As Jacob found his way back to my lips I felt a moment of complete peace. My usually frantic mind could only think of him, and I felt complete. Things now, were never going to be the same and a bolt of excitement ran through me like electric.

"Bella." Jacob groaned in a rough voice, his face falling to my neck.

I closed my arms tighter around his back, "Jake."

He dug his forehead slightly into my shoulder, "There's something I need to tell you."

"What?" I asked, planting small kisses along his hot neck.

"I … I didn't want you to … you need to know that …"

Jacobs stumbling alarmed me, I pulled away, still holding him close, to face him, "Jacob, what?"

"Edward, he .. he's back … he came back yesterday."

My moment of peace was lost. My forehead began to ache and black haze covered my vision. I felt my control slip away and my limps fell heavily to my side.

"Bella? Bella?" Jake called, taking my face in his palms, a look of total panic appearing on his face.

"He's .." My throat was dry, "He's back?"

"Yes, him Carlisle, all of them. I don't know why, but Quil and Embry saw them yesterday in town …"

"Jake, why did you tell me?" I asked suddenly, not sure why.

"I thought … I didn't want you to find out by someone on the street and I thought you needed to know." Jacob pulled away slightly his head lowering towards the floor. "I'm telling you know, because I know it will change things, and I thought you should know before anything else between me and you happened .. I don't know."

And there it was, laid out before me. Why I had asked the question, the worry at the back of my mind. Would Edwards return affect what moments ago I was clinging onto, never wanting to let go.

"Jacob, I … I don't know if it does." Tears began falling from my eyes, I felt him slip away.

"Bella, I understand. He was …" Jacob let out a frustrated sigh and squinted his eyes in concentration, " He was a big part of you life, I know. Don't worry about anything. I'll just go." He pulled away and began heading for the door.

My body wouldn't move, the shock was still rendering my muscle still. I called out his name but it only escaped as a whisper. He was walking away, my Jacob. My heart pounded.

"Jacob, don't!" I pleaded, my voice finding volume this time.

"Bells, I'll come back. Just think about it. I shouldn't stay. I will come back."

And he left. The door shut and I was left alone. Slowly my body slid of the top of the kitchen counter and onto the floor. A wave of nausea flew over me. My head was pulsing in agony. I needed him back.

The tears came quicker and my body began to shake in between sobs. I sat for what felt like forever, trying hard not to cry.

Suddenly a knock came at the door. Before I could even attempt to stand Alice had already walked in.

"Oh Bella. Bella are you okay?" She asked, frantically checking over my body for injury's, "I had a vision, I came over here as fast as I could, what's wrong?"

I tilted my head towards her, still in shock from her presence. I loved Alice and seeing her for the first time in over a year was a lot to handle, "I … Edward's back … J-J Jacob left... I..."

"Bella what has Jacob done?" She asked with a utterly serious look.

I drew my eyebrows in confusion, "Nothing, Jacobs done nothing wrong. Edward came back, so he left …"

"He hasn't hurt you, are anything like that?"

"No! Why would you think that?" Frustration brewed within me, why was she so quick to blame Jacob for the state I was in. It was Edward I was annoyed at, why return now, just when things felt complete.

"Your upset, why is it that your upset?"

I didn't really know, I felt lonely, scared, rejected, "Why have you come back?"

"The hospital rang Carlisle, they where having some trouble with a previous patient of his. Something about the patients subscription, I don't know, but they wanted him to come and sort it out

if he could. Carlisle thought it wouldn't hurt to pay Forks a visit, plus I haven't had a vision about you in a long time. Not knowing how you where was driving us all mad, especially Edward."

"Alice, take me to him." I demanded suddenly, not knowing why.

"Why Bella? Do you think it's a good idea?"

"Yes it's fine. I need to see him if he's here, please Alice."

She nodded taking me by the hands and gently pulling me to my feet. I grabbed my thick winter coat and headed for the door.

Parked on the house drive was a brand new yellow Porch.

Alice chuckled slightly, noticing my taking back expression as I examined the car she stated, "Edward, a birthday present."

I shrugged, instead of commenting on what a ridiculous present a Porch was. There was no time for small talk as within minutes (thanks to Alice's need for speed) we were at the Cullen's house. Their old house, I guess. I never knew if they had sold on the grand lot, I guess I knew now.

I stepped out the car questioning my visit here. The house look vacant and different but slowly the memory's began flooding back. Before I could run and turn back, Edward had already appeared outside. Alice quickly excused herself and disappeared inside, leaving us alone.

