The party at the Park Hotel was beyond lame. Nate was running late, Serena was missing, and all Blair could think about was the two of them together. Not for the first time that evening she wished for the secret powder that lay hidden in her silver jewelry box. She would have already been flying higher then a kite if it weren't for the fact that tonight was supposed to be the night she finally gave herself to Nate. Everything was carefully orchestrated, down to the lit candles and rose petals on the hotel bed. She just needed him to show up so she could give him the key to their room.
Having already spent half the night dissecting and dismissing the majority of the outfits there, Blair was bored. Sighing over the martini glass that she had already replaced several times, she let her gaze wander the room. Trapped instantly by a pair of dark glittering eyes, she fought to look away. She tried not to see the look of pure unadulterated lust reflected back at her, but it was no use. Chuck would not be ignored and her body answered his call, her nipples tightening into painful buds, her thighs growing slick.
Hot and bothered, she rose, moving to the nearest window. Resting her fingers on the sill, she looked out at the busy streets below as the cool air rustled the curls framing her heated face. She felt him before he spoke, his presence shrouding her, slowly choking her will away.
He leaned in, inches from her ear. His breath was hot and moist, causing a slow shiver to spread throughout her body. Unable to move, she was drawn to him like a moth to a flame, like a junkie to their next fix, and it both disgusted and filled her with an unquenchable desire.
"Tell me you want me as much as I want you." His voice, low and throaty, kindled a fire deep in her belly.
"Only in your wet dreams," she said sweetly from over her shoulder as she caught sight of Nate in the reflection of the window. Without a word of dismissal, Blair rudely left Chuck standing at the window all by himself.
"Bitch," Chuck growled. His own desperation to be near her when she only had eyes for Nate mocked him until he could hardly see straight. He wanted to throw her down on the floor and fuck her until all she saw, all she heard, and all she thought about was him.
"Nate," Blair cooed, throwing her arms around him. With a calculating look at Chuck, Blair leaned in to capture Nate's lips with her own. He kissed her back sweetly, almost hesitantly, and she had to fight back a groan of frustration. She wanted him to ravish her with his mouth, forcing his will on her until she had no desire other then to lay naked before him. Annoyed at his gentle touch, she wiggled closer, rubbing her moist center against his leg.
He pulled his lips from hers, leaning it to whisper in her ear, "What are you doing?"
Blair moved away, forcing back tears of frustration. "Do you really need directions?"
"I thought we were waiting. You want to do this—now?"
The nervousness she heard in Nate's voice made her want to cry. She needed this, a chance to get back her first time. She wanted Nate to bury himself so deep inside her that she would forget Chuck had ever been there first. "Please Nate," she replied, trying not to blush with shame at her plea.
Nate took a deep breath, "I'll get us a room."
"I already have one." This time her cheeks reddened at the look of surprise he shot her. She knew it was bold, but she would do anything to forget the defilement she had she had suffered at Chuck's hands. Tonight was to be her resurrection. She would regain her innocence in Nate's arms and put back together the pieces of her life with every thrust of his hips. "Room number 647," she whispered, handing him a key.
"I'll meet you there in five minutes," Nate replied, swallowing nervously. "I need to take care of something."
"Okay," Blair said with a tight smile. This was the way it was supposed to be: her and Nate together. She knew if they could just make love, then the sickness that lay between her and Chuck would disappear. As she watched Nate head towards the hotel lobby, visions of Chuck's naked body fucking her over and over filled her mind. The pleasure he had given her, the tenderness he had shown her. Would it be the same with Nate? Could she really banish the darkness of her relationship with Chuck with one night of making love with Nate? Suddenly she was very scared that no matter what she did, Chuck would always be there. An angry scar, red and aching, that would remind her every day of the way he had branded her, made her his with his tongue, lips and cock.
Heading up the hotel stairs, she missed the angry, jealous eyes of the devil that followed her. Without speaking a word, Chuck grabbed her arm, leading her towards the farthest end of the balcony.
"Chuck! Let me go!"
Pushing her against the rail overlooking the hotel party, he stood behind her, his fingers cruelly shoving her ass into his groin.
"What are you doing?" she said sharply, trying not to look down as he lifted her skirt up, and slowly slid her thong to one side. He ground his thickness against her and she tried to twist away from him, but he grabbed her arms, holding them immobile behind her back until she was trapped. Her eyes fluttered close, her breath coming in short pants as she waited eagerly for the punishment she knew she was about to receive.
"You are mine, Blair. Maybe you need a little reminder," he taunted.
Blair couldn't help the shiver of lust that ran through her at his words. Bending her over slightly, he released her arms only to tangle one of his hands in her hair painfully. With the other hand, he unzipped his pants, releasing his cock.
"Someone will see!" she cried out violently. Jammed up against the railing, she looked down at the party below. Pasting a smile on her face, she pretended to observe the crowd dispassionately as she quivered with anticipation.
"You should have thought of that before you decided to play with Nathaniel. I told you once there would be no other besides me, and now you will suffer the consequences."
