Song: Spring Nicht by Tokio Hotel. German version of Don't Jump. One of my favorite songs except it's weird trying to tie in the German angle. Oh well. Enter Axel and enjoy!

The Playlist - Spring Nicht (Axel's POV)

This morning is a beautiful morning. The sky is clear and I can still see the fading stars stretching on for miles and miles. The slowly rising sun touches the ocean's surface and likewise, I can see every gentle ripple of the water stretch on. I guess that's what comes from living on a small island. A very small island. An unbearably small island in the middle of nowhere with almost an hour's boat ride to civilization.

A sigh escapes my lips and I rub at my forehead. Why the hell did I come to this place again? I could have stayed with the others at Oblivion Castle. Demyx begged me to. Got down on his hands on knees and actually cried. Some shit about missing me too much. The big baby. If I didn't know any better, I'd think he was in love with me.

The thought brings a smile to my lips and I chuckle slightly. I wouldn't blame him if he was. I mean… look at me! I'm an Adonis. I'm so hot, I'm on fire. Literally. I lift my hand and clench my fist and concentrate slightly. The fire starts small, licking along my skin. I smile as I watch it. See? Proof that I'm hot. My eyes settle on the flames again. I could make it bigger, of course. I could burn down the whole building whose roof I am sitting on, engulfing it in flames in mere seconds. The whole expanse of the island as well, if I want. Being a nobody does have its perks. We can't exactly die. We fade away and are… born again in a way or some shit. More powerful too, it seems.

But despite the few perks, there is one thing I'd give all my powers and rebirthing feature to have. A heart. Sometimes I feel so hollow inside… it hurts and aches… sometimes so much I can't breathe. It fucking sucks is what it does. Sucks major ass.

With a sigh, I stand up and move closer to the edge of the roof. There's a ledge and I step up on it. Damn, the school building is higher than I thought. I let my feet touch the edge and my toes hang off it, wiggling. The feel of it is exhilarating. Yeah… this building is higher than I thought but it's still not that high. Four stories. The last tower I stood on was several more. Now that was a real rush. He… he was there with me that time. We sat on top of that high tower and talked for hours. I think that was the last time I really felt whole… complete.

I get too lost in the memory and forget my balance. I wobble slightly and am about to step back down off the ledge when I hear him and the fear in his voice. It had been nearly a year since I last heard that voice. And right now, it's the best sound in the world.

"DON'T JUMP!"

Despite the fact that I was sort of hiding from him, there's a smile on my face as I turn around. How did he know I was on the island anyways? How did he find me? How did he know I was here on the roof? I've only been here a week. But fuck me, he looks really good in that tank top and shorts coming towards me. His hair is disheveled and his eyes are wide and my head just screams jail bait. Damn. I knew I should have stayed away.

He stops about a foot away from me and looks up, our differences in height made worse by the ledge I'm standing on. He looks terrified and it tickles me. "Don't jump!" He repeats.

"Roxy…"

"Get down Axel. Now!" His voice is so forceful and urgent, something out of place. He stretches his hand out to me and I sigh. I don't want to touch him. Okay, that's a lie. I want to do things to him that would get me thrown in jail. Damn statutory rape shit. "Axel, please!" There are tears in his eyes and I feel like shit.

I let out another sigh as I grab his hand. And then he yanks me forward and I stumble down off the ledge. When the hell did he get so strong? "Shit, Roxas." I gather myself seconds before he pulls me against him, like he's attempting to crush us together. The top of his head barely comes to my chest and again I remind myself that he's only 16. "Roxy…" I wrap my arms around him and breathe very slowly, terrified of myself.

And then the mood changes. He pushes me away violently and glares. "What the fuck do you think you're doing, Axel? What the hell is wrong with you?" He's cursing. I don't recall ever hearing him use those words before. It's just too cute.

"Roxas… I'm not suicidal." I tap my forehead. "Got it memorized?" The thought is sort of funny anyways. How could someone who can't really die, at least not in the sense that one dies and that's it, be suicidal? If I jump of the roof and die… wouldn't I just come back? Or since the death would be caused by myself, would I still come back? Are we only reborn if killed by someone else? What exactly are the terms of the rebirth? There's got to be something more to it.

"The fuck you are!" The anger in his voice cuts me from my thoughts. Shit… he really is pissed. "I just caught you on the ledge of the roof!"

I smile at him. He really is too cute for his own good. "I wasn't going to jump. The thought never crossed my mind." He relaxes a little but I don't think he entirely believes me. "I promise, Roxy. I just came up here for some air, I swear. You know me. How many times did we sit up in the high towers of Oblivion Castle, half hanging out of the windows?"

"That was different!" He snaps. "That was with me."

