A.N. Wow two chapters in one day =) This one is rather....crazy, illogical; basically everything I love to write when I don't think about it. If you don't understand it- don't worry because I don't either. I just hope you take something out of it. And maybe review?!
SPOILERS: None really =)
Disclaimer: I don't own any NCIS characters and I don't own the truly amazing song Listen to the Rain by Evanescence
Listen to the Rain
I was shaking and even though I was standing in the middle of a storm it wasn't from the cold. The rain poured all around me, soaking my hair, my clothes, my soul.
The noise of it hitting the ground was echoing around my head, swirling into beautiful patterns that were making me crazy and with a silent curse to the sky which was echoed with a deafening clap of thunder, I sat on the wet ground.
"Why can't you save me?" I whispered to the rain falling around me and I couldn't tell who I was asking. Gibbs, Tony, Aba, Ari, Tali, Ima and their names were swirling around in my head and I held onto them tightly because at that moment it made me feel closer to them and right then I needed someone to be close to or my whole little world would go spinning off into nowhere. I clung to every piece of insanity that would keep me sane as I stopped my muttering that to anyone walking by might sound like a prayer. To me it was.
I stood up, knowing that the world might look a tiny bit smaller if I could only get to my feet.
I stood there with the rain pouring around me, soaking my hair, my clothes, my soul.
When I heard the whisper behind me I thought I was truly going crazy. It was whispered in a voice I knew better than my own. In a voice that had whispered so many things to me over the years.
"It's okay Zi. I've got your back remember, I've always got your back." Tony's voice seemed to slip into the noise of the rain and as the thunder picked up, a bright flash of lightning always just before it, I couldn't hear him at all.
"I'm still here with you," he said during a break in the thunderous storm. "Just listen to the rain," he whispered and rather than hearing the words it was like I could feel them, pulsing through me and filling me.
Finally, when my fragile little world seemed so much less breakable, I sank back into his warm, soaked body.
We stood there with the rain pouring around us, soaking our hair, our clothes and bringing us closer in a way I had never felt before.
Maybe everything would be okay.
Like I said, completely insane but if you enjoyed it, got it, got bits of it, didn't understand a single thing then...REVIEW and make me happy.
Jules.