Hello my dearest readers!
I am so sincerely sorry for not posting this sooner, this chapter just took me forever to write!
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Macy's POV
The dreaded day had finally arrived; Nick was getting married today. I hadn't gotten any sleep last night because of the numerous panic attacks that had overtaken me. I just still couldn't wrap my head around the idea that Nick, the only guy that I'd ever really loved, was getting married in just a few hours to a girl that wasn't me. I wished that I could just wake up from this nightmare and be back in my junior year still curled up in Nick's arms.
After waking up this morning, I had gone down to the venue where the wedding was being held and helped set up a bit, then dropped by Stella's for a few short minutes. Now, however, I am here in my room getting dressed for the wedding. I slipped my tight black dress over my head and walked into the bathroom as I was zipping it up. I stared into the mirror for a moment before I finally forced myself to continue, so I threw my hair into an elegant updo and did my makeup. I slipped my nude pumps on and grabbed my clutch purse before slipping out of the door. After crawling into Stella's small car, I took off.
I wasn't quite sure why I was leaving this early, when there was still over two hours until the ceremony. I was wondering what Nick was doing right this moment. I bet he was anxiously awaiting what would be the best day of his life. Smiling about how he would finally get to spend forever with the girl that he loved. I would never get that. I would never get to be with the guy that I really loved.
I sat in my car for almost an hour, wishing time went by a bit faster. I was hoping at no point Nick showed up and noticed me. Though I finally got out of the car, and was making my way up the steps when I realized there was still another hour until it started and I was the only one at the venue, so I took a seat on a nearby bench. I fidgeted with my fingers for a minute, but finally couldn't sit anymore, so I stood up and began pacing back and forth. "Macy it's going to be okay, you'll be fine." I muttered to myself over and over. I soon stopped though when I realized I was acting like a crazy person. Suddenly a car pulled up. "Great." I whispered sarcastically. They probably thought I had gone mad. Luckily, it was just Stella. "Macy?" She asked as she climbed out of her car. "What are you doing here so early?" I sighed. "I don't know." She walked up and wrapped an arm around my shoulder. "Nervous, huh?" She asked. "A bit." I answered. We soon walked inside the large building where the wedding would be held. "What do you think?" She asked as I caught sight of the ballroom where the reception would take place. There was fancy china on the beautifully decorated tables and red roses covered the room. A large dance floor was in the center, and twinkling lights were hanging everywhere. The one thing that caught my eye the most though, was the initials N & A printed everywhere. Nick and Amber, Nick and Amber, Nick and Amber; It was everywhere I turned. I wanted to just cry, to let it all out, break down on the floor and just scream. I wanted to leave, to run away and go back to my normal, consistent, boring life in New Jersey, where everything was constant and I could always rely on my days to be exactly the same. This, this was all some big mistake, me just being a naive dreamer as usual.
"Mace?" Stella asked, concern apparent in her voice. "What? Sorry." I mumbled quickly. "I think it looks beautiful. Did you do all of this?" She grinned. "Not all of it. I just sketched it all out, and then the wedding planner took it from there." She stared at the room proudly. "Well it looks amazing Stells." I honestly just wanted to get out of this place as quickly as possible, and not have the whole wedding rubbed in my face even more.
We eventually left because seating had begun for the wedding. We walked into the room where the ceremony would take place, and it looked just as breathtaking. Stella and I took our seats, even though there was still 20 minutes until the wedding begun. There was one thing I was wondering though. "Stell?" I asked. She turned towards me. "Why aren't you in the wedding?" I had been wondering this all week. Stella sighed angrily. "It's surprising, isn't it?" She asked rhetorically, then scoffed. "I would have at least thought that the boys would've put in a good word for me. But no, Amber gets to choose all of the bridesmaids." This just made me like the girl even less, let alone the whole idea of her stealing the boy I love from me.
Eventually, music erupted into the air and the wedding party made their way down the aisle. First Nick came from behind the double doors and walked down to the very end of the aisle. He looked beautiful standing there with his tux and signature curls. Next, Kevin and Joe strolled down the aisle accompanied by two of the bridesmaids, then more people that I didn't know all came down, and eventually Canon began to play so we all rose. Amber appeared in the doorway with her father. She looked stunning really. Her loose curls were pinned up and her beautiful white gown cascaded to the floor. As her dad, walked her down the aisle, the train of the dress dragged behind. They finally reached the front, and her dad lifted the veil from her face, kissed her cheek and placed her hand in Nick's before sitting down next to the woman who I was assuming was her mom.
The pastor began to speak. "Beloved, we gather here today…" His words began to bore me, so I soon zoned out completely. Though my eyes snapped up several minutes later, when he said, "Are there any here who object?" I fidgeted with my hands, so badly wanting to stand up and tell Nick not to do it, to be with me instead. But I knew I couldn't. Stella nudged me in the side, and I only shook my head. The pastor began to speak again. "Okay then Mrs. Blake do you take Mr. Lucas to be your lawfully wedded husband, to love and to cherish for as long as you both shall live?" Amber smiled and squeezed Nick's hand. "I do." She said slowly. I knew what was coming next, and even though I had thought I could, I knew I wouldn't be able to watch this. So I stood up, trying not to be a distraction, and snuck out of the large room. I ran down the stairwell and pushed the large doors open. The cold breeze whipped around me. I let go of the heavy door and it slammed shut. I found my way back to the lonely bench I had been sitting on earlier and sank onto it. It felt as if my whole world was crumbling down and there was nothing I could do about it. I took the pin out of my hair and my light curls all fell to my shoulders. A rain drop fell onto my arm. And then another one. And soon it had picked up, and large drops of water came plummeting from the sky as I sat all alone on that bench while Nick was inside vowing to spend forever with Amber.
