What does it mean to feel?
We do it every day of our lives, yet I fail to teach someone to feel…
I wonder how he feels sometimes…
I guess…
He just doesn't….
Kiku took a couple of steps back then smiled holding his arms out to Yao.
"Let see if you can move…" he smiled at him, "Come on~! You can do it Yao! Come to me~!" he repeated to try and encourage Yao; he also said it to encourage himself. Always doubting that it wasn't going to work and maybe that he should have listened to the others.
Yao lifted his arm jerking from time to time, moving his left foot forward slowly and making a jerked walk towards Kiku.
"Is… This…. Right?" he said in his monotone voice.
Kiku's smile grew and he nodded his head, "Hai hai! You're walking! Come on nearly there now!" he laughed a little and nodded his head again. He felt so happy, it was the happiest he's been for a while now.
The Chinese robot finally reached the arms of Kiku and held onto him, it didn't smile or show any sign of joy. He just clung onto the other.
"I'm so proud of you~! This is great, you can move by yourself!" Kiku laughed petting Yao on the head and smiling down at him.
"Proud? … What is…. Proud?" Yao looked up at Kiku and blinked, "…. Is Proud….. Good?"
Kiku sighed and nodded his head, "It's very good… It means that I'm happy and I love you…"
Yao nodded his head slowly, "….. Good….. Proud is…. Good… Does this mean love…. Is good too?" he tilted his head the other way.
Kiku blinked, "….Eto…." he closed his eyes for a while.
Was "Love" good?
It might be… Probably is…
But… But isn't that why Yao died? Because I loved him?
I loved him too much… I just… I DIDN'T WANT TO LET GO…
Oh the accident….
I wish…
He re-opened his eyes and forced a smile trying to forget what happened so tears wouldn't fall, "H-h-hai…. Love is good!" he forced a laugh but wasn't strong enough to hold the tears. Soon a river of tears fell down his face.
Yao blinked and gently touched Kiku's face and wiped away the tears with his cold hand, "…. Why is there water coming from your eyes? … Is this… Crying? Crying is sad isn't it? Then sad… That's bad right?"
Kiku shrugged he tried to stop crying but then broke into more tears looking down at the floor watching his tears fall onto the floor.
Yao looked down at the Professor and crouched down to his level and lifted his head up, "… Please don't cry… It's bad…"
Kiku blinked then nodded his head, "H-h-hai… Gomene…." Standing up again to look at Yao he smiled a little, "So you know what sad is?"
Yao nodded his head, "… It is in my program… Cell 4… Sad is a feeling… It makes you… It… It… It's just bad… No one should be sad… But… I don't know why? …. What does sad feel like? Can I have... An example?"
Kiku blinked his heart ached a little. He wanted to tell him what sad was…. What made him sad… He shook his head then sighed, "If you wish… Sad is when you lose something and you can't find it no more… That can make you sad…"
Yao stood up to look at Kiku in the eyes, "… What if you lose someone? Does that make you sad?"
Kiku gasped a little and then nodded trying not to cry again, "Y-y-y-es… It makes you very sad…"
Yao blinked and nodded his head, "Have you ever lost someone and felt… Sad?"
Kiku clenched his fists looking down a little and nodded his head, "H-h-ai…"
"Why did you lose this person? Why did it make you sad? Is the person special? What's special? What's special to you? Is special good? Why does it make you sad if you lose something special? Ho-" before Yao could finish off asking his endless amount of questions Kiku had ran off to his study and slammed the door.
He curled up in the corner and cried out loud, holding his head in his hands and crying until his throat hurt.
After a while he lifted his head and wiped his eyes, "Oh Yao… I lost you because I was stupid… It makes me sad because I can't bring you back the way you was…. You was the most precious thing I had so of course you was special… You're special and you're very special to me… Special's good it means I want to keep you forever by my side… When I lost you…. I… I wish I didn't come so close to you… But…." He looked over his shoulder at his desk looking at an old picture of him and Yao before his death. They seemed so happy…
Hello~! Thanks for reading Chapter 2 =w=
Yeah its longer then the last one XD Yay for that...
Ermm just to clear some stuff up just in case you don't know.
Hai = Yes
Gomene = Sorry
That's about it I think...
Also sometime soon in later chapters (If I get that far) You'll eventually find out why Kiku keeps saying he lost Yao because he was stupid.
Thanks again~!