A/N: Yay! Chapter three! Note: The names of the chapters are mostly irrelevant to the actual story/ chapter. It's usually just because I'm listening to some friggin' good music and it's a song that I like/ am listening to when I'm posting the chapters.

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Three days later: Library

I wasn't thrilled that Edward hadn't contacted me or Alice at all since the dropping my off after dinner. He had been so... vulnerable. As if nothing could fix him. Something big had happened to Edward, something that, despite the closeness that I had with his sister, I didn't know about. And that something had left him broken. He covered it up well, I knew that. He did use to be normal. Not the crazy, driven by any girl he could get his hands on, rich boy that Edward had become. He now hung out with all the wrong people, namely girls whose names he could not remember. He used to have only two close friends, whom he cast out into the dust, like the innumerable amount of girls, or dates past. I knew he was the same person, deep, deep down inside. And on rare occasions, like at the Black's, he showed that.

"Earth to Bella! C'mon, wake up!" I heard a somewhat distant voice beg in the distance. My eyes focused on a familiar face in front of me. I flung my arms around his neck, and kissed his cheek.

"Felix! I can't believe it! I thought you went to some prestigious school! What was it? Oh right, Dartmouth. Why are you here?" I rushed out. It was always a great thing to see a long lost friend again.

"Oh, don't sound too disappointed. I promise it's only for a few days, and then you can go back to your 'Bella Bubble'." He smirked. "Oh, I'm here for the vacation. Yeah, we get those at Dartmouth, before you ask. Anyway, a few buddies of mine and I are on a road trip, I begged them to stop here for a few days. Just so that I could see you, Bells. And begging is very degrading for a guy." I smiled.

"That's great! Do you have a place to stay? I'm sure that Lilly would just love to see you. She's been fairly upset since her best friend moved away." I looped my arm through his, and started walking towards the exit of the Library.

"Nah, we have a huge hotel booked. It's absolutely amazing. The rooms are enormous."

"Yeah, okay. Brag if you want. Besides, I'm fairly certain that there is none of those in all of Washington State."

"I'm just kidding Bells; we have a motel lined up. But where is the squirt anyway?" He looked around him, after deciding that Lilly was not in fact there, he looked at me quizzically.

"She's at home. And before you start questioning why I'm insane enough to let a two year old be alone at the house, I hired a twelve year old to look after her." I smiled proudly. Felix rolled his eyes.

"Yes, because a twelve year old taking care of a two year old is so much better. I'm sure she's burnt the house down by now."

"Whatever. Hey, want to go out to lunch? I have the babysitter for a few more hours."

"I would love to." He leaned down and kissed my cheek. It wasn't as if we were dating. We had in the past, but that ended. Not badly, no one was hurt, it just ended. I got into my old beat up Chevy, the one that I had had since junior year in high school. Felix looked sceptically at the car, and climbed in. "Why do you still have this piece of" he cut off at my glare "rusty... metal...?"

"Because Trevor is my substitute boyfriend, he has treated me right."

"Ever think about getting a real boyfriend? Or at least go the classy way, and get a thousand cats."

"Shut up. Dating a car is perfectly normal. Where do you want to eat?"

"How about... that place over there?" He pointed to a small diner. I groaned. The onslaught of questions would begin. You see, what few people knew, was that the Edward Cullen, class A jerk, worked here. I put on my game face.

"Sure, sounds great." I pulled into the nearest parking spot. Felix wasn't oblivious, but he didn't make a remark about my apparent lack of want. We entered the restaurant and sat ourselves down at a private booth. Hopefully, Edward wasn't working today. He generally tended to man the booths. Of course, there was the telltale bronze bouffant, and sparkling green eyes that greeted us. God must hate me today.

"Hey, I'm Edward; I'll be your waiter today. What can I get you for starters? We have a new speciality, the Battered Artichoke Heart, smothered in a delectable red sauce, easily mistaken for blood." He smiled warmly at me, and glared at Felix. "Or the Treacherous Thai Noodles." I rolled my eyes. So creative Edward. Really, five stars.

"I'll just have a coke, thanks. Felix will have one too." He smirked, and left to get our drinks. "Sorry about that. Edward is just a jerk. I don't really know what he was talking about, but he sounded... angry. There's no lack of words, just, I think there is young children in the next booth." Felix chuckled and grabbed my hand.

"It's fine. So, let's talk about Lilly. How is she?" He was always so kind to me and Lilly. Sometimes, I hated that he was completely in love with his long time girlfriend, Jane. She loved him, he loved her. Love was so easy to them. I envied it.

"She's doing great. Thanks for asking." We sat there in silence, him still holding my hand over the table. It wasn't an uncomfortable silence, like the one any normal person would have with an ex, but I wasn't normal. I looked around, noting that the diner was actually fairly small, with only fifteen booths. Edward came back with the drinks. He smiled tightly at Felix, and glared at me. That was certainly a change from before. I noticed Felix unfolding a small piece of paper. He gasped, and looked up at me. He looked back at the paper, and continued reading. He looked up at me again, and then looked in the direction that Edward had just left.

