Rai: Watches warily for angry mob* … Ehem, hello again everyone! Guess what I've got! … That's right, an update! =w=)b Aha... Well, I'm gonna cut this short now because I see pitchfork wielding demons in the distance! Enjoy!
Disclaimer: Tough luck- No Katsura Hoshino here.
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Obligatory Damnation
Chapter 3:
...And We Are BROKEN
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"Open doors leading you in-
Will you come out,
or be swallowed within?"
~Rai
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Previously:
"Just who are they?" Lenalee asked silently, the rhetorical question echoing throughout the quiet room.
Meanwhile, the lone figure of Allen Walker smirked from his position beside the outer window of the Supervisor's office. Jumping from the small balcony, he muttered three small words as he fell before promptly disappearing from the school campus in a blur of white.
"We are Noah."
Bursts of pink and orange erupted over the horizon; emerging from the darkness and blending with the light blues of the morning sky. Squinting slightly, the silent boy could make out the apparent roundness of the sun, and he outstretched his arm in an attempt to reach out and grab it. Why did it appear to be so close to mankind, yet actually be so far away? Allen sighed at the thought- It seemed that everything was like that nowadays. Tempting and teasing.
Brushing the thought aside, he was almost able to fall asleep until the none-too-pleasing sound of the doorbell brought the young Noah back to reality.
…
Twitching slightly, Allen took in the form of Yuu Kanda. Should he have been anyone other than himself, he would've been embarrassed at the fact that he was standing in nothing but his boxers.
"May I ask," Allen drawled, "why it is you're standing at my doorstep at some ungodly hour in the morning? Or should I first ask how it is you know where I live? And please, feel free to take your time in answering me since I have all the free time in the world standing here, in front of you, at some ungodly hour in the morning, in my fucking boxers."
"Look, Sprout, it's not like I want to be here."
"Oh? Humor me."
"The fucking principal heard from Lavi that I was being a rude shit."
"Which happens often, I presume." Allen had to chuckle in spite of himself when the Asian sent him a non-appreciative glare. "My apologies- and what exactly does that have to do with me?"
"..."
"Kanda, you're not really doing a good job at keeping up this conversation. Look, it's your turn now- speak now or forever hold your peace because I'd like to go back inside and do something more productive, like, oh I don't know, sleep." The shorter teen replied in annoyance. Honestly, why was he giving this vile man the time of day?
Sighing, Allen made to shut the door.
"Like I said," Kanda said – No, Allen thought. He was most likely growling – suddenly, blocking the door with his foot and yanking it back open. "I don't want to be here. But because my superior wants to work on that fucking trust factor, I have to be." Blinking stupidly, Allen proceeded to chuckle.
"I see, so that's how it is. Well, come in I guess. If this doesn't work out, I at least don't want your mangled body lying on my doorstep." The pentacle dawning boy retorted, smirking slightly.
"It'd be the other way around, moronic Bean."
"Sure, sure, Kanda. Anyway, make yourself comfortable on the couch over there while I go put on something decent."
"Whatever."
"...Insufferable prick."
"You'll learn to fucking love it."
"I do hope that wasn't an attempt at hinting at your unrequited feelings for me, Kanda." Allen's muffled voice called from his bedroom. "I mean, I know I'm hot stuff and all, but we just met."
'Perhaps... Perhaps this won't be so bad, after all.'
"Fuck you."
'Maybe it'll be worth it, in the end.'
"Only in your dreams, doll-face."
'Besides... It's not like I've anything left to lose if it doesn't...'
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"So, Yuu dear, how was your little date with Allen?" Lavi cooed. Growling, Kanda roughly shoved the redhead aside and plopped down onto one of Komui's surprisingly clean couches.
"Fucking wonderful. What do you think?"
"Ouch, Yuu. Give the kid a chance, would 'ya?" The one-eyed teen replied seriously.
"Don't look at me like that, dumbass. Look, I get the hint. I need to gain the Sprout's trust in order for this fucking mission to work. Don't get your goddamn panties in a fucking knot- I never fail a mission. And it's not as if you actually care about the fucking kid, damned hypocrite."
"For fuck's sake, Yuu! Would you just give it a rest already? You're not the only one who's pissed off about this mission, okay? For your information, I do care about Allen, whether he believes it or not. So just shut up about things you know nothing about."
"I know nothing?" Kanda asked vehemently. "I know you're just using the little brat to get closer to Mikk, so don't you even dare play that innocent jig, fucking rabbit."
"I thought I told you to shut the fuck up about things you don't know about, damn it!" Lavi screamed.
"Perhaps the both of you should shut your traps." A husky voice suggested- the figure leaning against the door-frame.
"T-Tyki... H-How long have you been standing there?"
"Long enough." Tyki said coldly, his eyes boring holes into Lavi's being.
"L-Look, Tyki, I can expla-
"No, no you can't." The Noah interrupted suddenly. "...You know, us Noah were truly putting our faith into you wretched exorcists. You can't even begin to comprehend just how much we need your help." He laughed brokenly before sending Kanda and Lavi a tired grin. "But I guess that can wait until the next awakening."
