Hello all! So sorry for how long it's been since I've updated, I suck and repeat, I'm very sorry. Must try harder. Thank you to Music and Reading Lover, lita rocksLbC, annabre94, AlvinFan07, Meaghan Gibson, Lovergirl242 and freakinacage1234 you guys are seriously awesome! Enjoy. xx

Driving home from Lilly's Miley didn't make a sound. She just stared at her hands in her lap. Robbie kept sneaking glances at her through the rear-view mirror. Pulling into the driveway Robbie hadn't even turned off the engine when Miley raced out of the car and into the house going straight to her room, Robbie staring open mouthed after her.

Shutting the door she leaned her head against it and banged it twice. Fighting back the breakdown she could feel coming on she looked around her room. Rushing to the Hannah closet she grabbed two boxes and walked back into her room. Placing them on the bed she surveyed the room again.

Going to the DVD pile she quickly sorted through them, throwing any that were Lilly's or reminded her too much of her into a box. Next she went to her dresser and threw Lilly's brush, extra make up and mp3 player into the box as well. Then she hit the closet. Again anything of Lilly's was aimed at the boxes.

It was surprising to her to see all the stuff that had meandered from Lilly's room to hers over the years. Next Miley checked herself over. Luckily enough she wasn't wearing any clothes she'd borrowed from Lilly. Looking harder she took off her earrings, remembering that Lilly had bought them for her 18th birthday and then looked at her wrist. Almost shakily she took off the friendship bracelet Lilly had made for her when they were 11. She'd dutifully put it on every morning since but now it just made her need to be as far from it and her life as possible. She put it in one of the boxes then staring at them one last time she shut them and ,grabbing them, headed for the attic.

Dumping them up there she hoped that out of sight for the time being would mean out of mind. Taking another steadying breath she checked her watch. 15 minutes till her radio interview. Heading back to her now far tidier room she went into the Hannah closet and picked out a top and pants and changed. She roughly put her hair up and headed downstairs, carrying the wig with her.

Robbie was in the kitchen getting started on dinner and Jackson was on the couch watching what she assumed was football, she couldn't really make out the sounds clearly with how jumbled her head was. The phone was on the table and her notes next to it ready for when the radio station called to speak to Hannah. Miley walked to the sink and got herself a glass of water, taking a few sips helped her settle. She placed the glass down and closed her eyes, putting on the wig. As she did so she almost immediately felt better. She was Hannah now. Hannah wasn't confused over how she felt, Hannah could have anything she wanted.

"Mile? Mile??" She heard her dad now. She turned around and flashed him a smile.

"Sorry Daddy just wanted to get in character you know. I'm ready for the interview now. What time are they supposed to call?"

"Any minute now Bud" he said. Pleased that she was smiling but he still felt something wasn't right. But for now he'd go with it.

Hannah turned on the radio. " alright Malibu that was the Jonas Brothers with Paranoid and coming up next we've got an exclusive new track from Hannah Montana's new album Almost all grown-d up then we're gonna be talking to the lady herself so please don't go anywhere. Keep it J Ban."

As the second verse of the song started the phone rang and Mr Stewart turned the radio down and Hannah answered. The production guy on the other end of the phone quickly told her the types of questions they'd be asking her and she okayed them before saying hi to the DJ as the song came to an end. Her mind finally settling a little she delved into the interview, thanking whatever deity was listening that for now she had Hannah as an escape.

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A few blocks away Lilly walked in a daze up the path to her house. "Why did Miley say goodbye like that?" It made her stomach churn as if she just had to do a presentation in front of the whole class and she had no idea what she was supposed to say. Lilly checked her phone. No messages, no calls, she wasn't even sure why she checked but was still ….disappointed. "I can't call. I saw her ten seconds ago. And we need time to think."

"So what d'you want for dinner? Pizza? Chinese?" asked Heather, holding the home phone and preparing to dial.

"Pizza's fine"

"Okay. The usual then?"

"Yeah, thanks Mom." She smiled lightly at her mother. Maybe, just maybe she could talk to her about all this stuff....

"Okay sweetie come down in about a half hour alright."

"Okay" She said dragging her case to the stairs and taking it up to her room to repack for her weekend at her dad's. Turning on the light in her room it looked like nothing had changed in the four days that she'd been away and yet her whole life suddenly seemed so very different. She put her hands on her hips and surveyed her room, sighing a little. Little things about her room that she used to think were cute seemed a little silly now, after all she was an adult now and childish things must be put away. Deciding now was as good a time for redecoration as any Lilly walked over to her stereo and switched in on to listen to Miley's interview.

"Keep it J Ban" The song When I look at youcame on the air and the sound of Miley's beautiful voice helped calm Lilly's nerves as she began to sort through the things in her case. She came to her ruined shirt and held it almost reverently. It was insane how one item of clothing could take on such a drastically different meaning. Looking at it memories of her and Miley came flooding back to her, but not of them having sex. The memories that came to mind as she stared catatonic-ally at her shirt were far more subtle. "Yeah but I'm still nowhere near as pretty as you. Plus your ass looks great in jeans." Surely Miley wouldn't say something like that if she didn't mean it? Didn't drunk people generally tell the truth too? "How could anyone not want you.." Lilly did want her, she was so...soft and warm and loving and the look on Miley's face as she told her how beautiful she was was one she'd never forget. Lilly had always been somewhat of a realist and believed that something like her sleeping with Miley wouldn't have happened if there hadn't been some kind of bond, some feeling for each other that they'd both either not noticed or had totally ignored until it demanded their attention in the most extraordinary way.

