Her name was Selena Williams, she was 5 and was scheduled for an IVU early tomorrow morning. J.D. felt the world crashing around him and, for a second, he thought that he was going to pass out. Everything was a cluster of continuous noise and he felt that he couldn't breathe. Somewhere, as in a distant dimension, he heard doctor Cox's voice calling out to him.

"Newbie… Newbie! Are you feeling alright?"

Grabbing on to his voice, J.D. felt himself steadily returning to his body, as though he just went through an out of body experience.

Hating to admit it, Perry felt a ton of bricks filled with worry hit him when it seemed that the kid was about to pass out. Luckily, he seemed to be snapping out of it as soon as he spoke to him. As the kid looked him in the eyes, Perry could have sworn he felt a stab in the chest. J.D.'s eyes were filled with a thousand and one emotions, all passing at the same time, just before his eyes went blank. Not believing that he was about to ask this, Perry did it anyway.

"Newbie, how about we get some coffee before dealing with patients?"

At any other time, J.D. would have blushed three shades of red and start jumping in circles around doctor Cox all the way to Kelso's Coffee Bucks, but today his feelings for the older doctor, as well as every other emotion he was usually feeling, were hibernating.

"I appreciate your invitation doctor Cox, but I'm feeling a bit ill this morning, I think I'll just get started on this case right away."

Not waiting for a reply, J.D. started walking rapidly all the way to room 314, where Selena Williams was.

Perry was surprised to say the least. He didn't want to admit that he was either upset or worried because that would lead to the honest truth in his heart: that his feelings went far beyond deep for the kid… Letting out a small growl, he dashed to Coffee Bucks to get his morning vice.

Meanwhile, J.D. had the pleasure to meet the blue eyed, light blond haired angel that was Selena Williams.

"Good morning, Selena! I'm doctor Dorian, I will be the one taking care of you during your stay here. If at any time you need something, I'll help, alright? Now, is everything good, are you feeling ill at all?"

Selena smiled widely and shook her head "no". J.D. couldn't help but keep smiling at the sight of her. As he turned to talk to the parents, doctor Cox now joined them, also introducing himself to the little girl.

"So, Mr. and Mrs. Williams, beside the constant urinary tract infections, are you sure there aren't any other symptoms?"

"No, not at all. I mean, she keeps telling us that it hurts to go to the bathroom, but we've done some research and understand that this is because of the said infection."

"Indeed it is, but I have to ask… After she was born, were there any special mentions at all from the doctors there?"

Perry instantly realized that there had been, judging from the father's sudden change of posture, but the mother took the reigns again.

"Well, one of the doctors told us that he had noticed some kind of abnormality to her right kidney, but he also said that it was probably something that would pass with age, so we didn't really… Doctor Dorian, are you alright? You seem pale."

Perry quickly looked over at J.D., noticing that he was even paler than before, thing that got him worried again, but for now he had to settle other things.

"Ma'am, I'm sorry to tell you this, but have you ever wondered if that doctor was a complete moron? Or did you just figure that all doctors are gods that cannot in a million years make a mistake? Before I find some re-heeealy clever insults for the both of you, let me just point out for a second that the kidneys are among some of the most important organs in your bodies and any problem that even remotely crosses the "we're so screwed" boundary is, in fact, lethal. Great! Doctor Dorian here and I are going to give you nice people some time for that information to cross into your admittedly small brains, yes? Perfect! Newbie, let's go!"

Despite feeling dizzy again, J.D. actually heard doctor Cox and followed soon after. Perry said nothing and continued to walk, knowing for a fact that J.D. was certain to follow. After an elevator ride and some extra steps, they found themselves on the roof.

"Doctor Cox, what are we doing on the roof?"

Perry turned to J.D. with a frown on his face.

"Now listen here, Gloria! In the eventuality that you don't realize it yet, this is a hospital and people here need our help more than anyone else's. If by some chance you slipped in the shower this morning while looking for your mango body butter and hit that pretty little head of yours, you'd best tell me now so I know to expect these "pale faced" episodes."

J.D. felt his eyes burning, but not from Perry's rant since he was, by now, used to them. It was because, despite having feelings for the older doctor, he could not bring himself to open up more. He knew that if doctor Cox ever found out about his little (or in this case, huge) crush on him, that J.D. would never hear the end of it. Alas, another question popped into his head: did dr. Cox actually care? Slipping into his mind turned out to be a mistake because he didn't realize that his tears were falling freely now, judging by the shocked expression of dr. Cox.

J.D. wiped at his tears fiercely while mumbling barely audible apologies about having not slept well the other night. As he turned to leave, he was grabbed and pushed against the wall by the angry older doctor. After what seemed like forever, J.D. managed to find the courage to meet Perry's stare and was a little shocked to not only find worry in his eyes, but a streak of softness as well.

"J.D., I am only going to ask this once… What the hell is going on?"

Another wave of shock washed through the younger doctor at hearing his actual name instead of a girl's name or the usual "Newbie". But, despite Perry's growing concern, J.D. felt his heart close up even more as a new set of tears made their way on his cheeks.

"I'm so sorry doctor Cox, but I can't do this, not now…"

Without warning, J.D. pulled himself free from the older doctor's grasp and made his way into the hospital, leaving a dumbstruck Perry on the roof, his gaze fixed on the spot where J.D. previously was. Snapping out of it, Perry knew where he could find out what this was all about. Still not wanting to admit to himself that he cared about the kid, he stormed down the stairs in search of Gandhi…