A/N: Thanks for all who support me and as promised, twists are coming!!!
Disclaimer: I own nothing Twilight. Only Jace and Violet.
Chapter Eight: Mother May I? VPOV
He's standing alone with the gun in his hand
Why am I the man, why am I the man?
Brother of mine take this away
I'm sick of this life of pain
A few weeks passed without incident. I was beginning to get used to having a supernatural boyfriend and his supernatural family. I rode to school with Jace and stayed with him at his house because Kevin had gotten arrested and would be in jail for the better part of a few months. Even though it wasn't safe to be home alone with Kevin, I was scared to stay at home alone by myself. And Jace was more than happy to have me with him all the time. Emmett was still being an ass as always and Renesmee and I were starting to get really close.
"It bothers you that I hang out with your mom so much, doesn't it?" I asked Jace as we stepped into his bedroom after the end to a long, Wednesday. Taking my hands in his he replied, "No, I think its great that you two hang out." From somewhere downstairs I head Emmett yell, "Liar!!!" "Shut the hell up!!!" Jace screamed. Giggling I reached up and kissed Jace on the cheek. "You're funny when you're upset. Not to mention so terribly cute," I whispered in his ear. I giggled when he tried to kiss me, pulling away. "No kisses right now, we have homework," I said, skipping over to my book bag and taking it over to the couch. Taking out my homework I began to act like I was trying, Jace came and sat beside me. "No, we are going to kiss now. Because I said so," he playfully growled, knocking my book to the floor and then pressing his lips to mine. Knowing that he was only teasing I kissed him back, his hands crawling up my back. When he tried to take my jacket off I knew I had to stop him. Pulling back I panted, "No, Jace. We really do have stuff do to and I don't feel comfortable doing that when your family is here." "Ughhhh, why? They'll leave, I'll make them," he replied, his face looked like he was really sad. "No, Jace. Maybe after we do some other stuff but not right now," I said, picking my book up off the floor I began really doing my homework. "Fine then," he said like he was kind of pissed off but I knew he was only kidding. After our homework Esme made us come eat. It was delicious, I loved having her as our cook. When we were done eating we decided to watch a movie with the rest of his family. Sitting in Jace's lap on the couch I felt so comfortable and at peace, I didn't want to ever move. Jace began kissing the back of my head, moving onto my neck. When he started trying to give me a hickie I rolled my shoulders in an attempt to stop him. "No, Jace, stop," I said. "Sorry," he said. Laying back onto his chest I closed my eyes and suddenly felt myself being flown up the stairs at an incredible speed. Sitting me down Jace glanced at his feet like he was getting scolded by his mom. Looking up he looked me in the eyes, "Violet, please tell me why you don't want to kiss me anymore." He sounded like he had been shot in the heart he was so sad. "Its not that I don't want to kiss you Jace, its just knowing that your family can hear EVERYTHING we say and do makes me uncomfortable. I really do love you Jace, you're my soul mate. I love you," I said, leaning up and kissing him on the lips. Pulling back he cupped my face in his hands, staring me in my eyes. "Hold on a second," he said. He left the room for a split second and then came back. "What did you do," I asked. Smiling, he deviously replied, "Lets just say my family won't be home for a few hours." Smiling he reached down and pulled me into the bed with him, where we didn't get up from until the morning.
In the morning Jace and I got up Jace and I took separate showers and got ready for the day. When we were eating breakfast I suddenly felt really sick. Doubling over I vomited all over Esme's clean marble floor, before I could get anything else out Jace ran me over to the sink and held my hair back as I vomited again. After one more time I finally felt like my guts weren't going to come out anymore so Jace got me something to drink. Wiping my mouth on a towel Carlisle came over and asked me how I was feeling. "Horrible, I don't know why I got sick all of a sudden," I replied. "Probably stress or something you ate," he replied back, handing my something and telling me to swallow it. Doing as he said he asked, "Do you feel well enough to go to school?" I nodded yes, Jace took my hand in his, turning me so that I was facing him. Pressing his chest close to mine he asked, "Are you sure, we could stay home today in case you get sick again." "No, Jace, we need to go to school, let's go," I said, pulling his hand to the direction of the door. Following me out the door we hollered a hasty "goodbye" to his family and got into my car. Pulling out of the driveway I suddenly remembered something. "Jace, what day is today?" I asked, horrified. "The thirteenth," he said calmly, "Why?" "Oh, nothing. I was just wondering," I replied. But inside my mind I was freaking out. My period was almost two weeks late… I had always been on time and now I wasn't and include the puking and tell me what you think. Damn, I was pregnant wasn't I? I was scared to death to tell Jace, what would he think? Would he like me anymore, would he leave like so many other girl's boyfriends did when they found out they were pregnant? Or I could have just been imagining things, I couldn't possibly be pregnant. Jace and I had been safe… When we got to school I was in a tranquil state, Jace had to shake me to get my attention. "Are you sure you're alright Violet?" he asked, staring me deep into my eyes. "Yes," I lied, getting out of the car and practically running for homeroom. As the day wore on I sank into a shell of remorse, I didn't want to tell Jace but yet again I did. I just couldn't decide which one was the right option. When school ended we walked into the parking lot, my hands hugged across my chest because it was so cold.