"...What do you mean?" Lavi asked quietly, refusing to meet Tyki's eyes. The latter smirked bitterly.
"Wouldn't you like to know?"
"W-Wait! Hear us out, Tyki... This whole mission- i-it wasn't our idea! You have to understand that we have no choice but to obey our superiors!"
"Don't I know it... It's always been that way." He mused to himself, not noticing that the two had overheard him.
"...Tyki?" The aforementioned sighed.
"...Sorry, I guess I overreacted back there... Maybe you do have your reasons, but understand that ours are genuine. I can't exactly tell you what they are, as you've backtracked on the trust meter, but I'll tell you this: mess with my nephew, and you mess with the lot of us. We will disregard everything and anything if he is harmed in any way. That, my boys, is a promise." Tyki's eyes seemed to glow in emphasis.
"And as for you..." He said, moving to stare straight at Kanda. "Allen seems to be warming up to you. I have no idea what you did but you somehow managed to get him to open up a little. Don't take advantage of his new-found outlook of you. It's not often that the boy takes a liking to people outside the family."
"Whatever." The samurai replied, albeit a bit smugly.
"I'm being serious here Ka-
"Hey, Tyki! There you are! I've been searching everywhere for you, damn it. Come on, the Earl's finally got an assignment fo-" He then realized that he and Tyki were not the only occupants of the room. "Oh. Sorry, I didn't realize I was interrupting something."
"N-nothing of the sort, Allen!" Lavi replied sheepishly, scratching the back of his head in an awkward gesture. The bunny then proceeded to perk up and he nudged the smaller boy slightly. "And what's this about some special assignment, hm, Allen my boy?" The aforementioned eyed Lavi warily.
"That, Lavi, is currently none of your business." Allen replied with a polite smile. Grabbing his uncle by his wrist, he let his gaze linger on the two 'exorcists' for a few seconds before turning and exiting.
Lavi sighed tiredly and faced his companion with noticeable strain.
"So, what did you find out, Kanda?"
...The samurai didn't bother to question why Lavi had addressed him using his surname.
…Flashback time...
"And? What exactly are you going to do to gain my trust, Kanda? Though, I find it quite moronic that your supervisor is trying to win me over first. One would think that you'd head straight for the head honcho, no? Even so, I suppose that wouldn't have been a very good tactic on your part." Allen mused, taking a seat across from the fellow Underground member.
"Did anyone ever tell you that you talk way too damn much?"
"Well, I suppose I do tend to be a bit loquacious..." He clicked his tongue in distaste. "But that's enough about me, mister. You're here for a reason, remember? So get on with it, jackass."
"..."
"Dear Earl, don't tell me you came here without a clue as to what your battle plan would be."
"..."
"...Well that's positively adorable, Kanda dear, really, it is." Allen remarked sarcastically, rolling his eyes in amusement.
"What do you suppose I do, brat?" The samurai barked angrily. Said brat laughed – the Japanese could tell that yes, it was at his own expense – and shot the Asian a small smirk.
"Oh no you don't. I'm not doing your little mission for you, retard. And don't even think you can try using some more of your failed attempt at reverse psychology on me- you seem to forget that I live with a family of psychos, not to mention the psychology lover himself. That being said, I know all the tricks. So stick that in your juice box and suck it." The Noah said smugly, sticking his tongue out at the older teen.
"..."
"Shut up. You're still not helping any, Kanda."
"..."
"Don't look at me as if I'M the problem here, because no, I'm not- thank you very much." The whitehead harrumphed and crossed his arms, glaring at the man sitting across from him. "You need to learn how to be a better conversationalist, Kanda. Otherwise you'll end up living alone with ten cats."
"Says the 8 year old living in a condo." Kanda replied nastily.
"My living arrangements have nothing to do with you, goddamn asshole. And for your information, I'm 15, damn it!" Allen yelled, scowling as he regarded the other once more. "Look, maybe you should just go. Get the hell off my property and don't come back. Tell your principal Komui not to worry his psychotic little head off because this meeting between the two of us was bound to meet hellfire. It was a nice waste of ten minutes, it really was, Kanda. Now kindly get the hell out, you insensitive jerk."
"Bye to you too, bipolar bitch. I clearly remember saying that I never wanted to be here in the first place."
"Then fuck you and get the fuck out already."
"Gladly."
...End of flashback...
"That's warming up to someone?" Lavi inquired, flabbergasted. "That's a very... unique way to show it, I suppose."
"Tch."
"I'm so confused... There's so much about the Noah Clan that remains a mystery. And it doesn't help that the individual members themselves are so complicated! Damn it-What are we supposed to do now, Yuu? If we don't succeed in this mission, the higher ups will most likely try to take matters into their own hands."
"Che. Let them do whatever the fuck they want. I'm not doing this for them to begin with." Lavi's ears twitched slightly.
