Title: Underoath Cries the Past
Chapter: Triggered Memories
Autor: (me) MissChriis
Beta: Amy (aka TranceGem) 3
Disclaimer: Don't own, don't get any profit
(Short)Summary: Sometimes it only takes a moment to change a whole life
A/N: Everything written in italic discribes a flashback - Arizona's in this case
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Arizona's POV
Her normally beaming green eyes were empty. Megan had lost her smile. Arizona had never seen her like that, her whole facial expressions were cold. She didn't show any emotion on her face at all. She wasn't even following the conversation, Ashley, Lewis, Yve and Alexis – her friends, were having. She just seemed so far away, her empty eyes staring into nothing. "Megan?" suddenly Ashley asked. "Mhm?" was all Megan responded without even turning her head to her redheaded best friend."Are you okay sweetie? Would you rather go back home?" of course she was worried. They all were. Arizona too. "No…it's fine. I need some fresh air I guess…and seeing some where besides our flat is also a good thing" she replied with an emotionless voice. "Are you sure?" now Lewis asked. "I guess" she replied shrugging. Sighing, Ashley wrapped her arm around Megan's waist, pulling her closer in a protective way. For a short moment a smile flashed over her lips, but disappeared quickly to make space for the emotionless mask. Arizona walked a few steps behind them, but close enough to see their faces sidewise and to hear their conversation. Had she noticed her? When she had turned her face to give Ashley a short smile? Arizona and Megan hadn't spoken, since…the night. The blond just hadn't brought herself to call or message the girl with the big green eyes. Even, if she had wanted to. Suddenly, the group stopped. Caught up in her thoughts, Arizona didn't notice it, 'thank god' – she thought, she had been able to stop too, before she had bumped in one of them. Megan stood in the middle of the group. Next to Ashley and Lewis. Apart from her brother, they were her closest friends. Right before they cross the street, the black haired girl turned her head and faced Arizona. Cold green eyes, full of hate and pain stared right into the shocked blue ones of Arizona. The blonde thought her heart stopped beating when Megan's lips formed one voiceless word "Why?" Arizona hadn't been able to move, or to look away. So Megan was the one who broke the eye contact and turned her head. To walk away, pulled by Ashley, the red headed girl had noticed Arizona, maybe way before Megan had. Shooting her an evil look, Ashley turned around and focused on Megan. Arizona, still was unable to move staring after the group – only seeing the black haired girl. "Why?" she spoke out loud. Hoping to find an answer.
Megan's smile was a false smile. Arizona knew it just too well she had seen it too often, it couldn't fool her anymore. "Doctor Carter", Arizona mirrored the facial expression of Megan after she finally found her inner self control. Taking the hand Megan offered to shake she checked if Callie noticed her reaction. Sadly, the raven haired beauty did. "You know her already", Mark grinned. It wasn't a question, more a statement. "Yes, we used to be…erm…" the blond surgeon struggled to find the right words, not willing to tell everyone what she connected with the girl in front of her. "We were roommates in meds school", Megan jumped in to help. "But I had to take a break, so we lost the contact", she added smiling. Callie sighed relieved, for a moment she thought her gorgeous girlfriend could have had a different relationship to her now, new Attending. "You had to take a break? Why?" Mark asked curious. The same question popped up in Arizona's beautiful blue eyes. "I got pregnant." Megan simply replied, playing with one of her own curls. "Don't you remember, Arizona? One day we joked about it. And the next one I found out I was?" she added, grinning evil at the surgeon in front of her. Arizona understood. Megan, wasn't willing to show her past either. Feeling more comfortable she replied: "Yes, of course I remember the day when my biggest competition had to go" She knew Megan was pregnant, right before she left, it was starting to be visible. But the blonde hadn't known that Megan kept her child. Megan giggled "Oh come'on, you were happy when I had to go, so you finally had a chance to shine", Arizona noticed the harsh sound, covered in the green eyed beauties voice. Of course, Megan was mad, maybe she even hated her for what she'd done to her. She had every right. But why did Megan have to show up here? Knowing she would meet Arizona here. "I finally had a chance to shine?" the blonde asked close to burst out in laughers. "Well, as far as I remember, I beat you. Everywhere" she added with a knowing smile. It was the truth, both always had fight against each other, sometimes Megan won, sometimes Arizona did.