What happened next was possibly the worst moment in my entire life. A beautiful girl stepped out from behind a tree, wrapping her arms around Jace and giving him a big kiss on the lips. She had dark almond eyes and beautiful almost black hair. My heart stopped when I saw it, I felt like someone had shot me. My mouth pulled open in shock, even when Jace pulled quickly out of their embrace, he hesitated-like he wanted to keep on kissing her. Pulling my keys out of my bag I nearly ran to my car, tears pouring down my face. How could Jace do this to me? He was supposed to be my soul mate but after what I just saw I knew it was all a lie. Not even thirty feet away from Jace and the girl he ran to me and grabbed me by my arm. Looking at his face I yelled at him, "You ass hole! I thought you loved me, now I see I was wrong." Ripping my arm out of his grip I ran the rest of the way to my car, getting in and driving as fast as I could to my house, leaving Jace standing there with a shocked look on his face.
Getting home I ran into my room, slamming the door and collapsing on my bed. Screaming at the top of my lungs I asked the world why it had to be so cruel. Then feeling sick to my stomach I ran to the bathroom, where the contents of my stomach were entered into the toilet. Wiping my mouth on a towel I looked up at myself in the mirror. My makeup was smeared, my hair frizzed everywhere. I was a wreck. No wonder Jace would choose that other girl rather than me. Going back to my bedroom I lay down and cried, blacking out. When I woke up it was about an hour later. Dried tears stained my face and I began to realize just how stupid I was. That could have just been some random girl kissing Jace and here I was making a complete idiot of myself by not even talking to him about it. Going into the bathroom I pulled up my shirt and looked at my stomach. Did it suddenly look bigger or something? Rubbing my hand across it I decided I had to tell Jace about my conspiracy. Pulling my shirt down and wiping the smeared eyeliner and tears off my cheeks I made my way to my car. Pulling out of the driveway I felt proud of my self. Proud that I hadn't cut myself. Normally in a situation like this I would have but for some strange reason I hadn't. Pulling up Jace's long driveway I tried to calm myself down. Would he still want me?-even after what I had called him. Coming to a stop I saw someone flash out of the door and run to my car. When the person got to my car I wished I would have stayed at home, it was the girl that had kissed Jace. "What are you doing here, emo girl?" asked the beautiful girl, her silken hair rippling in the breeze. "I just came by to talk to Jace," I replied, trying not to let myself cry. Jace would probably choose her and not me. "Well Jace said that he never wanted to see you again, he hates you, everything was just a lie. He loves me, not you," she said, a satisfied smirk bestowing her perfect lips. I felt like someone had taken a jackhammer and slammed open my heart and ripped it into a thousand pieces. "W-what?" I said, completely shocked. While I had been suspecting him to do something like that the reality of it all shocked me. "You heard me, he hates you. So leave," she said, whirling around and flouncing back into the house. Before entering it she looked back and gave me a satisfied smirk. I couldn't breathe, I couldn't think, I couldn't do anything. I needed Jace in my life more than anything. I loved him, I needed him like I needed air. Without him I would die, I knew I would. By then the sky was crying itself, like millions of tiny tears they cried with me. Driving back to my house I nearly ran off the road a few times, who would care if I died though? The only person in the world who I thought ever wanted me didn't anymore. Getting out of my car I fell in the mud, only to lay there-looking up at the sky like it would help solve my problems. Crying out to the heavens I decided I didn't want to live anymore. Getting up slowly I made my way up to my room and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked horrendous, no wonder Jace didn't want me. Becoming angry at the image in the mirror I hit it with my fist, shattering glass everywhere. The cuts didn't bring me the usual satisfaction they always did, they only made the pain worse. Clutching my hand close to my stomach the tears and blood from my hand mixed together in a pool on the floor. I had to end the pain once and for all. Before I did it though I had to do something. Grabbing my cell phone I dialed Jace's cell phone number-it went straight to his voice mail. "Jace, I just wanted to let you know that since you don't want me anymore I've decided I can't live at all. And I'm not. By the time you get this I'm sure everyone will know about my death. I just hope you know that you're the one who caused it. I hope you suffer as much as I did," I spoke into the phone in a tearful sob. Hanging up I clutched my stomach in my hands.