"Then what exactly are you doing this for? Or rather, for whom are you continuing with this mission for?" Lavi asked quietly, his jaded emerald eye searching for an answer in his best friend's expression.
"My own fucked up curiosity."
"That's fine and dandy, Yuu dear... Just... Just don't drag Allen down with you, okay? We really need this to work out without involving Leverrier... I don't even want to think of what he'd do to Allen if that happened..." Contrary to Kanda's earliest statements, it really did seem as if Lavi honestly cared for the boy. Maybe he was just trying to make someone other than himself seem like the selfish one; in the process unconsciously pinning Lavi as the one to take his frustrations out on.
Nodding, Kanda silently flicked Lavi on the forehead and smirked. Gaping, Lavi picked his jaw up from the ground and grinned.
"Now you can't deny that we are totally best friends, Yuu!"
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"What's the rush, boy?" Tyki questioned his hyperactive nephew as they arrived at the Earl's mansion.
"Rush? There's no rush! No rush at all!" Allen retorted, smirking cheekily from ear to ear.
"Alright, go on and keep dragging me along; but do you mind filling me in on this assignment of ours?" Tyki asked, sighing fondly at the Noah in front of him.
"Oh, right. Aha, I almost forgot about that." Allen replied, laughing apologetically. Tyki raised a brow when the boy abruptly turned to face him with a grim and serious expression. "That was all a facade to throw any eavesdroppers off... We don't have an assignment, rather, the Earl has called for a mandatory meeting." He explained, eyes downcast.
"And what exactly does this meeting detail?" Joyd(1) asked, gravely disregarding the sense of dread that filled his gut as he did so.
"It's not what it entails, uncle... You should be asking about whom it entails." The Junior Musician reported cryptically; his body undergoing the Noah transformation in response to his bubbling anger.
"Allen," Tyki warned, his voice dangerously low. "Tell me, what is going on?" The Noah of Pleasure demanded. The former shook violently now, and he was gripping onto his companion despairingly.
"Tyki," Allen began, his voice cracking brokenly. "T-they k-killed Skin. And now he doesn't... Now it's impossible for him – for us! W-We were supposed to do this together. We were all supposed to be freed at the same time! Tyki, they've fucking murdered him! It's not fair. W-why? Is it too much to ask for? Is it honestly too much to ask for our goddamn lives back? I don't fucking understand! Why?"
The sound of the piano reverberated in the otherwise quiet hall, clashing angrily with the walls, as if demanding to be heard by someone- by anyone.
"Soshite bouya wa nemuri ni tsuita." If given the opportunity, Allen would gladly fall asleep and never wake up. "Ikizuku hai no naka no honoo hitotsu, futatsu to..." But how could he? It wasn't as if that option was available to him.
"Ukabu fukurami itoshii yokogao." Sure, he could try- but what good would that do him? He'd just wake up again. And again. And again. "Daichi ni taruru ikusen no yume, yume." Allen's – no, the Noahs' – only solace lied in the darkness of their dreams.
"Gin no hitomi no yuragu yoru ni..." Each and every foreign lyric that left Allen's mouth laced itself with toxic pain. "Umare o chita kagayaku omae." And ironically enough, the very song that was causing him so much grief had once given them salvation.
"Ikuoku no toshitsuki ga... ikutsu inori o tsuchi e kaeshite mo." Sometimes, the Junior Musician was tempted to question why their so called 'God' had cursed his own apostles.
"Watashi wa inori tsuzukeru.." ...But he knew. He fucking knew. So he didn't. "Douka konoko ni ai o." And so he played. And played. And fucking played until his fingers blistered and rendered him incapable of playing for at least a week.
"...Tsunaida te ni kisu o..." ...Because it hurt like a bitch to remember.
So as hot tears streamed down his face and onto his beloved grand, Allen slammed his fingers to the keys and screamed...
But he remembered anyway.
Rai: I'm under the impression that this chapter was complete and utter crap -.-' I do hope you enjoyed it regardless...
(1) Joyd is Tyki's Noah name =w=)b
*Spoiler alert, spoiler alert- Do not read any further if you've not yet read D. Gray Man Chapter 200!
Also, was anyone else wtf-ing at the latest chapter of D. Gray – Man? Like omfg, Alma and Kanda are all lovey dovey and meanwhile Allen's found himself in a pile of mega shit... AGAIN! NO. NO. NO. NO. NO. FUCKING NO! And just when I thought Yullen was becoming more canon -.-' … Hopefully Kanda's just letting go of Alma, then he'll come back and be all over Allen's sorry ass. And hopefully he doesn't die O_O I think all of us Yullen fans would go crazy if that happened.
And on another note... WHERE THE FUCK DID LINK COME FROM? FUCKING HELL MANNNNN- ALLEN WAS ABOUT TO SAVE TOKUSA, YOU DICK!
Sadface D:
Now I have to wait another month before finding out what the fuck happens -.-
Well, 'till next time!
~Rai