A/N: Thanks for the reviews guys! makes me happy when i get good reviews. I really am sorry about the short chapters, but i update almost everyday so that should make up for it..right?? lol. oh yea guys, forgot to say but this set after shadow kiss. Except that Dimitri never changed, and mason didnt get killed. Also Mason isnt in love with Rose in my story. k? well happy reading!!

Chapter 4: Kiss and Tell

I walk up to the lunch table where i see Lissa, Mia, Mason And Eddie sitting. I was just about to take my seat next to Liss when i saw that there was someone else already sitting there.

I froze when i saw who it was- Adrian.

'What the hell is he doing!?' I thought in confusion and fusteration.

"Hey Rose!" Lissa greated me. Everyone else at the table looked at me and smiled and muttered there 'hello's' and 'hey's'

"Hey Liss" I said to her, and nodded to the others.

Adrian looked up at me and smiled, but quickly turned his attention back to Lissa

"So Lissa, I was studying some of those books we found at the library, and some have stories of spirit users living together and making a life with each other" He said to Lissa with some excitment.

I sat down next to Eddie and frowned at Adrians statement. No one besides me were listening to Adrian and Lissa's conversation.

"Wow really? but what do you mean exactly by 'making a life with each other'?" she asked

"I mean like getting togther and building a family"

Both Lissa and I gasped in surprise at that, except I was shocked for a different reason. 'why would he make a statement like that? what is he implying? that they make a life together???' I thought to myself as Lissa asked him a question

"What? but h-how is that even possible? i thought mori cant have children together?"

"Well it isnt possible...for normal mori. But those gifted with spirit are able to reproduce with each other, though they arent exactly sure why" (A/N: this isnt true in the vampire academy stories, but pretend it is for this story.)

"Wow. Thats amazing" Lissa said with a smile.

I, however, was filling very uncomfortable by his discovery. It also made me fearful for Christian, which made no sence.

I looked at Eddie and noticed he was paying attention now, as was Mia and Mason. They all stared wide eyed at Adrian and Lissa, and looked back and forth at each other. I think they were as freaked out about this as I was.

I was about to ask Adrian what exactly he was implying here, but the bell rang before I had the chance.

' I'll find out sooner or later whats going on with these two, lets just hope Christian wasnt right..' I thought to myself as i got up and headed to my next class.

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It had been two days sence the werid converstaion between Adrian and Lissa at lunch. I hadnt been able to talk to her at all becuase finals were coming up and we both were working our ass's off studying. (Yes, me, Ms Rose Hathaway, was STUDYING. i know, shocker. Get the hell over it)

I had, however, seen Christian. Although we hadnt talked besides a few "hello's" and "heys" when we passed each other. He was looking more and more upset and i was, surprisingly, worried about him.

I guess he didnt take my advice on not worrying about Adrian and Lissa. Which makes sence 'cause as of late, I didnt even take my own advice. I knew not to worry, but i couldnt help it. As much as I HADNT seen Liss, I knew that someone else had. I also knew who that person was becuase of the bond between Lissa and I. I'll give you one guess as to who that person is...

Adrian.

Yeah, i was SO having a talk with her later.

Meanwhile, I've been a little down myself. With all these distractions going on about Lissa and Adrian and Christian, I hadnt really had time to think, let alone fill anything. And now here I am, in my room at 12pm (A/N: remember the times are reversed for mori and dhampirs) "studying", and thinking. Which thinking leads to filling. And these fillings arent good.

And of course the only person who can bring out these bad fillings is...Dimitri. I know im supposed to be forgetting him, but its just so damn hard. Everytime I think of how he had loved me then left...NO. I stopped myself in that thought right there. I DIDNT blame him. I wont. I cant.

But i do.

I clutched at my sides and for once let myself be honest. I was in pain, in so so much pain.

And i blamed him for it all.

The only thought that kept running through my mind was 'He left me!' 'He left me' I dont know what came over me but the next thing i know, im crying.

And not just crying, but sobbing. I havent cried like this sence i dont know when. Everything just hurt so much and I didnt know how to stop this pain.

Soon it was 5pm, and I finally closed my eyes with tears still running down my cheeks.

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The next day was horrible. I didint get much sleep and we took one of our finals early today so i pretty much shut down when the test was handed to me. Plus everything still hurt, and my eyes stung from lack of sleep and the little crying session I had last nite and the one i had today when i woke-

I had awaken from a dream where i was lost in this place of snow, and it was all white and i couldnt see. But i did see in the distance two shadowed figures, i walked to them and who they were stopped me dead in my tracks; Dimitri and Tasha. When i saw them i couldnt move, I couldnt breathe. I stood there frozen as the snow beneath me, and watched as they dissapered into the white of snow. The only thing i remember after that was looking over and seeing someone watching me.

And that person had such a sad look on his white face, One with hurt in his eyes. But it wasnt hurt for himself, and he wasnt sad 'cuase of something that happened to him, It was for me. Seeing me upset and how Dimitri and Tasha effected me, It made him fill pain. And i dont know how i knew this, but i just did. That person gave me a comforting smile before he started to fade and i awoke from my dream, and i woke up sweating and had tears already streaming down my face. Also i felt...confused. Confused by the person from my dream, because that person was one I'd never think to appear in my dreams and be sad for me.

Christian.

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I snapped back to the present just in time to see that the time to take the test was over and my page was blank. shit.

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Through the bond I felt where Lissa was at. She was in one of the other dorms, Which i thought was weird, and so I "followed" her to the set of dorms and went to the room I knew she was in.

I knock on the door but there was no answer. Huh, thats strange, i know shes in here.

I tried to open the bond more to get into her head to see what was going on, but i couldnt. I couldnt even fill what she was filling. Its, almost as if she was...blocking me.

I felt almost panicky so I quickly opened the room door and barged my way through 'who the hell would leave there door unlocked?' I thought to myself as in after thought while i took in my surroundings.

What i saw made me sick to my stomach, Because now i know that Christian was right, that I was right.

There on the bed was Adrian, and Lissa, half naked.

Kissing.

"oh my fucking god" I said outloud.

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A/N hey guys, sorry to leave you a cliffie, but i had fun writing this. I know in the summery I said that it was supposed to Rose with all the problems and Christian helping her cope, but i got caught up in this secret romance with Adrian and Lissa so I desided to make Christian AND Rose help each other and deal with crap. ha ha okay! so just review and lemme know what ya think! I'll update soon I promis! =)