"Felix are you having trouble reading? It's probably just his number." I giggled. "Oh my gosh, you should call him and ask him on a date! Or is that technically his job? Would you be the guy or the girl?" I sat pondering that for a second.

"Funny."

"Good, so what do you think, should I become a comedian?" I grinned. He rolled his eyes at me, and grabbed the piece of paper again. "You're seriously considering calling him aren't you?"

"No. Bella, you didn't tell me you were 'exclusive' with anyone. Especially not Edward, weird." He chuckled to himself.

"What? No. I'm not... we're not... he's... I'm....UGH!" I breathed in and out deeply. "We're not dating! We're... being friendly." I smiled, satisfied. He raised an eyebrow at me.

"Friendly... so you're not ripping his head off yet? Glad to hear it!" Felix chuckled, making me roll my eyes. "I would let you read this but there are several graphic death threats, and I'm certain that Lilly reads minds." He whispered, as if anyone overhearing this conversation might possibly explode.

"Okay, but we aren't dating. Would I like that? If he changed, yes. Would I possibly shout it from the rooftops? Yes. But we aren't dating. He hasn't changed. End of story, let's order." I commanded. I looked around for Edward and... Oh crap... he had been standing right there when I had made my small speech. "Um, I'll have..."

"Nothing, she'll have nothing, we have to go." Felix said, glaring at Edward. I don't get it. What did he do to him? Felix threw a five on the table and grabbed my arm, and it hurt. He dragged me to my car, and opened the driver's seat.

"I'm going to walk back to the library. I'll see you tonight. Bye." And he ran off. It was official, my life was like one of those bad dramatic TV shows, and I was the main character. That seriously sucks. I was about to turn the car on when my passenger door opened, and in jumped none other than... Edward.

"Sorry, do you mind if I came over to your house? I won't be a bother, I promise. I just need to escape for a while, and hang out with someone who doesn't walk away whenever I say something mildly intelligent." I rolled my eyes.

"You never say anything intelligent." I mumbled and drove out of the parking lot. He chuckled slightly and straightened up in the chair.

"I know. I meant every time I talked. People seem to like walking away from me."

"Maybe if you were less of a jerk, they'd stay." I pulled up into my driveway. I got out and went to the door. I heard Lilly giggling and smiled.

"Lilly, come back here! Ugh! Seriously kiddo, stop it!" Abigail, the 12 year old I hired screamed as she chased my toddler around the house. It was interesting that somehow, Lilly was faster than Abigail.

"Abigail, its fine, she'll calm down in a second. No worries."

"She's been like this since you left! There's no way she's done." She screeched, still chasing after the short two year old. Lilly ran past me, so I scooped her up and went to sit her on the couch.

"Hun, you need to sit here for a second. Can you do that?" She nodded and smiled cutely. "Abigail here's your pay, thank you for taking care of her. Bye!" I all but shoved her out the door. Edward watched as she stomped off, chuckled and walked in.

"Well... that was nice of you." He sat on the couch next to Lilly, me following suite.

"So why exactly did you absolutely need to come here? You like playing with kids?" I smirked.

"Actually yes, it's one of my closetful of hobbies." His eyes were the sparkling, whirling pool of joy that I hadn't seen since we had left for College. "No. I needed to escape. Just as I said that I did. You know how people always expect me to do something, to be somebody? Well, that's been coming back to bite me. Like a snake whose tail you stepped on. They'll always bite you back."

"Maybe if you hadn't started the 'be who everyone wants you to be, not yourself' movement, that wouldn't have happened. You should start over. Say goodbye to the parties, the girls, and the occasional fight. Live life how you wanted it to be when you were little, remember?"

"Yeah, I remember wanting to be a trash man. Riding on the back of a trash truck? Yes please. That's what I had wanted. And now, the future looks to be just like that." He chuckled. It wasn't the happy, amused chuckle. It was dark, empty almost. "I lost my way, when my parents started pushing me one way, and my friends in the other."

"Everyone does that. If you don't happen to remember, let me refresh your memory. That happened to me too. Lilly wasn't planned. She isn't someone I love's daughter. I lost my way. But she is someone I love. She's my daughter too, and she will never be a mistake. No matter how many times I cursed myself for messing up like that. I found my way back though. And you will too. You just need a push."

Edward didn't say anything. For a while, he was just staring down at me, making me feel uncomfortable. It wasn't a glare, quite the opposite actually. He was smiling with his eyes, and frowning with his mouth. He leaned down and pressed a soft kiss on my lips, and pulled away, just in time for the door to burst open in a most dramatic manner. I quickly turned to see who had... dared to disrupt us, and possibly make a mark on the wall.

A/N: Umm.... Good? Bad? Needs help? I'm such a crappy writer that I should go live in a tunnel? Review?