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I'm writing again! I hope that's a good thing :) Review!
Jacob POV
I walked along the beach with my hands shoved deep into my pockets and my head bent against the wind. I sat on the driftwood tree that Bella and I had spent so much time at. Bella. What the hell was she doing? Cullen had left her and she was such a mess. I remember feeling so bad that I couldn't do anything to help her when she was so depressed. Depressed wasn't even the right word to describe how Bella was. She was empty. She was broken. And it killed me so much when I saw her like that. I think that might have even been the reason why I fell even more in love with her. She's incredible. But yet again, I went and screwed everything up. Cullen coming back didn't help much either. Things were just starting to work out between Bella and I. And then he comes waltzing into her life and throws everything off balance.
I'm glad I had come down to the beach this morning, I needed to clear my head. I took a deep breath of that salty ocean air. So clean. I closed my eyes and rested my head on the back of the tree.
Bella had called me this morning saying that things needed to cool off between us for a while. I flipped, asking if she was going back to him. She said no, and that she had told him the same thing that she told me. That she needed some alone time, to figure out what she was going to do. When she told me this, I couldn't decide to be happy or not. It means that she loves me enough not to go rushing back to him, but that she still loves him enough to have to think about it. I don't know what I would do if she chose him. It would break my heart, but deep down I wanted Bella happy. She deserved that much.
BPOV
I rolled over onto my side in my bed and turned my iPod on. It was about 2 AM and I couldn't sleep. This morning, I had called Jacob and told him what I had told Edward. I couldn't decide what to do about Edward or Jacob. I loved both of them so much it hurt. Years ago, whenever I couldn't decide what to do, my mom had always told me to visualize the future with it. When she told me this, I was probably deciding between a Barbie or a Furby, not the decision of who to spend my life with. I had thought of what my life would be like with Edward ten, twenty, thirty years from now. I would make him change me, and we would be teenagers forever. That was definitely a pro, no matter how selfish it sounds. I loved Edward's family so much. I could deal with Rosalie, so that didn't matter. I would have forever with Edward. Forever. That was definitely amazing.
Jacob. I always felt that his pack accepted me, vampire girl and all. They were really nice, and I would find a way to put up with Leah. I'd known Jacob since I was a little girl. Even when my mom left my dad, I still remained good friends with Jacob. When I came to visit Charlie, I would always see Jacob. And when I stopped visiting Charlie on Forks, I still wrote letters, e-mailed, and IM-ed him. Jacob knew everything about me, all flaws included. And he was there for me when no one else was, when Edward left.
Now, onto their faults.
Edward. HE LEFT ME. Told me he loved me, spent an amazing school year and summer with me, and left. Did I mention how he LEFT me? But other than that gigantic detail,. Edward had been wonderful to me. Beyond wonderful.
Jacob. He could be a total ass at times. One of the best examples of this would probably be one of his freak-outs when Edward came back the other day.
Ugh, sorting this into a Pro/Con List was not helping at all. And I still couldn't fall asleep. As much as I loved Jacob, something just kept tugging me towards Edward. And that wasn't helping things at all…
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Well, I hoped you guys liked this. I know this chapter was really short and mainly fluff, but I haven't updated in seven months….and I just needed to write something! Let me know what you think of this….
~Dolphinogirl