"Chuck, please," Blair begged even as she wiggled closer to him. "I love Nate. What happened between us was a mistake, something dirty and wrong that needs to stop."
"You don't know what love is," he growled as he readied himself behind her.
"He's waiting for me. Tonight is supposed to be our first time," she whimpered. For some reason, she felt she still had to fight even though she knew she had already lost.
Ignoring her completely, he parted her already soaked pussy lips with his hand. "So beautiful," he whispered.
That was the only warning Blair had before he shoved his thick cock into her core. Even though she was already dripping wet, it still took some time to adjust to his width as he pressed forward. Knowing she had no choice but to submit – if she wanted this little scene to go un-noticed – aroused her in a way she wouldn't have thought possible. With a moan, Blair leaned forward just a little to allow him better access. Swaying her hips slightly, she tried to ease his entry and slow him down so she could take all of him without pain. He fit inside her so tightly, heightening her arousal to such a fevered pitch that she felt like she was made only for his pleasure. This thought made her want him even more, and she pushed back against him, taking another inch of him deep inside her.
"Fuck," Chuck hissed in her ear. "I—"
This small chink in his armor that revealed itself both thrilled and empowered her. Never before had he been at a loss for words with her. Instead of feeling defiled and debased by his rough fucking, she now knew she was in control. When at last he began thrusting, the shock of pleasure it brought to her hot and fevered pussy caused her to clench down tight on him. Yet it wasn't enough. Opening her thighs wider, Blair took him even deeper inside her and still she wanted even more. Looking down at the party and seeing couples holding hands…sharing kisses, she wondered what it would be like to have that with him. The thought of being claimed publicly by Chuck Bass made her ache and throb, and she wriggled her hips in ecstasy.
"Stay still," Chuck growled as he slapped her lightly on her right ass cheek.
She bit her lip to keep from crying out as this little bit of pain heightened her pleasure. As he continued to pound into her, her clit ached and throbbed, desperate for his touch. Yet he ignored her need for release. Hammering into her pussy again and again, his cock slid against her sensitive flesh, leaving flames of fire behind, but never enough to make her come. She was so close, hanging on by a thread, her nerve endings tingling with electricity. Still he avoided the one spot he knew would drive her over the edge and instead just kept filling her. Over and over it continued, until it felt like an eternity, and yet she couldn't bear the thought of him ever stopping. Together they had become one, and she could no longer tell where he started and she ended.
Thrusting deeply, Chuck came at last, his hips stilling and ending the delicious friction that she still needed. Begging for more, she thrust back against him. His cock hit her G spot and she shuddered, and while it gave her a taste of the pleasure that could be, it didn't ease her fevered ache.
"Want something, Blair?" Chuck laughed. The dark, cruel tone in his voice hinted at the torment he knew he was inflicting.
She said nothing even as her nails bit into her palms, leaving half moon dents in her fragile skin.
"Tell me you love me," he demanded as his hand reached over in front, cupping her pussy.
Blair shook her head violently as his cock once more hit that secret spot, and she saw the outline of the heavens. She was so close. She needed this, had to have this. His index finger slid over her swollen and engorged clit, and all she could think about was the mind blowing pleasure that he could give her. Surely that was worth a little white lie?
"I love you," she whispered to her shame, the words lost among the heavy thumping music of the deejay.
He couldn't have heard her, but then he was there, pinching and teasing her nub with his thumb and index finger as she jerked beneath him. Searing pleasure combined with sweet pain as he slapped her buttocks again. Closing her eyes, she savored each and every sensation as he teased and tormented her, bringing her to the brink again and again. Twisting against him, she fought for release but he gave her none, holding her even tighter as her orgasm at last hit her hard and fast. In his embrace, she rode wave after wave of pleasure until she swore she could take no more. But still he persisted in his torture, sending her barreling into another climax that left her boneless. Captured and subdued, she leaned her head against his chest, the outside world now long forgotten.
As he pulled out of her, she couldn't help the small whimper that escaped her lips. The loss of him, the emptiness he left behind, almost broke her.
"If Nathaniel could only see you now," Chuck jeered coldly as he zipped up his pants.
Blair turned to face him, adjusting her thong and skirt to at least give the semblance of propriety. "You know I can't see him now. You may have won this round, but I can guarantee you this will never happen again," she spat out.
To her surprise, Chuck cupped her face tenderly in his hands. "I don't win until I have all of you – body, heart and soul. I will settle for nothing less. Why don't you spare us the drama and break things off with Nate. Can't you see that he will only hurt you? "
"And you won't? What am I to you? Nothing but a fuck toy…a game," she replied bitterly.
Pulling her further into the shadows, he gripped her shoulders painfully, capturing her mouth in a searing kiss that left her breathless. "You were made to be my queen. Choose me, and the world will be our kingdom," he replied, his voice hinting at a world of darkness and seduction.
"You make me sick," she lied, even as arousal, thick and heavy, burned once more in her belly.
"I won't wait for long," Chuck warned as he walked away, leaving her shamefully craving him all the more.
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