"Roxas…"

"Why are you here?" He says suddenly, crossing his arms and tilting his head to the side.

"Why are you?" I counter. Shortly after everything ended and we were all reborn, we went back to Oblivion Castle. It was sort of all we knew. For about a year, Roxas remained there with me. But then… one day he up and leaves me. Again. He never gave me a real reason. He just said he had to leave. So I let him.

"I…" He turns slightly and rubs at the back of his neck nervously. I must have caught him off guard with that question. Doesn't look like me wants to tell me either. "I left because of Sora… somewhat. I wanted to get to know him better, since we're like… apart of each other or something… I thought maybe… he could help me. Feel complete, you know? But mostly…" He sighs loudly and turns to look back at me. I can feel his hesitation in the air. "I left because of you."

"Me?" Me? Seriously? What the fuck did I do to chase him away?

His face saddens and his eyes glaze over. Shit… he looks like he's about to cry. Please, Roxy, don't cry. I don't think I could take it if you cried. "You seemed so sad all the time. Nothing I did helped… I thought I was the cause."

That wasn't the answer I thought he'd give me. He thought he was… Seriously? I thought he knew? After everything… I really thought he knew. "No, Roxas. I was a bit… depressed for a while." I was, though I stupidly thought I hid it well enough from him. Guess I'm transparent. Or he just knows me too well. "But you were never the cause. You were the only thing that ever made me happy." And that's the honest truth.

"Yeah?" He perks up a bit, his mood changing again so fast. "But why did you… you were so…"

I interrupt him quickly because I don't want him to blame himself anymore. I can't take hearing it. "I'm okay, Roxas." He steps forward and wraps his arms around my neck. He moves so quick that I don't have time to think. But then he pulls me down and presses his lips against mine and I snap back. "Wait… Roxy stop." I pull away and pry him off while I still can. "You can't do that." The kiss lasted only a second, but my legs are already weak and I can feel myself wanting to crack.

"Why not? I know you like it." He's being coy and the way he's looking at me is dangerous. Fuck me… he's downright deadly.

"Roxas…"

"Axel… you followed me here, didn't you?"

"Rox…"

He takes a step towards me and I step away. "I was wrong in thinking that Sora could help fill this void I have inside." He takes another step. "I need you Axel. I knew it the moment I felt you on the roof. I need you… you are my other half. My heart."

I lower my head slightly and rub at my forehead. "Roxas… don't…" I lift my arm to stop him and continue to rub my head with the other. He needs to stop. Right now. If he says it…

"I love you Axel." And he said it.

I drop my arms to my sides and lift my gaze to him again. I feel my non-existent heart fluttering as he says it. And the way he's look at me… I wish I had an ounce less of self-control. I really do. Because I just want to jump him. "Roxas…"

"Tell me you don't love me." He demands getting even closer.

"Roxy…"

"Tell me!"

"I…"

"Tell me Axel."

"I can't!" I scream. I can't say it. Because of course it would be a fucking lie. Yes, I love him. I've loved him since the day I met him, as sick and perverted as that sounds. Five fucking years. I'm five fucking years older than him. And while one day that might not be so many, right now… it feels like an eternity separates us.

"Then kiss me."

"I can't."

"Yes you can."

"I can't!" I say it louder and with more force than needed. I think I'm trying to convince myself more than him. Because every second that passes with him on that roof I'm losing my resolve. I can feel it.

Roxas steps away and shakes his head and I let out a breath I hadn't realized I'd been holding him. I think maybe he's done. Maybe he's going to give up and leave and I can get control of myself again and go back to avoiding him and it will all be alright. And then his face twists and he looks more furious than when he saw me on the ledge. Fuck. This really isn't going to end well, is it? "Why the fuck did you follow me here then?"

I drop my gaze and shrug my shoulders slightly. I should lie. I should tell him that he's wrong, that I didn't follow him. That I haven't been searching for him for the better part of a year. But of course, I can't. Why can't I lie to him? Why can he read me so well? It's just not fair. "Just being nearer to you is enough right now to make it… not hurt as much." I say slowly.

Neither of us says anything for the longest time. It's probably only been a few minutes but I swear it feels like much, much longer. Like really long. Like an eternity long. I can't tell what he's thinking but it seems he's thinking about something hard. And he seems hesitant, almost nervous about whatever it is he's thinking about. I don't say anything because I know he prefers it that way. I just have to wait for him to process whatever is going on inside that head of his. But really… I have no clue if I should be terrified or not. And that's starting to make me nervous.

