(A/N: I would just like to make a note or two. I'm aware that Sesshomaru is incredibly OOC in this story, although is it not true that it is incredibly OOC of him to fall in love with a human at all? Just think of it as, he's finally allowed himself to feel where he only allowed himself to hate, and finally when he found happiness with someone, that happiness was taken from him. Once you open the flood gates it's hard to close them again. And now his happiness may have come back and he's afraid of what that may mean, afraid that he was just imagining it and that she's not back, or afraid that she is and that if she's back it means he may have to loose her again. Lol, I know it's nothing like he normally is, but hopefully you like the change anyways. At some point or another he's going to act exactly according to character…but it won't be a good thing at that point in the story. Enjoy the chapter. I warn you it is extremely OOC, keep those reviews coming, I love hearing from you all. Suggestions are also welcome)

"SESSHOMARU! OI…SESSHOMARU WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?! This house is like a freaking maze…way to goddamned big for his own good…not secluding himself at all, oh no, has a friggin country for a house." I could hear Inuyasha grumbling from my front hall way. I leaned over the banister directly above him.

"Inuyasha." I called out to get his attention.

"Come." I gestured towards the staircase.

"I'm not a dog!" He responded gruffly.

Ignoring him, I turned and walked back to my study. I could hear Inuyasha trudging up the stairs behind me, grumbling all the way. I knew however that this was all an act. It was simply easier for us to get along if we acted like we only tolerated each other. After so many decades, actually admitting that we cared for each other as brothers should, may prove to be more than we could handle. Unknown territories should sometimes be left un-tread.

I pushed back the screen door to my study and entered, Inuyasha hot on my trail. As I settled myself onto one of the many cushions lining the floors I looked back at him only to see that he had stopped completely in the door way, looking around eyes wide open. I realised at that moment that I had never invited him in here before. No one but myself had ever seen this room. He was scanning the entire space, eyes resting on all of the familiar artefacts of the past, his gaze resting for a particularly long time on the portrait of my dear Rin. He gave me a look. A look told me that he was worried about me, that he was afraid I was just destroying myself more by keeping her memory so close to me. He of course was wrong. Without her I had nothing.

"So whats up? How come you called me over?" He plopped himself down rather ungracefully onto one of my ornate cushions placing his hands on his knees, elbows facing outward.

I considered how to answer this. I knew what I wanted to tell him, but how could I possibly explain. What if he thought I was going crazy?

"Well? Out with it!" Apparently I had been considering for a tad too long.

"Sesshomaru, if you didn't want to talk to me about anything why did you call me over?"

"I saw Rin…"

He sighed a little and looked at me with sympathy.

"I know that you want her back, that you still miss her and love her…but she's not coming back. Sesshomaru she's gone."

"No brother you don't understand. I saw her, truly I did. Stop looking at me like that! I swear. I was at her grave this afternoon bringing her flowers as always, only this time a woman was there. Inuyasha I swear to you it was Rin. That was her name. She had Rin's scent, her walk, her looks, her smile, she WAS Rin. I don't know how, believe me I've tried to figure it out, but she's back I guarantee it"

He looked at me like he still believed that I had finally lost it.

"Please…believe me. This is killing me, I really need your help. I don't know what to do…" I put my head in my hands, my entire body slumped. I felt an incredible weight settle onto my shoulders. God what was I supposed to do? I had to believe she was back. I died when she died, and I wanted to live again. I could feel tears welling up behind my closed eyes. God, now I was going to cry in front of my younger brother. How low could I sink. I was already pathetically empty and now my strength was failing. I didn't want him to see me as this weak person I was becoming. The tears came unbidden, slipping from behind my eyes. Not even closed lids or the hands cupped over them could stop the flow. Inuyasha remained silent. I couldn't hear him moving, could barely hear him breathing. He was probably waiting for the best possible moment to leave.

I didn't care anymore. I had never allowed myself to feel before Rin. Never allowed myself to love, feel happiness, pain, or sorrow. Now that she was gone all I was capable of feeling was sorrow, and I couldn't take it anymore.

Inuyasha had begun to move, rustling around gently. Probably getting ready to sneak away. I kept my head down, allowing him to go without guilt if that is what he wished. Though what he did do surprised me completely.

Suddenly there was a presence at my side, arms wrapped themselves around my shoulders, and his face was pressed against my back. I felt something snap within me, setting my desperation free. I could feel the tears falling freely now, small sobs forming in the back of my throat, my chest constricting painfully. He just held on tighter. I turned into the embrace, not exactly going so far as to hold him back, but allowing myself to rest my head on his shoulder.

"I believe you…We'll figure this out, I promise." I pulled back from him a bit and wiped at my eyes with the backs of my hands, nodding at him as I did so.

"We'll go find her first. I'll have to see her before I can help you do anything about it."

I sniffed back the last of my tears feeling some of that great weight lifting off of my shoulders. Ya, we could do this. We would find her, discover the secret to her survival, and make her remember me so that I could love her and be with her once again.

"Thank you. You don't know how much I appreciate this." He clapped his hand down onto my shoulder in reassurance, trying to give us both back a bit of our male pride I suppose. I matched his movement and offered up a small fleeting smile in return.

After the few minutes we had taken to collect ourselves and pretend that we had never done anything less than 'manly', we decided to meet up the next day at Rin's resting place and see if her 'reincarnation' would appear once again. I was afraid to hope for the best, but found that I couldn't help myself. I was almost excited by the prospect of even possibly seeing her the next day. So excited that I couldn't sit still. After Inuyasha left I tried to eat, tried to sleep, tried to meditate, tried to do anything really. I found that all I could think about was finding Rin again. I ran hundreds of scenarios through my mind of us finally being reunited, each one better than the last. I knew in the back of my mind that I was setting myself up for disappointment, but even though I knew the chances of seeing her two days in a row in the same place were slim, I just couldn't bring myself to care. Couldn't bring myself to dim my excitement and hope.

Even after so many long years, I had not quite learned how to control this new ability to feel. Not feeling anything at all was an easy state to control, not having to care, not having to worry, nothing affecting my ability to calculate options with a strictly analytical mind. This was so much more difficult. The uncertainty alone was enough to drive any person mad. There was no turning this flood of emotions off. I took a few deep calming breaths making one last attempt to push them back behind that wall inside my head that had caged them all so well once upon a time.

I never did manage to sleep a wink that past night. My mind was reeling far to quickly to quite it to the degree in which is required for one to sleep. Inuyasha and I had planned to meet at Rin's resting place at noon. I had seen the "reincarnation" of Rin shortly after my lunch hour the previous day so it seemed logical that if she was going to re-appear there it would be in during the same general time. I however had been awake and ready to go since four a.m. It had been murder trying to occupy my time for nearly 7 hours.

Inuyasha finally showed up at my home, mere minutes before we were meant to depart, yawning widely and struggling to keep his eyes open.

"Just woke up didn't you?"

"Hey, I'm here aren't I? Your lucky I'm awake at all."

"Inuyasha if weren't interested in helping why did you come?" He crossed his arm at this scowling at me a little.

"Lets just go, we're loosing valuable time."

"Alright alright, you don't have to get all pissy." He turned on his heel and leapt up on to the nearest building. I paused for not but a moment before following close behind him.

(A/N: Off to find dear Rin. Should they find her this time?)