelling at me constantly, bursting into tears every few minutes, begging for me to snap out of it. He had even offered to let me hit him if it would make me feel better. I ignored him, there was no way it would make me feel any better.
Due to my acute and growing depression, I began to grow weaker, my stamina withering and any energy that I possessed leaking away. I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep. I was even too weak to even dig a grave for my Rin. I was just about ready to give up and just wait for something to come along and kill me, when I sensed Inuyasha nearby.

He was the only family I had left, and even if he didn't want to accept and forgive me at this point, then hopefully he would at least burry my love and then send me to her. I wanted nothing more at this point then just to die.

As I began to near the edge of the forest, beyond of which I knew that Inuyasha would be, I could feel my knees begin to give out on me. 'Only a few feet further, it's not much further now.' the words repeated themselves in my head like a mantra. I knew that the second I left that outer ring of forestry, I would be able to see them, waiting for me, poised for attack. I couldn't blame them; I had attacked them several times in the past, complaining and arguing with my little brother for possession of his tetsusaiga. I trivial matter now that I think of it. No sword in the world could have saved my Rin, not even my sword of healing, tensaiga. What a waste.

I had tried several times with my 'useless' sword, each time failing to revive her. Those accursed demons not only destroyed her fragile body, but they had also stolen her soul, making it impossible for me to bring her back to me. I had grown desperate, throwing down tensaiga only to pick up tokejin, and hold it to my heart. I wanted so badly to join her in eternal slumber, and yet I couldn't bring myself to do it. I could almost see her disappointment in me for my attempted suicide. I hated to have her disappointed in me, so I vowed to never do it again. Anything to make her happy.

I began to stumble across the forest floor, over run with undergrowth, tripping a few times on roots and weeds. I nearly dropped my precious Rin once, which caused me to panic and cling to her all the more tightly.

Her body was so limp and cold that it frightened me. The Rin whom had grown up by my side, who had followed me faithfully wherever I choose to go, had always been full of light and warmth. You couldn't stay mad or depressed for long when she was around. Whenever she thought that I was getting to serious or annoyed at something, she would run off to pick me flowers to put in my hair, (which I acted like it annoyed me but truly I didn't mind) or she'd sit behind me with her comb and brush out my hair. A task that would take her hours at a time, and yet she never seemed to mind. As if it was the only thing that could make her happy.

I miss that about her. Even her mere presence was soothing. She had proved me wrong on so many levels about my opinion of humans. They were far more then I had ever thought they could be. Or perhaps it was only my Rin that was superior. After all, none could match her worth in my eyes.

Finally after what seemed like forever, I broke past the last line of trees, nearly falling on the ground in my attempt to break free of the grasping, claw like branches. I could see them. My Younger Brother and his makeshift group. They all stood at the ready, weapons drawn, crouched in their battle stances. Proof of their obvious distrust.

Oh well, it didn't matter what they thought of me, I just wanted to bury my Rin. I didn't need them for anything else. And they obviously didn't want me.

"Sesshomaru? SESSHOMARU WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?" Inuyasha screamed at me obviously disturbed by my sudden appearance. Not to mention the fact that I was covered in blood and carrying a corps. It was not much of a surprise that he would get defensive so quickly.

"That's not, is it? Inuyasha its Rin. He's carrying Rin." The reincarnation nearly whispered. She pushed Inuyasha almost forcefully out of the way and began to run towards me. I was far to tired to get defensive.

"Kagome are you stupid? What the hell do you think you're doing?" Inuyasha yelled at his mate, obviously worried about her safety.

"Inuyasha SIT! This is not the time to indulge in your petty sibling rivalries, something is wrong and I intend to help." Well at least her priorities were in order.

She turned back towards me and placed her index and middle finger on Rin's deceased pulse.

"What happened?" at her words, thousands of unbidden memories and images infiltrated my mind. I couldn't take it anymore. I could feel forbidden tears flow freely down my face as I began to sob uncontrollably. My legs finally gave out on me, and I could feel myself falling.

At some point in the few seconds that it would have taken me to hit the ground, Inuyasha must have run up to where I was standing. The next thing I knew he was holding both myself and Rin to keep me from dropping her I suppose and eased us onto the ground. I could here him telling me that everything would be ok and that they would take care of everything, and then the world went dark.