I was sorry that my unborn child would never see the world, would never get to see its dad or mom. But it would go to heaven where it belonged. Hopefully I could be with it. I loved my child but I just couldn't live with the pain anymore, but killing it myself would mean killing it. Should I do this? I asked myself. I didn't want my kid to grow up without a dad and in the circumstance I was in I knew I couldn't raise a child. It would be better for both of us if we both died. It would never have to suffer like I did. I didn't want it to, I had suffered enough for the both of us. Getting up off the floor I walked into Kevin's room. I knew he had a pistol somewhere in there and a few minutes after looking I found it. Opening it I saw that it was already loaded-good. Walking to my room I tried to calm my breathing down, I could do this. Jace didn't love me anymore, I had nothing else to live for. Not even the tiny baby growing inside of me. Putting the gun up to my chest I squeezed my eyes shut, no longer would I have to live with the pain and suffering-it would all go away. But what if I missed my heart and it didn't kill me? Deciding I didn't want to take that chance I put the gun up to my head, right between my eyes. Squeezing them shut I took what would be my last breath, my finger inched towards the trigger. My fingers touched the trigger, my adrenaline made my heart beat wildly. I could do this. Right when I was about to pull the trigger a warm hand snatched the gun out of my hand and slung it on the floor. Opening my eyes I could barely believe what I saw, my guardian angel had come to save me. Jace.
With a bewildered looking expression on his face he yelled, "What in the hell is wrong with you, Violet? You were going to kill yourself? What do you mean by I don't want you anymore? I never said that, I love you!" Tears filling his eyes he gripped my hands in his, pressing me against the wall. "According to the girl you locked lips with you don't love me anymore. And seeing what I did I truly believe her. I can't believe you kissed her!" I said, anger rising in my voice, more tears coating my cheeks. "Leah, that bitch! She lied, Violet. I love you and no one but you. She lied and told you that because she wants me all to her self but I don't want her. So she tried to make you kill yourself so she could have me. don't believe the lie, Violet, believe the truth," he desperately said. Pressing his lips to mine all of the pain I had been feeling slipped away, the only thing in the world that I could feel was him. I wanted to believe him but I was scared to, what if he was lying? I wanted what he said to be true but I couldn't tell if it was. Pulling back from the kiss I looked into his sharp-blue orbs and replied, "Well tell me one thing, where were you at when I came by your house earlier. Why didn't you answer my call?" Sighing he began, "When I got to my house I was so angry at Leah for kissing me I went out for a run, I had my phone tied to my leg so I couldn't get to it when you called me. When I realized it was your ring tone I phased back and when I heard your voice mail I rushed back here as fast as I could. If I wouldn't have gotten here on time I don't think I would be able to live either, Violet. Please believe me." Seeing tears fall down his cheeks I did believe him. Pulling him into a kiss I tried to let all of my emotions pour out of me through that kiss. Anger, fear, sadness. His kiss felt the same. Feeling a flutter in my stomach I pulled out of the kiss suddenly. Placing my hand on my stomach I gasped. Jace asked me what was wrong. "Um, Jace, I'm not sure how to say something so promise me you won't get mad when I say it," I pleaded, sitting down on my bed. "Of course, Violet, I swear," he replied, sitting down beside me. "I just don't want you to leave me when I say this," I sobbed into his chest. I had to tell him though, he needed to know. "Jace, I think I'm pregnant," I blurted out the words. His face became shocked, like he didn't believe me. "What?" he asked, "Are you sure?" I nodded looking down at our intertwined hands. Jace stood up suddenly grabbing at his hair with his hands, "That bitch! She was going to make my love take her life and my child's! I'm going to kill her!" Standing up I looked into his eyes and tried to calm him down, "No, Jace. Its okay, I'm not dead. Neither is our baby, its fine. She doesn't deserve to die for that. Calm down please." By then his trembling had almost stopped completely. Snapping out of his trance like state he looked down, noticing my cut hand for the first time. "What happened to your hand, Violet?" he asked, his messy hair covering his eyes. "Um, I kind of broke my mirror with it," I replied sheepishly. "I need to get you to Carlisle so he can look at it," he said, grabbing my other hand-pulling me down the stairs. Getting into my car I handed him the keys so he could drive. The tears falling from the sky had stopped, luminous clouds only hung above the ever-present twilight.