Back inside:
Nick kept staring at the doorway, he had seen Macy leave, and couldn't help but want to run after her. He had realized something this week: His feelings for Macy had never gone away, and maybe he had only even started dating Amber in the first place to get over Macy. Maybe he had been trying to protect Macy from all the drama of the celebrity life. Maybe he thought she deserved someone who would always be there for her. Someone who wasn't always halfway across the world. Though, he'll never know why he did, Nick now realized that leaving Macy was the worst decision he ever made. He should have answered her letters, sent her roses to tell her how much he loved her, even called her on her birthday - But he didn't. And all week that thought had been haunting him. That he had completely deserted her, the only girl he had ever really loved, though he had talked himself into loving Amber but he knew all along it wasn't real. "Mr. Lucas?" The pastor asked, but Nick's eyes still remained on the door. "Mr, Lucas, for the fourth time, do you take Mrs. Blake's hand in marriage?" Nick said nothing. "Nick, what are you doing?" Amber whispered angrily. "I just need a moment." He mumbled and ran out the door. He ran down the stairs as fast as he could, and pushed the doors open as he stepped outside. He was begging God that Macy hadn't left yet. His eyes searched through the pouring rain, scanning the perimeter for the girl that he so desperately wanted to be with, and finally he spotted the small brunette curled up on a bench completely soaked and wiping tears from her eyes. He had never seen anyone look that beautiful while crying.
Macy's POV
"Macy?" I jumped as a voice came from behind me. I quickly stood up and wiped my eyes, before turning around. Nick was standing behind me. "Nick? What are you doing?" I asked, wishing he wasn't here witnessing what a mess I looked like. "I'm not really sure." He mumbled, flustered. "Why aren't you in there getting married?" I asked. "Because I couldn't get another girl out of my head." He said stepping towards me. "Nick, just don't." I muttered. "You need to be in there getting married to Amber." I said a little too harshly. He looked a bit hurt. "But I love you." I just stood there, knowing that this would make it even harder to let go of him now. He continued when I said nothing. "And we kissed." I looked up at him. "That was a mistake." I whispered. A hot tear rolled down my cheek. "No, it wasn't. It couldn't have been. It felt so right." He begged. "Mace, I love you, I really do." I still didn't know what to say. "Do you even love me back?" He asked breaking the silence. "Of course I do." I practically yelled. "Why else would I be here?" He took a step forward, and in return I took a step back. "But Nick, you deserve someone like Amber, not someone like me." I said walking away, but being as stubborn as he usually way, Nick ran in front of me. "What is that even supposed to mean?" He yelled. I took a deep breath. "That you deserve someone who's pretty and funny and fits your lifestyle." I said letting a few tears escape, he brushed them off. "But you are all of those things." He whispered. "And so much more." He lifted my chin, forcing me to look into his eyes. "Mace, I want to be with you." I pushed past him. "Nick you're just making this harder." I paused. "Don't you get it? We were never supposed to be together. Fate doesn't want us to be together, otherwise it never would have separated us in the first place. I mean, come on Nick, we haven't seen each other in three years. Maybe it's just time to move on." He said nothing, so I kept walking. "I'm sorry." He said, his voice shaking a bit. "For what?" I asked softly, turning around. "For leaving you." He said sadly. "For never calling you. For completely ignoring you. And for not telling you that I was getting married." I shook my head. "It's fine. I never blamed you. I understood that you had much more important things in your life. I was just a distraction. I get it." I paused. "But what I don't get, is why you have to do this." I cried. "And right when I was starting to move on." He touched my arm. "No, don't move on Mace. I don't want you to." I scoffed. "Well congratulations, I can't." I snapped at him, and glared as a grin spread across his face. "But it doesn't mean anything, Nick." I mumbled wiping a tear from my cheek. "Because you promised Amber you were going to marry her, and I can't let you call off the wedding. I won't let you." He shook his head, clearly getting angry now. "Well what do you want me to do?" He yelled. "Marry a girl that I clearly don't love?" I took a deep breath. "Just pretend that I never came. If I had never come and ruined things then you would be married right now. Just go back to that. Go back to loving her and forgetting about me." Nick grabbed my arm, as I was walking away. "Mace-" He began, but I was tired of hearing this so I kept walking and called over my shoulder, "You let me go once, it shouldn't be that hard to do again." And with that I walked away and out of Nick's life forever.
I know what you're thinking.. How could you endd it like that? But don't you worry, it's not over quite yet. I still have the second part of this chapter and the epilogue to post.
So hang in there, I should have them up soon.
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