A/N: Okay, this will be my last post for 2 weeks! :O I'm going to camp, so... no updates. :( This chapter is once again for Madmaddy12345! :D You rock! Yesterday, I had 44 views- only 2 people reviewed. :( I'm sad- more reviews= more chapters and updates!

3rd Person

When Justin and Max entered her room, Alex sat up straighter and flipped off the TV. "Hey, Lex. What's wrong?" Justin asked her.

"Oh nothing really... You know, just hanging in a hospital."

"Seriously, Alex, what is it?"

"Yeah, the nurse said your heart rate went crazy. I'm not sure what that is, but I think it's a bad thing," Max added in.

"I want to know... What exactly happened? What's so bad about this? No one's told me anything except I have a broken leg, and I'm... dying," Alex demanded, whispering the last part.

Max looked around uncomfortably and sat down on a pale green armchair. Justin sighed and sat at the end of her bed. "Alex," Justin started, "you attempted suicide, when you get out of here I'll be very surprised if you don't have to goto a psychiatrist or something."

Alex made a face and cut in, "So? Just let me go. Yeah, I was dumb, whatever. I shouldn't be on my possible deathbed". Max started crying when she said 'deathbed'.

"So, you know you jumped. When you landed, your leg collapsed under you. Your head hit a shard of glass. It cut who knows how deep into your head. The paramedics in the ER got it out, but they're 90% sure it cut into your brain. It's messing up your heart, breathing, all that stuff. Why do you think it's so hard to talk or keep your eyes open? You lost a ton of blood and went into shock."

"And," Max whispered, "you died."

"I died? What are you talking about, Maxie? If I died, I wouldn't be here."

"In, in the ambulance. You... died. They used those shockers on you... I saw you die," he repeated.

Alex started crying with Max. "Listen, Maxie, I'm going to fight. I'm gonna try my hardest to get my brain to heal. I'll have surgery, take gross medicine, whatever. But it's taking all of my energy out just to tell you this. I'm gonna try, but I don't think I'm gonna make it."

"Don't say that!" Max yelled at her.

"You can go home now if you want," Alex whispered, picking a nail.

Justin followed a crying Max out of the room. When she was sure they were gone, she opened an unused history journal that had been with the optional homework Justin brought for her. She ripped out 6 pages of paper and titled each one with, Dad, Mom, Max, Justin, Harper, Dean.

Dad, she wrote.

I'm still incredibly mad at you as I write this, but if you ever read this, I won't be able to be mad anymore. I heard everything you said about adopting me. Even though I think you should have told me, I'm glad I did all of that for you and Mom. I know I was dumb and overreacted, but why'd you say that to me? You're always like, 'Oh, I love you. Your Daddy's Little Girl.' And then you go and say I'm unwanted? But, thanks for telling me, at least now I know.

I love you, and thanks for loving me,

Alexandra

She then ripped off the picture of her in the red dress and folded it in with it.\

She did the same with her mom.

Mom,

I want you to know I love you. I am still beyond mad, but I love you. You've always been there for me even if you were busy. I really don't know what more to write.

I will always love you,

Alexandra

~*~

Max,

Hey, Maxie! If you're reading this, I'm not here anymore. Don't be sad though. I'm in a better place and don't have any pain. I feel so much better there. So don't be sad, I love you so much. Even though I'm adopted, your still my little brother. I will always be there for you and watching over you.

Hugs and Kisses,

Alex

~*~

Justin,

Hey, you dork! You'll only get to read this if I'm dead, so if your reading this, I'm obviously dead. (Duh!) But I still love you. Even though I always call you a dork, nimrod, egg head, nerd.... (All of which you are) You're my big brother. You always help me out of problems, and I love you.

Love Always,

Alex

~*~

Harper,

Harper, if your reading this, I'm dead. But please, do me one last huge favor, and don't be upset. I'm not suffering anymore, and I feel so much better. If no one has told you why I jumped yet, I'll tell you. Friday night, my parents just told me I was adopted. My dad and I got into a huge fight, and... I jumped. I know, stupid, right? But, promise to never forget me because I'll never forget you. You're my best friend.

ILYLASSM (I love you like a sister so much),

Lexi

~*~

Dean,

I'm so glad we started dating. Even though it was a short, it was probably the most amazing time of my life. Please, promise to remember me. Go on with life, and date other girls. (Never thought I'd say that :) ) But never forget that I love you.

XOXOXOXOXO

Alex

~*~

In her mom's, Alex put a picture (from the card) of her mom holding her when Alex was two. Alex was pulling her hair, and looked like she was screaming happily. In Max's, the picture of her holding him. Justin got the one of her on his back. Harper had a picture of the two of them- probably 9 or 10- hugging each other and giving the other one bunny ears. Dean got the most recent, it was of them holding hands on their first date at the skate rink. How the boys got that, she had no idea.

Then she put them all in a box that had held a stuffed bear from Harper. She labeled it 'Letters' and shoved it under her bed. The staff would find it if the time came. Alex then shut her eyes, ready to face whatever came.

So? What'd you think? Good? Bad? LET ME KNOW! I love you all so much, and am sooooo sad I won't be able to update! Go paint a picture of a squirrel or something. Also, should I make Alex die- ending the story or let her live- opening up tons of options? Let me know in your REVIEWS! :D

XOXOXOXOXO

Capitan

Killeeeee

Signing off!

PS- What you think of Wizards on Deck Blah Blah Blah? I can't believe WOWP only was in 2 episodes! Grr!!! But I like how they morphed the theme songs! Love yall! Adios!