Pulling into his driveway again I suddenly realized how much my hand was hurting. There was probably glass stuck in it-great. Parking the car we got out of the car and began walking to the porch. Leah came flouncing out of the house like she owned the damn place, her smug smile slipped off her face when she saw Jace wrap his arms around me. "So I see the little emo girl cut herself again," she said, a pissed look on her face. "Shut the hell up, Leah," I said, I hated this girl. She was going to make me kill myself and my child and possibly the love of my life! Stepping forward as fast as lighting she slapped me on my cheek, falling to the ground in pain Jace exploded into his giant-cat form, flying in the air towards her. Just as quickly she transformed into a grey wolf, smaller than Jace but still as fierce. When they started to move too fast for me to see they were a big, snarling blur. A russet blur flew towards their snarling bodies, getting in between them. Realizing the red wolf was Jacob I felt better. Standing between Jace and Leah he growled deeply at them, probably asking them what in the hell was going on. Jace didn't appear to be hurt but Leah had a nice claw mark raking down her side. Alice came rushing out of the house with clothes for them to change into once they phased back. Putting their clothes back on Jace walked over to me and took my hand in his. He was apparently pissed off severely and his frantic breathing and trembling only made me more scared than what I already was. His whole family gathered in the living room, Leah on one side of the room and Jace and I on the other, me in his lap. Carlisle stood in the middle of the room and said, "Would anyone care to explain what just what went on?" He was angry but was trying to keep calm and composed, Jasper looked like he was about ready to pull his hair out of his scalp. "That bitch tried to make Violet kill herself," Jace exploded. "That's not true! I didn't make her, she made that decision all by herself!" Leah shouted back, both her and Jace trembling. "Well she wouldn't have wanted to if you wouldn't have kissed me and then told her I didn't love her anymore!" Jace shouted back. Wrapping my arms around him I tried to calm him down some. Carlisle seemed to soak it all in. "And you could have taken my child away from me too! Do you have any idea what you've done?" he said. Shit!-why did those words have to come out of his mouth?
The room seemed to freeze, no one moved or said anything. Renesmee was the first one to speak, "You mean I'm a grandma?" Her mouth stood gaping open, her eyes glued to Jace and me. "Yeah, mom. You're a grandma," Jace said. "But we're not entirely sure yet," I added. Everyone's face had some form of shock on it, the tension was so thick I couldn't stand it. "Leah, I think you have some explaining to do," Jacob said, his alpha-voice loud and clear. I could literally see Leah tuck her tail between her legs. "I didn't think she would kill herself, I just wanted Jace for myself," she replied, "Like old times. I wanted to get back together with him," she said staring down at the floor, a look of complete regret on her face. "Leah, I have no choice but to say that you are never allowed around this house or family again," Jacob said completely in authority. "Please leave," he said. Getting up she walked slowly out of the door, looking back one last time before she disappeared out the door and into the woods. Carlisle then got the glass out of my hand and bandaged it up. Everyone then seemed to focus on me and the child that was hopefully growing in my stomach. I felt wonderful knowing that I still had the love of my life and a child that we could call our own. But would my child ever even make it to be born?
A/N: So how'd you like it? Please let me know! What was up with Leah and Jace and what did she mean by "I wanted to get back together with him"? More about Jace's pass shall soon be revealed and what did Violet mean by "but would my child ever even make it to be born"? Things are coming and they shall be tragic! So review please! And I might update sooner… The song that inspired this chapter is called Mother May I by Eatmewhileimhot! one of my favorite bands and songs of all time.