Chapter 6
As i laid on my bed i couldnt help but spend a few minutes thinking about the past day. Jasper. It hurt to even think his name. I knew i had never been good enough for him and still when i saw that he had cheated on my i felt stupid and ignorant. How could i not have noticed the looks they gave eachother or something? I mean it couldnt have been a spurr of the momment thing. Alice had obviously knew about it and she didnt even try to warn me. Edward had driven me home with a promise to pick me up for school tomorrow so that i wouldnt have to face Jasper alone.
I could not feel the pain. Only numbness. My entire being was consumed with the hurt that so severly drenched me in pain. I looked out of my window and saw it was raining. It seemed only to be drizzling. I stood up and walked down the stairs and into the front yard in only my PJs, a worn tank top and holey sweats. I lay down on the drive way instantly drenched in water and looked up at the sky. The dark storm clouds looked menacing and cold. I must be a sight. Sitting out on the driveway while it was pouring rain in the middle of hte night.
"Your going to catch a cold" I heard a soft voice that i could have recognized anywhere. I looked to the side and saw the honey blonde curls.
"Please just leave me alone Jasper." I whispered pulling my knees up and hugging them resting my head in the middle away from the wind.
"Bella, love, please. Im so sorry. It was a momment of weakness. Alice came on to me and i, i dont know Bella, i dont know what do you want me to say? Ill do anything to get your forgivness." He looked at me silently pleading. I just shook my head in disbelief. I stood up brushing my self off and tucking strands of hair behind my ears. I walked up to him and looked at his eyes. I wrapped my arms around his neck for the last time savoring the feeling of being loved and then pulled apart from him.
"I will always love you Jazz" With that i kissed him quickly on the cheek and struggled to keep quiet as i walked back up the stairs dripping wet. My eyes closed and still the tears slipped on heart wrenching sobs consuming me.
How could he do that to me? He told me he love me, that he would never hurt me. I felt hurt and just wrong. I loved him so completly and now it was over. I lay down and pulled the covers up biting down on them to keep from sobbing the tears slipped on and on endlessly even in the morning i could not stop them.
I got into the shower and brushed me hair pulling on black skinny jeans, a long sleeved green sweater and a black over coat with pink rain boots, and big red puffy eyes and got into my car not bothering to tell Edward i wouldnt need a ride. I drove to the edge of a cliff. I looked over the edge.
And i jumped off.