Another feeling occurred to Lilly through the haze. She missed Miley! They'd been apart for all of five minutes and already she missed her. It wasn't unreasonable to say that they spent almost every waking minute together and she'd never really noticed how much time they spent in each other's company. They were always tactile, hugging and laughing, talking about anything and everything. Didn't all the very best relationships end up just as the two of them were now, truly the very best of friends?

In all honesty Lilly had never given all that much thought to what her life would be like after high school. She assumed she'd go to college but didn't have a clue which one or what she'd major in. When it came to her future home life she never pictured herself with anyone specific. She knew there'd be someone there to share her life with but it was like she wasn't yet able to see their face, it was always shaded in a kind of darkness. Putting Miley in that picture worked. She could easily see them standing outside the school gates dropping off little Andy or Veronica (those being the names she's picked out for her kids years ago), or making dinner together or just sitting together cuddled up on the sofa.

"That was When I look at you by Hannah Montana and we have Hannah here on the line with us, Hannah It's great to hear from you. How you doing these days?"

"I'm doing really good thanks Johnny, " Lilly's attention immediately went to the radio, "I just got back from London where I had an amazing time and met some amazing fans after my shows so I'm very happy indeed. How 'bout you?" It was subtle but Lilly could tell....that wasn't Miley she could hear. It was pure Hannah. It was a tone and way of speaking her friend only used when she was trying to hide something, or trying to forget...........and that made Lilly even more nervous. She knew all to well from her 16th birthday what could happen if Hannah took over.

"I'm doing good too thanks Hannah! So we just heard your first single from your new album. How long did it take you to write?"

"It took a good couple of months but luckily I had my dad on board who wrote pretty much all of my really big hits and I had an awesome band and producer to help so I'm really proud of it."

"Alright alright, now some of the songs on this album are a lot more grown up , They're are for example a few songs about falling in love for the first time and being scared and of having your heart broken, are any of these coming from personal experience?"

Miley didn't answer right away.

"It's sort of been a mix of my experiences and those of my co-writers and friends so although I might not know exactly what everything I'm singing about feels like, it comes from some place real. Somewhere that I think deep down everyone can relate to."

"So would you say this album is about you coming out as an adult artist?" The phrase 'coming out' threw her off guard a little.

"In some ways I guess it is. I'm not a kid any more and there's only so long you can sing about hugs and smiles and everything sweet and innocent. There comes a time when you have to start living in the real world and the real world has sex and pain and heartbreak and love. I think more of the album than you'd think comes from me. I've been in the business for the better part of ten years, juggling being on the road with my family and friends and school so I've seen my share of all the good and bad things this world has to offer"

Miley was pushing her way back to the surface in the interview. She had been through some pretty tough times, losing her Mom so young, almost everything to do with Jake and keeping this massive secret and adult burden of a whole other life. Yet somehow despite all this she was strong, would do anything for her friends and hadn't closed her heart off to love. No wonder so many former child stars had nervous breakdowns!

"Wow it's nice to have someone be so honest with us. So how do you get by. What gets you through the hard times?"

Again she didn't answer right away. Listening carefully Lilly heard a sigh and a small rustling. "Uh Hannah you still with us?" asked the DJ

"Uh yeah I'm still here." She replied, sounding somehow smaller, tired. There was Miley. Lilly could tell she'd taken her wig off. "It's my best friend that gets me through. She holds me when I cry, she tells me when I'm being an ass and celebrates with me when something goes right. I can never thank her enough or tell her just what her friendship means to me and how much I need her. True friend was an early effort but even that falls short." She laughed a little.

"Well I'll tell you what, we'll play True friend next and Hannah, thank you so much for talking to us today."

"It was my pleasure. J Ban rocks" The first few bars started to play and Lilly was totally floored. Maybe Miley did like her back. Was that why she said goodbye the way she did? Was she upset that she'd called it a drunken mistake? Did she want to see where this ...thing...between them would go and she'd just dismissed it out of hand, immediately squashing any hope either of them may have had of being together.

Lilly rubbed circles around her temples. How the hell was she supposed to figure any of this out! She stood up and grabbed a notebook and threw it into her case. Maybe if she wrote some of her thought and feelings down over the weekend she'd make some sense of all of this. It was then that Lilly's Mom called her down for dinner.

"Mile? Mile...Miley?!" Her dad was calling her but she wasn't going to respond. After that she couldn't have said anything without bursting in to tears, instead she just got up from the table and went back up to her room. She didn't bother to switch the light on. Being Hannah didn't work. It wasn't right to try and be someone else and she knew it. She couldn't keep up the fascade forever and if she tried long enough she'd probably end up with a split personality disorder.

She just flopped down on her bed, finally crying but feeling like a fool because of it. 'This is stupid. Sex is just sex, I'm not gay and no one is hurt. Everything is gonna be okay.' The past few days and the force of three live show plus rehearsals, a long transatlantic flight and getting wasted finally caught up with her. Her very bones ached her head pounded but it didn't take long for her to fall asleep lying right across the middle of her bed and still in her Hannah outfit wondering what exactly she was going to say to Lilly come Monday morning.