Disclaimer: I am not Stephenie Meyer, hence do not own Twilight. I'm just having a little fun with her characters...
Chapter 4.
I woke up in the morning, feeling refreshed. That was until I remembered why I was in Alice's bed and not my own. The fight, the newborns, Victoria, Edward, the Volturi and then Jake! Urgh. Why did I wake up? Could I not just have a little peace? But right at that moment, I heard very loud voices from the floor below. I thought we were over this. I reaffirmed. I did not care who was a Vampire and who the hell was a werewolf. I was Switzerland. Completely impartial.
I sighed and pulled myself out of Alice's very pink bed.
It was a little weird that Edward wasn't there with me when I went to bed. He usually snuck into my window at home, with a snoring Charlie in the other room. But this was his house, his sanctuary, why wasn't he here.
Then it hit me. He was probably still very angry with himself, and the period of self loathing would last for at least a week.
I loved Edward, but it was my fault he was hurt, because of my pessimism, he lay in chunks. Sure, you could put him back together again but...
As I walked across to the colossal white ensuite, I saw that Alice had layed out a full set of clothes for me. I did have a bag of my own clothes somewhere, but Alice would be Alice and I wouldn't put it past her to dispose of my clothes discretely and replace them with something she approved of. Translation, I was never going to see the bag full of sweats again.
I showered, noticing that Alice had placed a bottle of my favourite strawberry shampoo in her shower. And the sweater dress she had chose was a very particular shade of blue. Alice had definitely understood just what had happened between Jacob and I, and was pulling out all the stops so she would lose me.
But the question was, Now that I knew, really knew that I loved Jake, Did it change anything?

After I was dressed and mildly presentable, I made my way down the stairs. When I walked into the kitchen, where I could smell bacon and eggs frying. I realised that I was very hungry, and in the house where nobody ate, they were cooking for me.
I felt a little touched, but then I realised that Alice was the one in charge. Her strange behaviour was starting to get to me.
Though I loved her, ever since she found me in the forest, she was smothering me.
Part of me wondered if she knew something that I didn't.
"Bella!" Alice chimed loudly. I grimaced.
"Come sit down, we made you breakfast!!!!" She was speaking a bit fast for me to understand, I was too busy looking at the gigantic pile of food on the kitchen bench.
"Alice, I'm not going to be able to eat all of that!" I snapped, perhaps a little moodily.
"Yeowch!" Rose whispered to Emmett, who was frying more bacon.
I glared at her.
"Looks like we got the grumpy Bella this morning hun!" Emmett said unashamed. Rosalie whacked him with the second frypan, over the head mind you.
I sat down, giving up and pulling some toast and bacon onto the plate Alice had just placed in front of me.
I ate quickly and escaped the awkward situation in the kitchen. I picked up a copy of Wuthering heights off the coffee table. No doubt Alice had struck again. On second thoughts I put the book down. All of a sudden, Sam, Leah and Seth descended the stairs, Sam and the front and Leah dragging Seth down, trying to get him out the door.
"Sam, Leah, Seth, you must be hungry" Esme chided in a motherly way. "Please, there is plenty of food in the kitchen". She practically emotionally blackmailed them into the kitchen, except Leah ignored her and slammed the front door on her way out.
Esme frowned and the other two were forced into the kitchen towards the immense pile of food.

As Esme had distracted the pack, And with Rosalie, Emmett and Alice nowhere in sight. I made a b-line for Carlisles office, where Jacob was being looked after.
The door was shut. It took a moment for me to have the strength to open it. I was afraid of what I would see, and of course what it would mean....
I took a deep breath and opened the door.
"Jake?" I said softly, seeing him lying flat on a hospital bed against the far wall.
"Bells?"
"Oh Jake...." I knelt over near his face, stroking his shiny dark hair without realising it.
Then we were stuck in an awkward silence for a minute. It had taken so long to get to this point, so long for Jake to make me realise, That all along, I loved him back.
"Jake, I'm so sorry you got hurt because of me..." I stammered, starting to tear up.
"It's okay. It wasn't your fault Bells, I'm sorry that I didn't stay with you like I asked. I was wrong, everything wasn't okay". He was pulling at my shoulder, bringing me down to lie next to him on the narrow hospital bed.
"You were right, everyone is okay"
"What about the bloods- Um, Edward" I slapped him across the chest.
"Edward was put back together by Carlisle".
"Put back together? Who is he humpty dumpty? What happened to the wall he fell off" He stared laughing and it was just so infectious that I started laughing aswell. It made me feel so much better just to laugh.
"But seriously Bells. Everyone is okay?" He looked reassured, just checking obviously.
"Yes. The worst of it is me. When Carlisle sees that I've broken my wrist again, I'm going to have a proper cast" I said pointing to my wrist that I had broken not so long ago. Such a short space of time, so much had changed. Of this Jake was completely aware now, and so was I.
"I love you Bella"
"I love you Jake"
I started to cry again, and Jake pulled me closer against his chest. My head was against his heart. I shuffled up, putting my head in the hollow of his neck now. Jacob put his fingers under my chin so he could look into my eyes.
He closed the little distance between us and pressed his lips softly to mine. His hands were soft on my face and his lips were gentle, unlike the first time we had really kissed.
But before I knew it, my fingers were tightened in his hair, pulling him closer. He was everywhere. I couldn't see or hear anything that wasn't Jacob.
And then I saw it. I saw the entirely different path that my life could take.
I could see Charlie and Renee mixed into a happy collage with Sam and Billy in La Push. I could see years passing, Jacobs hair greying and me getting laugh lines, just like Renee. For a short second I saw the figures of two small, dark haired children running across the familiar beach, going in and out of the water, laughing. I saw the gigantic Russet wolf as a constant. As a dominating figure, but my side protecting me for the next 5, 10, 20, 40, 60 years of my life.
I pressed myself closer to him, lost in the moment and all of a sudden, Jake flinched. I pulled away, as he winced.
"Oops sorry!" I laughed, nervously. "How are you feeling?" Stupid question I know.
"I'm okay, Dr Fang may have overdone the pain meds, but I can't feel the broken bones or the stitches from the bloodsucker"
"Be good, and listen to Carlisle" He nodded.
"And how are you..." he said. It looked to me like he was a little afraid to ask.
"I'm... fine. Why?" I said. Maybe he had overdone the meds.
"How bad was Edward" It was a little weird to hear him actually say his name. "I'm sure he didn't actually hurt you, but does he know? How bad was it?"
"It was awful! He wasn't nasty, not at all. I wish!"
"Well that is odd. He is a Vamp, figures he is strange". I couldn't help but laugh.
"He just used the pathetic excuse that I'm human" I rolled my eyes.
"But Bella, you are human"
"I know that Jake, but the beats my heart makes are numbered"
"I'll fight for you until it does"
"I know that Jake, but look at us.... This isn't me acting like I'm getting married". I shook my head in disgust at myself.
"I would say I'm sorry... but I'm so not" Jake smirked, very smugly.
I suddenly felt very empty.
"Jake...." I said, still twisting Elisabeth Mason's ring on my finger.
"Bells..." he stopped, at a loss of what to say. "I'll always be here, I know that you love the leech, but you love me too, don't you forget it..." He hugged me, stroking my hair.
Knowing that I loved him, made more of a difference than I ever would have thought.

Soon, a polite, but firm knock at the door interrupted us.
I knew, that Edward was back and that It was decision time.

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Ps. This one is a little long! But it just got out of hand. I borrowed a few of my favourite Eclipse moments for this one too. I am planning a new vote... it didn't fit into this chapter tho.
Decisions, decisions, decisions. LOL
Xoxo B.