I stared at him speechless, everything had happened so fast and I hadn't had time to prepare myself for this moment. I didn't know what I wanted to say. Surprisingly, I didn't break. I hadn't seen Edward in over a year, the man had left me broken and lost. Seeing him now for the first time didn't evoke the emotions I was sure I would feel.

Edward looked different. I know it was impossible for his physical appearance to change but it was almost as if he had lost his glow. That glow that always seemed to radiate of him, the one that drew me in and kept me memorised by his being. To me now, he just looked like a normal boy, someone I could of known. The only emotion I felt towards him now was slight anger and irritation. What right did he have in returning?

"Bella." He called quietly, closing the gap between his, producing a beautiful smile.

Except the beautiful smile irritated me further.

"How are you Bella?" He asked softly, still smiling.

I continued to stare at him, not knowing what to say. What could I say when there was nothing to say.

"I'm … I'm fine. You know I'm just going to go … good to see you again." I mumbled pulling away turning my back and heading down the drive.

"Wait." He called, chuckling slightly. "Don't you want to come inside. Everyone I know, would love to see you … and well I would love to see you."

Snap. Something inside of me snapped, epiphany flew over me. "Would you Edward? Then why the hell did you leave and choose today, a year after to come see me? You left me hurting like nothing I felt before. Why, why did you leave and not even come back when my world was black?" I gasped for breathe feeling the tears return, "Seeing you now has made me realise that I don't even want to see you again. You were a blip in my life. Your not the same to me any more Edward, and I'm sorry, but you have no one but yourself to blame for that."

With that I turned around again and marched down the drive, leaving him open mouthed and speechless.

I walked quickly out of their drive and began travelling back down the roads that would lead me home. Gradually the tears removed themselves from my face, and freedom replaced the anger. I was free. Free to love who I wanted. Free to be with Jacob without ever thinking about the other.

About an hour later I had crossed the border between Vampire and Werewolf territory, and I continued my walk towards La Push. My legs were heavy and I was exhausted but neither that or the bitter cold air could stop me. I was just grateful that the Black's house was so close to the boarder.

The part just outside La Push was beautiful, thick forest's stretched out forever. The tree tops where still covered with a light dusting of snow that had fallen a few day's ago. I breathed in the fresh winter air as the cold sun hit my face.

Suddenly the ripping sound of a motorcycle pierced the air, seconds later Jacobs black bike came skidding down the road stopping suddenly by my side.

He pulled of his helmet and turned towards me, still sitting on his bike, "It's freezing Bella, get on quick."

"How did you …"

"I'll tell you later, here." He said placing the helmet in my hands, "You need it more then me."

I took the helmet and placed it on my head. I swung my leg over the bike and sat behind Jacob.

"Hold on." He ordered, kicking the bike to life.

I clung my arms around is back and naturally placed my head against his shoulders. His heat was so comforting in the bitter weather. I breathed in his scent as we travelled down the road towards his house. I whispered a thank you realising he had not decided to just take me home.

Minutes later we arrived outside his house. I slid of the bike and Jacob followed. He took the helmet off me and placed it on the floor, he then turned and headed inside.

I could sense that there was something off with him, maybe he knew where I had been. Still, I didn't care because I knew what I wanted now, without a doubt.

I closed the door behind me noticing the empty house, I followed Jacob into the front room and watched him slump into the couch.

"Quill was having a run through the forest and saw you. He thought it was weird that you where walking outside of La Push on your own so he came back and called me. That's how I knew where you were."

I nodded and sat down besides him, "Jake I …"

"Bella …" He interrupted, "It doesn't matter, I understand. You want me to take you back?"

My eyebrows drew in confusion, "What? No. I …"

"You don't need to explain Bella, I know things have changed." He stated turning his gaze away from me.

My breathing increased, "No I do need to explain because nothing has changed." I replied moving closer and taking his face in my palms, forcing his head towards me, "I went to see … him and nothing has changed. I don't know why I went and I know it was stupid but Jake … I can live the rest of my life without seeing him and I know it wouldn't effect me one bit. Jacob I want you, whether he is here or not."

Jacobs eyes searched my face. He looked confused and lost. All I wanted to do was reassure him that everything was okay. That what had happened before at my house still counted. I wanted him back.

I leant forward and kissed him gently on his lips, hoping he would respond. Seconds later his lips kissed back. My heart warmed again, knowing I was home.