"I don't care that you're older than me." He's saying very slowly. "I don't care that you're… more… experienced than me…"

More experienced? I would laugh at that if I wasn't afraid he would take it wrong. I've never looked at anyone else, let alone thought about doing anything. He's the only one I want, the only one I'll ever want. I'm hopelessly and stupidly and tragically in love with him. Got that memorized? And I would rather die a pathetic virgin than chance hurting him in any way. Although… can I die of old age? Huh… that is another rebirth theory conundrum.

"Axel?"

I shake my head slightly and let out a sigh. Why am I getting so sidetracked here? Why does he have this shattering effect on me? "I can't, Roxas. I just can't. I came here to be around you and that's it. I was simply going to just leave you to your life here and start my own."

His mouth drops open and I assume my words have sunk in. Fuck. "You weren't even going to tell me you were here?" He's angry. I shake my head and I feel guilty a second later. He looks so hurt and sad. "How could you…"

"You left me, remember?" I snap at him. Because that is the truth. He up and left without giving me a reason. And it was really fucked up and fucked me up and just fuck!

"Because I thought I was hurting you."

I roll my eyes and cross my arms. "Right now, you are. What are you doing here so early anyways?" I steal a glance at my watch. "The school doesn't open for another hour?"

He shrugs and looks away. "I have a meeting before school with a teacher."

"A meeting?"

"I'm a little behind in my German class."

"An hour before class?"

"I had a feeling I should come earlier."

"A feeling?"

He sighs and turns to look at me again and I suddenly think I don't want to know why. "I can't explain it… but I've been having this weird feeling all week. I guess… because… of you." He smiles slightly and he looks so smug. I really shouldn't be here. "I didn't know but I think I could feel you. I woke up earlier than normal this morning, got ready for school without thinking, got in the car, and came here." He pauses for a second and laughs softly. "Sora will probably be mad when he gets up and finds I left without him."

Yeah… because I'm a perverted stalker, I know Roxas is living with Sora and his mom, being treated like a brother and son. Another reason I don't really want him to know I'm here. I don't want to ruin the life he has here. He has a real family now. That's something I can't be for him.

"I knew the moment I pulled into the parking lot. The closer I get to you… can I just…" He steps closer again and this time I don't pull away when he reaches for me and instead hug him close. "I don't feel… right, Axel, without you. This feels right. You feel right… against me."

"Rox… do you know how hard you're making this?"

"I don't care." He voice is muffled slightly. "I love you and I don't want to ever let you go. I need you to live."

"Don't get all dramatic." But I know it's not melodrama. Because I feel it to. He's in my arms and I feel complete. He is my heart. But… "Roxas… we can… hang out and stuff like we used to… but that's it."

"Ax, I told you I don't care about…"

I push him away and hold him at arm's length and smile. "We can't because I could go to jail or get fired. That's the price we pay for living in the real world."

He smiles slyly and places his hand on my chest. "I won't always be too young."

With a sigh, I let go of him and drop my arms to the side. He really is trying my patience. "I know that."

The hand on my chest slowly drifts downward and he tilts his head to the side as he looks up at me. He's deep in thought again and I wonder at its direction. "Where do you work?"

I smile and point down. Yeah, I work at the school. Starting today, actually, if Roxas lets me off the roof.

"At the school? You work at the school?" I can hear excitement in his voice as he says it.

"Student teacher."

"So you'll be here every day when I am?"

I'm smiling and nodding. "Yep."

"Well…" He lets out a sigh but he's still smiling. "I guess that's better than nothing." He finally removes his hand from its dangerous position on my waist and wags a finger at me. "But don't think I'm giving up on you. I love you. And I will have you." He says it so easily and casually, so certain of himself.

I roll my eyes and look away from him. But I'm smiling and not only on the outside. Part of me hopes he doesn't stop trying. Because I know sooner or later, no matter the risks or dangers or complications, I will give in to him. And when I do, I won't be able to stop myself.

"You have to promise me something, Ax." His hands are on my arm, tugging slightly.

I turn back to look at him, my curiosity prickling. "What?"

"Stay off the roof without me." He tugs at my arm again as he says it.

I roll my eyes and shake my head. "Roxy! I told you… I wasn't going to jump!"

"Just in case, stay off."

"Roxas…"

"No jumping! Promise!"

"Roxy!"

"If I catch you on that ledge again, I'll jump for you."

My mouth drops open as that sentence brings images to mind that I never want to see happen. I'd rather die than see him get hurt. "What sort of sense does that make?" He opens his mouth and closes it, then tilts his head like he's thinking. I smile and laugh softly as I'm reminded yet again how young he is. "I promise Roxas."

Notes: I was very, VERY tempted to make them talk in German. Seriously was. But I'd probably mess it up since I remember only bits and pieces from my highschool German class. Mostly I remember the songs our teacher taught us. Mostly about drinking too. So yeah. Enjoy the responsible Axel and the pushy Roxas.