"You have a child?" suddenly Callie burst out. Arizona's smile froze immediately. She knew, she had agreed with Callie on children. But…not now. There was time…later. "Yes, I do have a daughter", Megan replied. "How did you made it through meds school with a child?" Callie asked curious, not noticing the facial expression of her girlfriend. "I had and still have the support of my friends and family", Arizona noticed higher octave Megan's voice suddenly had. "And…her father?" Arizona wished Callie hadn't asked that question. Of course, her beautiful girlfriend was curious and wanted to know how someone was able to handle both, a child and work – especially in a hospital. "We don't have contact anymore" was all Megan gave back, turning away from Callie to face Arizona again. "I'm glad you dumped him", this time Arizona jumped in. "He wasn't worth it anyways" she added. For a moment the head of PEDs could see something like gratitude in her new Attending's eyes, but it disappeared just as fast as it appeared.
Before Callie could ask any further questions, they all got interrupted by tiny but fast steps, followed by a "Mommy!" The little girl running towards Megan who already had widened her arms, looked like an exact copy of her mother. Black curls, big green eyes and an amazing smile. "How cute" Callie whispered amazed by the little girl. "Hey sweetheart" Megan smiled as she lifted the little girl. "How was your first day at preschool?" the little girl only babbled something non understandable. "That's great!" her mother said with a wide smile on her lips. "Arizona" a cold male voice cut through the lovely picture of Megan and her daughter. The blonde didn't need to turn after the voice, she knew she only would met the cold blue eyes, she saw at Joe's the day before. "Hey Taylor", Megan smiled and went to the tall grown boy. "Callie, Mark, this is my twin brother Taylor. Taylor, this are Dr. Sloan and Dr. Torres", Taylor turned his face to flash both of them a warm smile "Nice to meet you", he told both. "Nice to meet you, Taylor" Mark replied. Callie simply nodded. She was too busy with the little girl, Megan had put on her own feet. "Arizona, maybe you remember my brother Taylor?" Arizona could feel the guilt build up inside of her, when she finally managed to face the grown black haired guy. "Of course I remember him, how couldn't I?" she asked faking her smile.
Taylor looked like his sister. It was visible that they were related, even twins. Taylor kept silence towards his sisters new 'mentor', knowing it hit her badly. He hated her. Maybe more than Megan herself did. The blonde knew, she didn't deserved any better. "What is her name?" Callie interrupted the silence. This time, Arizona was glad her girlfriend only had eyes for the little girl in front of her. "Emily", Megan replied with a proud smile flashing over her lips. "Hey Emily", the raven haired beauty said to the little girl, getting a smile. "Can we go?" suddenly Taylor asked. "I mean…you said, today you've a short day or?" after Megan checked her watch she nodded. "Yes, we can. I've actually been done for 20 minutes, for the day" the green eyed girl smiled at her brother. "Uhm, see you tomorrow, I suppose?" She added and smiled to everyone around. "I hope", Mark grinned. "Yep" Callie nodded, still playing with Emily. "Of course", Arizona smiled. "I hope you'll shine as you did back in meds school", she added, grinning wickedly. "Oh you'll be surprised to what I'm able to", the evil sound, well covered in Megan's sweet voice, only meant for Arizona made her shiver a little. "Alright, bye guys. It was nice to meet you", Taylor said turning. "Let's go Emily", Megan said lifting the small girl. "Wave a good bye to your new friends" she told her daughter and turned to go too. "See you tomorrow" she said while walking. Emily waved smiling at Callie.
Callie's POV
"What is wrong with you?" the dark haired beauty asked worrying. "Nothing", Arizona shot back at her lover. Callie couldn't believe that. When Megan went, Arizona had become silent. She barely spoke at the hospital to Callie, either on their way home or now at their flat. "Is there a special reason why you're lying to me?" She tried her best to cover the annoyance in her voice, but Callie knew Arizona would notice it anyway. "What?" the blonde asked with a weird facial expression. "Is it because I played the whole time with Emily?" Callie asked. "I know, we haven't spoken about this topic,…since the shooting, but I thought, we would" – "Calliope!" Arizona cut her off. "Listen to me. It isn't because of you and your wish for children. We will have kids. Of course we will." Callie's anger was washed away, she couldn't do anything else then smile. "It's just, that I associate many memories with Megan. Memories I forgot. Memories which are now flowing though my mind. That's all." Arizona explained to the love of her life. "What memories?" Callie asked. "Good ones and bad ones" Arizona replied shrugging and Callie knew, it wasn't the time to ask after more information on her and Megan's past. But she slowly got the feeling, that Arizona was hiding something from her.